June 7, 2008 - 8:27am — Anzel
(i'm feeling 'ok' now, so don't mind this entry...)
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I...I thought I was in the clear..my moods normally stabalize after my period starts...but I...I fell into a fit of depression after my boyfriend left MSN...(he lives in brazil...no way to get to him...)...I tried to call him...even though I was scared to death that he'd be angry....b..but....his cell phone is recharging...I can't get through...
I'm crying my eyes out...I'm...I'm scared I'll do something I shouldn't...I'm really scared...I need help...please...I need to cheer up...I need someone...anyone...
I'm all alone here >_<;........
(i'm sorry if i'm scaring anyone...but i have no one else to ask for help from...i...i just need help...to feel better...i need to stop crying...)
It's 2:27 AM...I have no one else to turn to >_<;..........
I need someone to talk to....I feel really alone.............
Why doesn't anyone care >_<;.......
We all care! It's just
I CARE anzel *hugs* oh we
I've just been..waiting for
I just feel really sad right now...>_<;...my eyes hurt...and I'm hugging a stuffed animal...
I'm pretty pathetic...for a 16-year old girl......
Everybody feels that way
Can anyone see me in the
I'm 'in the forest' right now....at least, I'm on the map...
*sighs*...depression isn't fun...it hits me like a brick in the face, and the tears pour out...and this time, it hit me really, really, -really- hard >_<;...
); I really wish I knew what
I'll look to see if I can see you in the forest.
I just need to talk...to
If I don't show, or I show somewhere besides the oak...I'll restart TEF...
I can't see you. But I'll
*restarts tef*... Does
Does anyone here know how bad depression can be...? I probably sound pretty stupid to people who don't know...
I've never really been
I just...lost
And I'm still Anzel?
And...my antlers changed for a second? *is confused*
Anyways...depression is a soft, stinging ball in your chest...it makes you feel worthless...it makes you feel sad...you can laugh, you can smile at jokes...but when it comes down to it, you're not happy...you can try and try...people can try and try to make you happy...but the feeling won't go away...it just won't x.x...
I think I might have felt
You know you're depressed
Pega: All I can do
*hug*
Oh, and you might want to check the blog I'm about to post.
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land|scape|goat
magnets don't always attract
4.9 on the Richter Scale
I've never had a boyfriend
-goes to forest again-
The pictos won't spread for
*sighs*...I'm gonna go to bed soon...my eyes hurt...
Whoa! It just started to
Have a goodnight. :3
It started to
*re-opens tef* I'll leave in a bit...I want to see if I can load the rain.......
Yeah, it was cool before it
Heh... I was -once- able to
I was -once- able to load the rain (kinda) and mushrooms...maybe I can do it again.....maybe....
Last time, I loaded the rain in bits and pieces...
Pega: I saw Michael's picto
But I made Magnet run for the Old Oak tree (after sneezing to candles), where he was joined by this doe, Kona, and Squeegie, before he left. ^^;
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land|scape|goat
magnets don't always attract
4.9 on the Richter Scale
I have to go now. It's
Heh...lucky you... I
I couldn't load the rain :/ I tried...but it didn't work...x.x...*sighs*...
I'm gonna go to bed now...'night...
Feel better, Anzel. *massive
I'm sorry you're going through this right now... I've never had a boyfriend... but I've dealt with depression before so I know how you feel.