August 27, 2010 - 4:30am — Pretzil
For the Community, certan people, and for anyone who has felt hurt before
I know sometimes it feels like absolute hell, when you want to rip anything and everything apart and then fall to tears. I know how the sadnesss hurts. The choking feeling and the way everything hurts. And I have a best friend who is suffering from serius depression. He is only 13 years old. I have to see him every day at school with his head on his desk and it breaks my heart.
Last night, I got a text from him
He said he wante to die.
And I staretd crying.
All I could say was no.
And he began to say what went wrong and how his life began to spiral out of control. And then I felt like a bitch for taking myself and my pitiful tiny problems for granted.
And I can understand pain, too.
My aunt recently died from a hideous fast-spreading cancer. It was in every organ in her body. It was very hard on me and my family. And a little before that, a close realitive also died from falling and breking her hip and going into rehab but caught namonia and she is anemic and eventualy killed her but very slow and painfully.
And I want to send hugs to everyone who is struggling right now.
♥ Hang in there, guys! ♥
*nuzzles* I've had a few
I'm sorry to hear about your losses, too. I wish things didn't end up happening like that, but it's hard to accept it when people die painfully or unexpectedly.
Yes, thank you. And I do
There are really rough
Your friendship is surely a very good thing for your friend. I hope that he will understand that death is a very permanent solution to a temporary problem, one that will eventually end if he is patient and true to himself. To just keep living is the most important thing, the specific answers to problems will come with time.
We have all experienced pain, doubt, and loneliness. But you are not alone. Neither is your friend.
Hang in there.
I don't strive to be the best, but instead I strive to do my best, and always give it my all every time.
-faunet
-hugs/nuzzle- im srry for