{blackbird} singing in the dead of night

blackbird singing in the dead of night
'blackbird' || female || newborn || minispell, candles ~~crow spell~~

14.2.13
Mostly wandered around, admiring the forest bathed in warm light. Came across a fawn(Lieva) slightly taller than her. Curious. Stayed at a distance, bowed frequently. Trying to be polite. Was reared at. Lots of headtilts. Didn't understand what she did wrong. More shaky bows, aiming to appease the other. Didn't work. Bolted when the fawn seemed to charge her way, came back shortly. Doesn't know why she keeps returning. Probably a need for social interaction, is almost constantly alone. Starting to understand what being lonely is like. Friendly efforts were just met with more aggression; taunting, rearing, and the like. Saw the fawn exchange nuzzles with another(Jorogumo). Was interpreted that she was not welcome, while others were. Ashamed and upset, ran off and sat by herself. As usual.
Grew restless, wandered more. Settled down in the birch, eventually. Was approached by a doe(Thais). Wary considering how the behavior she thought was friendly was met with hostility. Not sure what to expect anymore. Allowed herself to be coaxed closer to her, not offering up nearly as much of the resistance she usually did. Emotionally and physically worn out, not able to put out the effort to keep her guard up.

1.2.13
Woke up in the Birch forest, saw some commotion going on in the vast blue flowers, peeked out from behind trees. Approached by a stranger(Fletcher), causing her to back up a few steps. When he got even closer, started shaking and fled to take shelter behind another tree. This happened again and again until it seemed to catch the attention of a different deer. A scary deer. Boxed in by the two, flashed feathers anxiously and backed up into the tree. Joined by a doe recognized from the previous day(Sabine), who wasn't nearly as frightening as the two others and was allowed closer than they were on account of that. Wished Daneth were there, not sure how but figured that the kind stag would be able to get her out of this. Saw an opening and bolted, followed by Fletcher. Kept running away from him, eventually found her little hiding spot among the rocks in the Playground, wedged herself in as tight as she could while a male advanced(Schadenfreude). Ignored his attempts to get her out, catching her breath in the only completely safe place she could find. Curled up in her hiding place, confident that he cannot follow her in.

31.1.2013
Thirsty. Headed down to the pond for a drink, was approached by a rather rambunctious deer. Backed away a bit, but found herself trapped between the stranger and the water. Then blinding light and a loud noise. Next thing she knew she was fleeing, tripping over her own hooves as she tried to get away from them and ease her pounding headache. Wedged herself between two rocks in the playground, panting.
Wandered around until a deer caught her attention(Sabine). Peeked out from behind trees and lingered by the treeline. But she was noticed anyway, and the doe bowed to her. She must not be very good at this 'hiding' thing. Considered running, but knew it was too late for that. Shakily returned the greeting, caution intensifying as the fawn accompanying the doe got up and started over. Stayed on the fringe of the group, feeling slightly more safe when Daneth arrived. Was asked to sit. Didn't really know what to do, ended up tentatively sitting down near the buck.

30.1.2013
Woke in the blinding light of the Birch. Attention captured by another with feathers like her(Luyu), followed in a daze. Maybe she wasn't the only little one here? Bigger deer can be bad. Approached by the other fawn, lost her wit and bolted, only to return later. Watched her sit with two others(Daneth and Vivian), unable to bring herself to approach but compelled to draw nearer. Hovered a little bit away, froze when the buck got up and came closer to her. Flashed her feathers fearfully, but the other wasn't aggressive in the least. Still kept up her submissive behaviors, saw him bow and copied the movement. Positive results, bowed multiple times to them in hopes of getting the same reaction. Liked it.
Met the twilight doe and was slightly less skittish as she resisted the urge to run away. Despite her cautious nature didn't think the gentle doe would hurt her. Doesn't dislike any of them, walls are put up to protect herself, not hurt others. Fleeing is still an option, but the fawn settled down near the group, not quite giving in to sleep but almost.

take these broken wings and learn to fly

all your life you were only

Frail-boned and jet black, the fawn resembles a cervine equivalent of a young blackbird. An ebony crest of feathers adorns her head, bright crimson woven in a pattern similar to the wings of a male red-winged blackbird. When frightened or when the fawn's health drops low enough she will revert to her blackbird form represented ingame by the crow spell. When she does this she doesn't have control over when she will turn back, and although it leaves her drained it is good for getting out of a tight spot and escaping danger. Her feathers are the same tone as her fur, and two patches of red peek out from the black. The bright scarlet feathers are usually covered by her longer feathers but when she feels threatened or afraid she will splay her feathers outward in an attempt to scare the attacker by making herself look bigger. Flashing her red patches is another method of defense, oftentimes followed by fleeing from the threat.

Flighty. Uncertain. Quiet. Unpredictable. Fragile.
More coming.

waiting for this moment to arise

blackbird singing in the dead of night

Lessons.
Acceptance; Daneth, Vivian.
Cold; the Pond.
Terror; stranger.

take these sunken eyes and learn to see

all your life you were only

Relationships here.
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waiting for this moment to be free

January 29, 2013 - 6:26am — niriya

8D Is she on now? Pica would

8D Is she on now? Pica would sure like to meet her! And I love how you've integrated a poem(?) into this.

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Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

January 31, 2013 - 4:32am — blackbirdfly

February 1, 2013 - 2:11am — blackbirdfly

sight; yep, that would be

sight;
yep, that would be her. ;u; she needs to learn some manners and stop running away from people every other second haha~

wake;
luyu's so cute! <3

waning-sun;
thanks! ♥

February 1, 2013 - 4:03am — Clare

&hearts;

♥

February 1, 2013 - 4:11am — blackbirdfly

February 1, 2013 - 4:27am — VOCT

thanks! <3 ; A ;

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