I was -SO- forced to do this.. Eh.. Yeah.. I'm not a writer, NOT AT ALL, so this is horrible and nothing compaired to all those talented writers and HEEEH*Big breath*
I'll just post it. GOOD LUCK D: XD

Gehirn

I never talk about myself. I simply do not care, or do not understand why others would care. I've watched them, I've seen the deer frolic with eachother, I've seen lovers and fights, it's as I remembered it myself, before I got cursed.
I was born as a normal fawn. I had parents, who loved me and who cared for me. As I grew older, I grew more intelligent. As any other deer, you might think. But apparantly, I grew too smart. I annoyed my parents, since I was smarter as they were. A parent shouldn't be corrected by it's child. I could sense their annoyance, so I tried to seek for love elsewere.
My peers weren't too happy with me either. Even though I wanted to play as badly as they did, they didn't let me in their groups. I watched, and got used to it.
I guess, these aren't reasons to be cursed. There was something bothering me though, as love failed, hate grew.
I grew cold. I simply didn't care for others, they left me so I left them, left them to rot in their own misery, as I could see through their little pea brains. Many, many thoughts flew through my head, and it simply got chaotic.
When my hooves stomped, blood was spilled. It couldn't be helped, the chaos was too big, even for myself. The deer started to fear me, they took their distance. I simply didn't excist anymore.
But that's not what I wanted. I wanted to excist. Their was a force inside me, and I knew it could help me.
So did they. The gods cursed me before I could ever release what grew inside of me. They banished me, to a land as cold as my heart. Where the tree's were made of stone, where no grass would ever grow. The sky was blinded by clouds, only darkness ruled there.
But as I was quicker as any other deer was, I also was too fast for the gods. Before they cursed me, I spit out a curse of myself.

Three deer would be born.
The first one was a dead born. His parents mourned, ofcourse, but it could not be helped. What they didn't know, was that the soul of the little fawn had a life of it's own. It left the body, to live. As the fawn got a name, he got an appereance. He looked like any other deer, but something was missing.
The second one was born healthy. She ran around like a rubber ball, bouncing from tree to tree. Untill she collapsed. Her body lay down motionless, her heart had skipped a beat. Her soul had also left her body, but there was a little difference. The soul didn't keep on living. As the parents had said goodbye, she stood up. She had no thoughts, her heart on the tongue, she spoke as she thought.

But a body and a soul, have to merge, to form a whole. To form me.
The third deer that was born, was also a silent birth, like the first deer. These parents, mourned differently. They buried the dead fawn. When they had left for the night, the fawn awoke. The only thing he wanted, was to get out. He was packed by leaves, and he screamed. He screamed on the top of his lunges, untill he had no voice left.
But he was found. He was found by the doe he would be with for the rest of his youth.

My curse, consisted of these three deer. The soul, the body, and the earth. I did not curse the gods, I cursed the deer. These deer would form my body, so I could return. My curse wasn't strong enough to keep me consistent, the three deer would split up and go on with their own lives, like they would've never been combined. But they know.

When I am not with them, I am in my own world. It's a little hell for deer. You see, when a deer get's banished, it goes there. There are no gods there to protect you. There is only me, the one who does not care.
I stayed there for years, maybe a century, untill my curse came to be complete. I was able to return!

So, here I go back to where I started. Watching other deer is most likely what they find me doing. Curiousity fills me, but I feel no urge to complete it. Untill now, only one has approached me, one unlike myself. She is the only one I've allowed to let close to me, and untill now I've never doubted the rightfullness of that decision. Unlike me, she has a warm personality. She didn't got scared of my appereance, and it didn't scare her off when I first got annoyed. I let her come close to me, and I've never felt this open before.
I haven't jumped, or laughed in years. I can sense doubt in her eyes, though. Maybe she doubts me, or it could be our.. Friendship? For the first time, I'm confused about her, about me, about her actions, about mine. I have never seen myself laugh when I got a ridiculus mask, I have never seen myself jump in front of another to protect them. I have never seen myself confused. I don't know. It's the first time I might say, but I don't know.

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Ew. EW.
It's long. I'm SORRY. *Cry*