a good day - the seventh moon

eyestrain's picture
You dressed me selfishly, then played the terror. A constant push and pull of panic and pretend impatience. I am ignoring you. Don't fall off my back while we're dancing, now. I haven't laughed so in ages.













Showing off for a little one, I tease an old friend.
I tease a dragon, just to try it. We play games with our clever feet and clever heads, laughing deeper into the forest.
He leads me to a clutch of stone eggs. His back is warm and smooth, and I doze in feathers.





All of this looks awfully familiar. Don't I know you?
Red red red. Didn't this mean something? Hm.
Aha, happy and laughing child. Look, my little insect. Haughty, mighty headdress
and one who
turns
their
head
every time I do.








My face hovers high above my head
There is a phantom in the forest with your name
An insistent child leads me about by the nose
a tower with a rabbit at its base
a loving couple sleeping sweetly
twins on the rocks and you there again, my friend, opaque but then you are a fawn, and not you at all
sleep paralysis i do not lay down to sleep, but everything fades to black
There is an old man trapped in a hole
two of his followers adopt me and I hold a shape-shifter as they disappear




i never saw beneath your mask
but I wondered about your face
are there crows' feet at the edge of your eyes from smiling?
Is your nose long and roman like mine?
What I wondered, dear stranger, is
are you me under there?









glad to see you little dancing partner glad to see you big black glad to see you familiar strange face but tired oh so tired just sleep and sleep



voice:











Laughing so hard... you little skull-faced butterfly and this one seems to hate the rain Won't you come inside? No? Oh little butterfly Until we meet again I love you An old brown stag of many colors is father today and mother right behind him leap into your belly after a long day a second comes to fill the emptiness left by the first This strange creature and I are becoming one what fun! you, you, you. knock heads. Rub necks. Walking your footsteps. What a mess. too tired to even move all our energy is blasting from our radiant halo




little brown creature (the first face I see) you smell good a white laughing face, I laugh a familiar face, crow faced friend where'd you go? yell TAG into Spyrre's ears matching pairs, matching pairs stable is The Red Why is everyone gone? What did I do? aletheia three smiles a desire to cover my face you were kind to me before please take care of me again i just want to be near you strange mushroom man and three smile my body is changing




Stomp the flowers, little fawn
crush them under hoof and flatten the whole patch with your body
roll with your friend on the vibrant blue petals
run with him through the forest, two bobbing lights in a dream world
tickle his cheeks with your fluttering eyelashes
because at any moment
you will be gone







The doe heard the faint pattering of the fawn's hooves. She knew someone was there, but who...she didn't know. Not receiving an answer to her question, though, she chose to see what the stars may say for whoever was out there.

Speaking a little louder than normal, she said the fortune for the fawn: "Ah, now I see that you are a mere fawn, perhaps you simply do not have the voice to come near. But I do see something for you, not short term but in the future. You will develop very well, and become a great deer, a role model, perhaps a leader if you choose to do so. But from there I do not know what you will become. There are many things that can affect your life, many choices that can alter who you will grow to be. Whatever path you choose, I want you to know that you will have little difficulty getting there."


Listening intently to her voice, head cocked,
the fawn's tail flickered
and the secretive smile starting from his eyes
made his face into a voice
that seemed to laugh
as he turned
and
dashed away

kicking up his legs with abandon.




At last
the stag
disappeared












THE FIRST brd APPEARED JULY 25th 2010
AND DISAPPEARED MARCH 29th 2011
"the heart as..." was read 6786 times.
THE SECOND brd APPEARED APRIL 14th 2011




x x x x x x x x x x x x x






eyestrain's picture

Serenai...? Thank you

Serenai...?


Thank you Okami. Quite the hubbub last night, wasn't it. That's the first time brd has been in a fight. Hope Ryuu wasn't hurt.

I don't strive to be the best, but instead I strive to do my best, and always give it my all every time.
-faunet
OkamiLugia's picture

Yes, he should be fine. He

Yes, he should be fine. He felt worse for stressing poor Brd xD
eyestrain's picture

It was a consequence of his

It was a consequence of his own actions, it was very kind of Ryuu to try and help.

I don't strive to be the best, but instead I strive to do my best, and always give it my all every time.
-faunet
Serenai's picture

The latest entry simply...

