I want to thank everyone for being at my mums funeral in TEF. I think it's great that mel was nice enough to plan this but even greater knowing that people I don't even know was there. I know my mum appreciates it. The funeral was beautiful and I can't believe some people got up early in the morning to go to it.

When my mum died I thought it wasn't happening and it wasn't real. I kept saying that we are bringing her back home...but she didn't come back with us..but for some reaosn I still feel like she is still here. She died and is never coming back and I hate that because I feel like I could have done something. But alas...I couldn't. We found out that what caused her death just so happened to be a blood clot that started in her leg then went into her lung....and I remember those days when she said that her leg hurt...for no reason. And since the clot went into her lung it didn't help. She had asma too. An hour before it all happened I was hanging out with her in the basement watching T.V. She was fine, happy, and laughing. When she went uptairs she passed out we called the ambulence they took her away and I didn't even get to say goodbye or I love you. But I didn't have to say I love you because she knew that already and I didn't say goodbye...I said hello. I'm saying this to not be a kill joy but I needed to say this ...people say she's in a better place now...I usually say...she never left. Yes my mum was only 40 and yes I do greive and cry some days but though I don't see her physically I feel her presence.... and a couple of years from now we still may cry but there will be times where we will laugh and say mum would so kick my butt right now or mum would so say that.

Yet again I will say I'm not trying to be kill joy but I needed to say this and I want to let you know I love my mum soooooo much!....and I want to thank everyone for attending the funeral and for those who wanted to. Thank you. And I hope that I get to meet you all! ^_^