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when i can't breathe, don't call for a cop

July 14, 2017 - 9:04pm — Tosee
please be patient with me, sometimes i don't know how to act

and you can call this the funeral

tbd. eventually.

`vocals 1, 2
`reference
`is male but doesn't care for gender
`faint scent of different kinds of incense
`picto can be associated as "a pan burning incense"
`kabuki pelt, forest spirit mask, golden curved antlers

Was and always is an outcast, having shed his previous name when he suffered head trauma, nearly wiping out all of his memories. Had forgotten his name and possibly everyone else he had ever ran into, he faces the struggle of fitting in after remembering the first time he was here wasn't the best. In fact, the reason he has head trauma was basically from him a failed suicide attempt, although he has no recollection of him even trying. Suffers from headaches and migraines often.

Putti is bohemian and carries traits of being an artist, mostly in song and dance. Although his interests and traits have waned severely since the trauma, he is more melancholic and paranoid. But it doesn't stop him from being social and offering a friendly smile. He also has an untapped power that even he isn't aware of. Soon enough he'll appear different in terms of body. Perhaps this is from the trauma?

[mostly just an experimental character, not really sure if i'm ever going to be happy here again. but i guess i can try to fit in again (even though it fails every time, hah). here i go.]














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July 14, 2017 - 9:17pm — Shey
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♥
July 14, 2017 - 9:33pm — phantomhelsing
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well you have my attention,

well you have my attention, haha ~
July 15, 2017 - 1:02am — Bayleen
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Ooo, hello. I apologize if

Ooo, hello.
I apologize if you feel overwhelmed on this site ;;
I for one understand that feeling and get discouraged from time to time,
which certainly affects my muse and motivation.
If you ever want to rp or chat, feel free to hmu!
I look forward to what you create ♥
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July 15, 2017 - 1:15am — Tosee

shey;

shey; ♥
phantomhelsing; heh

bayleen; yeah this site gives me a lot of problems mostly from my past experience on here and the fact that i avoid people i used to know like the plague lol. ty, though. i'm up for anything, honestly. looking for whatever way to fit in? regardless, i'm okay with whatever, just not really on the biography, though. kind of want to keep it nice and tidy? i might just open another blog for interactions only.
July 15, 2017 - 1:26am — Bayleen
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^ Ah, I see. I understand

^ Ah, I see. I understand that. Well if you have a Discord, my user is bayleen#1090 or my email @ cld97@yahoo(.)com. If you're comf, contact me at either one for plotting, rping, or just a good chat : )
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July 15, 2017 - 1:34am — phantomhelsing
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I also feel ya on that, my

I also feel ya on that, my history here hasn't always been the smoothest either and after the first time I disappeared and came back I just could not fit in anywhere, anytime I tried I was just a big frustrated ball of anxiety |D My only saving grace now is my determination to have more patience with myself, and some friendly faces. Hopefully this next go round is a little more enjoyable for you.

And I'm seconding my pal Bayleen there, if you ever run into me I'm cool with pretty much anything, my deer and I are pretty chill c:

Also I'm really into your deer's backstory there, it's a little sad in context but it's interesting, I like the premise, I can't wait to see where it goes ^^

July 15, 2017 - 1:55am — Tosee

bayleen; thank you, but i'm

bayleen; thank you, but i'm kind of avoiding discord for the same reason. lots of people on there i don't want to have to talk to. i'm really crappy about email, so i avoid that too, sorry. :/ i'm just really paranoid about the past and if it's still going on with me here, but thank you, regardless. i'm sure we can just wing it with plot or whatever.

(ninja)phantomhelsing; i hate when something you really enjoy gets ruined by the people you thought you could get along with. i'll take the offer into consideration, but my paranoia is pretty bad haha. and thank you, my autism makes it really hard to just develop a character with months or years, it has to be right then and there.

also you both are welcome to hang out with putti anytime. he'll be sleeping most of the time so, i apologize in advance.
July 15, 2017 - 1:57am — phantomhelsing
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that's perfectly

that's perfectly understandable, took me years to get comfortable talking to people again, irl I'd never be this outgoing haha You do what makes you comfortable and at whatever pace here, I definitely won't press you or anything <3

If this is encouraging at all, I think you're off to a good start C:
July 15, 2017 - 1:58am — pumpkinseed
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I've gone and still go

I've gone and still go through this same anxiety. I only came back at the beginning of the year after a 5 year long absence. Take your time and let me know if you ever want to interact.
July 15, 2017 - 2:02am — Tosee

phantomhelsing; yeah, but

phantomhelsing; yeah, but being here for 10 years (off and on), the site/community has gotten really bad until it evened out a little bit, but that still makes me paranoid and wary, hah. also thanks, that really is encouraging.

pumpkinseed; yeah, i can relate, except it'd be a couple month's absance. and if you ever want to just hang out next to putti, go for it, i don't mind it.