The latest entry simply... Struck a chord in me. ♥
Icon Art © Beloved
Serenai's picture

♥ That devotion could


That devotion could kill, if love itself could kill, like a heart attack.
Icon Art © Beloved
shaku's picture

I'm half please and half

I'm half please and half disconcerted that the first time I got to see Brd in the forest... I was logged onto my prankster's account XD;;

I apologize for my fawn's rude behavior toward your lovely deer ♥

Edit: Went back through a few entries I missed... dang. The one Serenai quoted earlier... So incredibly powerful.

eyestrain's picture

Oh? Nothing to apologize for.

Oh?
Nothing to apologize for. Etiquette isn't a strong point of mine, I didn't notice.

Thank you very much, Shaku. Though it surprises me to receive so much high praise, I appreciate it.


And Serenai.
What you wrote, I really liked it. It hits the nail on the head, doesn't it.

I don't strive to be the best, but instead I strive to do my best, and always give it my all every time.
-faunet
shaku's picture

I love how calm Brd is. I

I love how calm Brd is. I think yours was the first deer Vasska has climbed on top of (where the player has been present) that hasn't chased him... either in play or annoyance XD

You're so modest~ ;u; I hope that if I ever become as talented as you, I can receive compliments in a similar manner.

eyestrain's picture

Compliments make me squirm.

Compliments make me squirm. So I try very hard to take them well. Because I am grateful.
I think you are already very talented.

See you around the forest sometime.

I don't strive to be the best, but instead I strive to do my best, and always give it my all every time.
-faunet
Fincayra's picture

Very well. (: ♥

Very well. (: ♥
shaku's picture

You did fantastic, Brd ;u;

You did fantastic, Brd ;u; You were so brave~

eyestrain's picture

I swelled with pride. Thank

I swelled with pride.
Thank you both so much.

I don't strive to be the best, but instead I strive to do my best, and always give it my all every time.
-faunet
Serenai's picture

It... Was merely a slight

It... Was merely a slight statement.
But I do believe that such... Pure love as Brd has would be lethal, if any love was. Thank goodness it's not. I would be long since dead.

I bet... He did only good. And that in itself is the most beautiful.
Icon Art © Beloved
The Forest Monk's picture

I love reading all these

I love reading all these powerful entries. I've been following them for some time. Im a little intrigued on his story.
I hope to meet Brd sometime.
I
Aletheia's picture

I was just...tired. Sorry


I was just...tired.


Sorry about all the running. We had a little sad spell.

Also.

A big hug to you and Brd. A reports that he makes a great pillow, as well as a nice blanket.
It made me happy seeing him there when A was by the statues.
eyestrain's picture

It makes me so happy.

It makes me so happy.

I don't strive to be the best, but instead I strive to do my best, and always give it my all every time.
-faunet
Aletheia's picture

I'm really glad.

I'm really glad. <3
Serenai's picture

Me too, and I'm just

Me too, and I'm just watching.

I smiled... ♥
I'm thinking of you quite a bit now. You and the sweetheart Brd. -u-
Icon Art © Beloved

I would like to say more but

I would like to say more but can not find better words.

Calming. Thank you.

I hope you don't mind me and

I hope you don't mind me and my friend watching you for a bit.
Brd seemed lonely, for some reason.
eyestrain's picture

Sometimes he gets nervous in

Sometimes he gets nervous in groups, but thank you for being so considerate.

I don't strive to be the best, but instead I strive to do my best, and always give it my all every time.
-faunet

Mm, I remember him being a

Mm, I remember him being a bit like that when he met Thursday, once I believe.
And you're welcome, dear. (:
Munkel's picture

I loved the colours of the

I loved the colours of the three, it was very nice with Brd and Ephiré ♥
Serenai's picture

I adore the play on color.

I adore the play on color. The creation of gray, and the meddling between red and blue... It leaves me curious. I love the way the questions are asked.
Icon Art © Beloved
Sleepything's picture

I really should have

I really should have commented on this earlier, I just wanted to let you know that I seriously adore Brd. ♥

adorable art by Tuoho! ♥
Serenai's picture

That .gif is just beautiful,

That .gif is just beautiful, which I rarely find myself saying, so I thank you for that alone. It's brilliant, and well-executed.

I can support that diary name, too. ♥
Color seems to be very important right now.

