It is...

Life

Death

My soul, pulling at me. The gods are not willing this, something far greater than the gods is pulling me. I can smell something strange in the wind, I can feel something deep inside me becoming sad, becoming troubled, becoming scared. I fear that I am being pulled away from the forest, and I fear that it is forever...

So it is with a heavy heart I pass through the forest for what I feel is the last time. Slowly my steps carry me to the statue at the ruins, and I cannot help but stare longingly into its empty eyes. How my heart falls to my feet! Is it so? Do I feel this way because it is to be the last time I sit amongst the poppy flowers and ponder over the world beside you, my trusted friend?

For what seems an eternity I stare into those empty eyes, wondering how many countless deer have done the same as they gazed into my own. Had I become so heartless, so empty, that the forest no longer wished for me to be a part of it?

Unsure of what to make of my emotions I sat beside my lifelong friend to think. I fell into a deep slumber, my heart beating rapidly in my chest, even in sleep. Slowly I could see the forest in my visions, the heavy mists surrounding its borders idly sitting by. I came closer, and closer, and closer until I found myself surrounded in the mists. It was so thick, so heavy, and suddenly so dark.

I could see nothing, and my stomach churned in that strange fear again. I became frantic, my feet twisting beneath my body. I fell to the ground, struggling to rise up again, but it fell thicker upon my body. I couldn't breath, I couldn't strike out, nothing I did to will my body to move made it do so at my command.

It made me keep my eyes wide open, and I struggled to close them. I began to see things, strange things. I was still in the forest, saying my goodbyes to my beloved. My heart broke in two, leaving barely enough behind to give him. I wanted to cry out to him, tell him how much he meant to me, but the mist's power remained.

When I felt as if I could take no more, it shoved me back into total darkness.

I then found myself gasping for air, struggling to get to my feet. None of my senses worked. I didn't know where I was, or what was going on. I felt strange, almost as if I had been drugged by the poppy flowers after eating them. I did remember sleeping beside it not so long ago, but as my eyes cleared I could not see the red flowers or the empty statue.

The mists were now shifted behind me, and I awoke to an empty plain. I could see it all before me, open and ripe for a traveler's footsteps.

Looking back to where the forest once lied, I could not help but feel as if this was going to bring me and my immortal beloved closer together. Yes, this was happening for a reason. This was meant for me to truly clear my mind and heart.

My gods could have not willed this...None.

So off I raced into this new land, wind lashing and whistling through the glistening skull mask. Grass flew past me, barely leaving any impression upon me. Only sensations rippled through my body, but each blade was forgotten.

Now here I was, heading to a new adventure far far away from what I knew as home. Here no deer roamed, at least none I was familiar with.


[Getting to blog thanks to some kindness. Last blog until home. I has surprises for everyone!]