I question if now is a good time to speak. Perhaps it is too late to mend a broken heart. Perhaps it will destroy another. What is a doe to do when trapped in a corner? There are many things that must be said. Though I am afraid to speak...I've lost so much already thought. What else can losing more do? After all, I'm in a fragile state now; I have not hit rock bottom yet...I guess your feet must hit the ground at the bottom of the abyss before you can begin to climb out. I have no choice but to finally say the things my heart has been hiding.

Rowan...I...I do not know what to say. I swear, I did not know your feelings for him were so strong. When I found out, guilt rushed over me. I felt as if I was the reason your hopes were crushed; your dreams were shattered. I swear...It was never in my intentions to pull you and Reetno apart before you were ever given the chance to tell him how you felt. Now you wander the Forest with your head low, perhaps looking at him and I from the distance. But I must tell you, I was as shocked as you were when I found out his words were not dedicated to you as I original thought. For you see, my ignorance made me blind and deaf from my heart; a part of me told me that it was I he spoke of, but I silenced my heart. After all, what would he want with a doe like me?

I cannot lie, I do care for him, but I question if it as much as you do and if it is as much as he wishes me to. When I sense he is in the Forest, I do sniff the air for his scent. I do run to him to be by his side. I cannot put into words how I feel...I feel dedicated to him, especially during such a dark, lonely time in his life, but a part of me doubts that it is love. I just...I just cannot let a stag come that close to my heart at this moment. I still secretly mourn the lose of my first love and my heart is brittle from my past. It has not yet returned to being full. I fear becoming broken again; I fear the pain that comes from love and lose. Please try to understand, Reetno...I do care for you but not as much as you may wish.

I do not wish to hold you back. If there is another who may win your heart, please run after her. And if there is not, then open your heart for another to take. I...I am truly sorry if I had lead you to believe that more may come from me than this, but as it stands, all I can offer is friendship. I wish to still stand by your side, to still run along side you, to still dance and jump around with you, but after this...I understand if you do not want to see me for I might bring pain that I do not want to give you.

And I am sorry for saying these things now; I know your in a weak state, but I could not keep this from you any longer...Especially after seeing how much Rowan suffers from it and knowing that I do not feel about you the same way she does.

Reetno, I hope you do not think less of me. I hope you shall still seek me in the Forest and do not push me away...Please don't go...Though I shall understand if I awake one day to not find you near or to have you run from me. I suppose it is what I deserve.

Rowan, I hope I have not made things harder for you and that maybe the truth shall make it easier for you to cope with your current situation. I hope that you will find it easier to return. Much like with Reetno, I shall understand if you wish for me to keep away from you.

Reetno and Rowan...I hope you both find the happiness you seek...I am sorry that I could not bring it...And that I may have made your weak souls weak...Even though I envy those who can take leave from this place to recuperate, I will not run. I shall still stand in the Forest listening for either of you to call, even if I am forced to stand alone.

*sigh* You do not have to take pity on me either. I am the one who dug this hole - this shallow grave for my heart - for myself. For it is not that I do not love...I long for the day that a stag happily awaits for my return each day and comes to greet me with a deep feeling like any other, but it is something that I suppose am not allowed to have.






Allow me to explain because maybe the real reason will help you understand this and help you decide on what to do. The real reason why I do not want Kumiko to get mixed into a relationship is because I am waiting for my boyfriend to get active in the Community. He's made a deer, has a set, and has a name; he just hasn't written biography and he doesn't play as much as I do. The Endless Forest is mainly something up my alley since I'm a writer but he does enjoy these kind of things but has been playing other games while I tend to get on here, even when playing other games.

So, I basically want her to be open for when he does begin to play.

As for Kumiko's character: she does care a lot for Reetno but she does not feel love. She actually fears love due to...Well..The stuff that is happening and going to happen in †wïlïgh†'§ ÇhïlÐ. She feels guilty for what Rowan is going through because she feels that it is her fault that Rowan never got a chance and then feels bad for it because she knows that she doesn't love Reetno the way Rowan does. She now is worried that she'll both their friendships because she is worried that she's hurt them both too much.