I'll keep that in mind.
Icon Art © Beloved
Parasol's picture

For you

For you
shaku's picture

Brd, you're breakin my heart

Brd, you're breakin my heart ;n; ♥

eyestrain's picture

? Don't be sad...

?


Don't be sad...

I don't strive to be the best, but instead I strive to do my best, and always give it my all every time.
-faunet
shaku's picture

"my hope it might someday be

"my hope it might someday be returned is dead.
I hope now, someday you will remember.
Once, long ago, I gave you love."

;A;

eyestrain's picture

In real life, too, I feel

In real life, too, I feel this way about someone.
At some point, it just becomes less painful to stop hoping. But since I cannot stop loving, I must have a different reason for sending out my affection than expecting it in return.

... but maybe that was obvious and I didn't need to explain...

I don't strive to be the best, but instead I strive to do my best, and always give it my all every time.
-faunet
shaku's picture

I understand completely.

I understand completely. Completely, completely. I wish I could take the pain away. Mine has been so heavy for so long... I feel like this type of burden doesn't go away quickly, but maybe that's because I don't want it to? I didn't mean to drag myself into this... I more meant to say: I empathize. And I'm glad you explained.

Serenai's picture

You have this way of writing

You have this way of writing feelings.
I always feel what you mean.
Icon Art © Beloved
eyestrain's picture

I'm surprised... I don't mean

I'm surprised... I don't mean to make anyone sad. I just want myself to remember, later, how I felt, so that I can sympathize with the me of the past and not be so critical of the choices I made.

I'm sorry you are tangled in love that hurts, Shaku. You can talk to me about it, if you'd like to lay it down for a while.

I don't strive to be the best, but instead I strive to do my best, and always give it my all every time.
-faunet
shaku's picture

Such a good idea~ I think I

Such a good idea~ I think I can understand what you mean, even without knowing all of the details.

That's really sweet of you, but this love is old and I've learned to live with it. Things like this just make the ache a little sharper, as does this time of year~ But I would still love to contact you, if that's okay :3

eyestrain's picture

Please.

Please.

I don't strive to be the best, but instead I strive to do my best, and always give it my all every time.
-faunet
eyestrain's picture

(No subject)


I don't strive to be the best, but instead I strive to do my best, and always give it my all every time.
-faunet
Munkel's picture

&hearts;&hearts;&hearts;

♥♥♥
Ysrael's picture

Indeed. &hearts;

Indeed. ♥
Serenai's picture

&hearts; It's funny, in a



It's funny, in a sweet sort of way, how many people have a silent, watchful, protective eye on you.

Like a bird whose song everyone silently appreciates.
Icon Art © Beloved
eyestrain's picture

You are always giving me too

You are always giving me too much attention.

But I do feel loved.


I don't strive to be the best, but instead I strive to do my best, and always give it my all every time.
-faunet
Serenai's picture

There is no such thing. So

There is no such thing.

So long as I can, and desire to, there will never be such a thing.

And so long as I am able to give you love and attention,
I will always desire to.

Icon Art © Beloved
GanzfeldEffect's picture

You. &hearts;

You.
EternalWanderer's picture

I was unsure where to leave

I was unsure where to leave you it, but since I always wanted to track this beautiful page... here you go.
Sorry, it's so late. Odopod servers have been down since christmas and embed odosketches haven't been displaying, so it would be useless to link you to it.
Unplugged's picture

Eyestrain. How are you? How

Eyestrain. Smiling How are you? How are things going? How do you feel?
eyestrain's picture

It makes me really happy you

It makes me really happy you asked.
I'm using the slower winter session to try and learn to take care of myself. I learned I get very sad at night, so I am avoiding the computer. Things are good so far.
I hope you're well, and to see you soon.

I don't strive to be the best, but instead I strive to do my best, and always give it my all every time.
-faunet
Unplugged's picture

That sounds like a good idea,

That sounds like a good idea, it's good to hear you found something that works for you. I've been wondering so it's a relief to hear that.
Hart's picture

Hai.

Hai. <3
Keepiru's picture

heavy sleepers &hearts; (sry

heavy sleepers ♥
(sry to leave you alone now, gotta go, see you soon eye' <3)

Is that you I see? You're

Is that you I see? You're pictoless, but your set made me guess and I was right.


I'm glad Brd sat with us just now. (: We've been waiting to just relax with him for quite a while.