(Spoken through the mind of my fawn, Kero Dai Shu.)

Who am I?
I find myself asking that question often. Too often.
It's not that I don't know my name. It's just... well, it's so complicated.

Kero Dai Shu. It means nothing, yet it means every thing. It's not in any language, yet it's so simple that it should be. My name makes me unique. Yet, that uniqueness is scary. Others hurry away from me once I start to play. Is it how I jump around and zig-zag? Or is it me? Am I the reson for my loneliness?

My line has become an endless repeat of silence. If I walk for long enough, if I roar often enough, some one comes. It's usually a fawn that comes to see me, at least that doesn't make me also feel tiny. Every fawn that I meet, we greet eachother by sniffing. This usually is fallowed by a respectful bow. I often start to hop, hoping they will play a game with me. Some times, when I'm lucky, the other fawn will hop as well. I run and hide, then zoom out again to incurage a game of tag or hide-and-go-seek. Any fawn that has not ran off by then usually shakes their head on walks away.

The older deer. The Stags. The don't bother to play with me, but I suppose that's okay. Some times I try to get them to dance with me, but they always walk away and ignore me. A few Stegs have even reared or acted angery at my efforts.

That leaves me wondering, who am I? Am I a lonely fawn looking for a friend? Am I to persistent? Am I to unique, to different? Am I just some helpless fawn that's been abandond by the other deer? Or am I just a nothing, an animal not ment to be there? Maybe I'm some thing else? Oh, how I wish I knew!

I have the habit of staying close to the pond, trying to find an answer. Will I still be there doing the same thing when I am a Steg? If I am, I will fight back my trecherouse loneliness with my antlers and win my place amongst the other deer. If I find my place when I am a Steg, I will become friends with all the other lonely fawns. That way they won't think they are very disliked or even hated. That way I could get even with my solitued. That way... I would know who I am.