I think I'm gonna have a nervous breakdown

ClosetMonkey's picture
I've been holding this for weeks and I really need to get it out. Sorry if I seem too harsh or if I'm ranting in the wrong place. I feel bad about kinda disrupting the peace here.

So, I am serious about the title. Why? My mum's partner normally works away in the mines. And This time he's come back for a three week holiday. We went on a holiday with him, and it's really hard being stuck in a hotel room with him for a week.

Then about a day or two before he has to leave again for work, he gets some bit of metal in his arm, and apparently it's really infected.

He's been staying home for WEEKS now. And I hate him more than ANYTHING.

He keeps following my mum EVERYWHERE, so I can't get any alone time with her. And why he's following her? He wants to complain to her about his DAMN ARM! It's been infected for weeks. It should really be better by now.

Just today mum was in with me watching me do the CSS thing and he comes and stands at my bedroom door. SERIOUSLY?!

And he's so.. ARGH! Grumpy and creepy and just all messed up, in my opinion. Normally he's at the mines for a week and comes back for a week. He's been here for like, 2 months now! SOMEONE GET ME OUT OF HERE!

Because he's been out and about the house, I've been locking myself in my room with only my laptop and TV for entertainment. And TEF works only on the big main computer out there. I CANNOT go out there and play it near him. I'd rather go without food for a whole day.

I really need help. I'm coming to the point when I'm getting really depressed. I know it sounds silly but imagine you living with someone you really hate for 2 months.

Mum knows I'm upset and she says she can't do anything about it. She actually is gonna break up with him in the next 6 months. Man, at this point, he won't even be back at work by THEN.

Yesterday my little sister was upset and he was YELLING AT THE TOP OF HIS VOICE AT HER. And she's only 3! What the HELL?

I really need some advice. Save me from this Hell house.

Thanks for listening.. I'm really upset with this.
z.m123's picture

I understand you. I had a

I understand you. I had a nevrotic breakdown once
ClosetMonkey's picture

That's sad D:

That's sad D:
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z.m123's picture

It's a terrible thing, try

It's a terrible thing, try not to lose control, if you do, you'll go suicidal
ClosetMonkey's picture

Yeah, it sounds like it is. I

Yeah, it sounds like it is. I think I'm far from the suicidal stage, though.

Mum just came in and she said she doesn't know what to do with him. She doesn't even know if he's going back soon.

Heck, she's been sleeping in a seperate bed from him for weeks. Everytime I hear his dull voice, I feel all different feelings inside. Bad ones, of course <.<
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I'm really sorry to hear

I'm really sorry to hear this.. I can't think of any advice, but we are all here for you if you need us <333
ClosetMonkey's picture

Thankyou

Thankyou <3
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I think the best advice I can

I think the best advice I can give is that you try to understand why you hate him so much. And when you have come to a conclusion, then you should try to accept the fact that he'll be around for a while. Accepting things are really the only thing that helps when you're desperate and don't want to be.
Hope that made sense, and good luck. <3 you'll be fine.
ClosetMonkey's picture

Thanks for the advice. I

Thanks for the advice. I think I could try to be more confident and go out a bit :>
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J!n's picture

What a fucking moron. I hope

What a fucking moron. I hope your mom dumps him soon. Ugh.
I don't think I have any good advice for you.. I'd just do what you're doing. Feel better soon. People are always willing to listen here. -hugs-
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That can't be fun. I'm not

That can't be fun.

I'm not really the best person to give advice, but I was young once, so I'll give it a go! (I'll put myself in your shoes and tell you what I would do)

Well, like yourself, I would want to get out of his way too. I'd go out to see my friends, or go out on a bike ride, or just go out for a walk, anything just to get out of the house.

Of course, you can't stay out all day long and will have to come back. I think then, I'd do the same as yourself, and lock myself in my room, but not until I stashed some food in there first!

Does he go out shopping with her too? If not, maybe you could go shopping with her and take that chance to talk to her while he's not around?

If he really went everywhere with her, and I never got the chance to talk to her, I'd sit down and write her a little letter, telling her how I feel, and what effect it's having on me, then I'd leave it somewhere where only she would find it.

I think the last resort would be to try and get along with him. It wouldn't be easy, and would take some work on my part, but if it worked and we got along better, it sure would make my life better while he's around.

Edit: Actually, the above should be the first thing to try, and do the other things if it doesn't work out.

*hugs*

That doesn't sound good at

That doesn't sound good at all! Sad
My only piece of advice would be to talk with your mum, explain that you really need some just you and her time. Maybe you two could go out somewhere fun, without him. Your mom's boyfriend has the right to spend time with her, but so do you.
Hope everything sorts itself out soon, hang in there. Smiling

Well i got something like

Well i got something like that..
My mom got a partner ,and after somethig happened with the owners of his old apartment ,she had to use it and kicked him out ,so my mom gave him to live with us ,its about a half year almost that he's here.. well im just ignoring him.. or if he anoyying you ,don't answer try to calm down ,and give him a glance of horror and anger ,then just keep doing what ever you did.
You really should just talk to your mother once about this alone.. and keep telling her and give hints to her that you can't stand this.. or you just gonna go crazy.. i bet she'll get hints if you can't talk with her alone..
I think this guy is really (sorry for that) asshole ,Seriously.. =A=
ClosetMonkey's picture

@Saosin: Yeah, he is a total

@Saosin: Yeah, he is a total bastar*. Mum said she just doesn't love him anymore. Oh, how I wish I had a time travelling machine, so I can go 6 months into the future. -Hugs back-

@Sluggs: It's not fun at aalll. Well, my friends have invited me to this disco on the weekend. It goes for a couple of hours, so I'll be going there. ^.^.

Actually, I haven't had the guts to go out and have dinner facing him for about 20 mins (I'm a slow eater) and I've been trying to have meals in my room. He said today he wants me to eat out there, though. Heck, why would I listen to him?

Thanks for the advice. It's actually pretty decent. -Hugglesquish-

@Terabetha: Yeah, I guess he does have a right. Today mum was chasing me around the backyard for fun (we're totally immature together lalz) then he comes and stands around waiting for us to stop. He's obsessed or something.

@xFlowerChan: Sorry to hear you've got a similar thing. I think this guy kinda has a point that I dislike him. He doesn't know I've been hating him this much, though

Thanks for that advice, too. I feel alot better with these comments :>

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