

i breathe in memories through barricades of stone
March 29th
Updated the relationships tab!
These were written just for fun, kind of like ''Toyhouse'' links.
Not everyone has a TH here, so I decided to do it in that style.
The deer aren't listed in any particular order, and I adore you all <3
March 27th
Updated the blog with the sweeeetest gift art ever from Rin <333 Thank you again, so so much!
Heres also little something because I'm having too much fun indexing screenshots <3
I'm going to run out of boxes to display your guys' awesome gift art in here...

(Also please ignore the comments still being broken. We'll... we'll get to them someday LOL)
March 19th
Updated art tab with new things. I think I'll drop my drawings in the comments, and then archive them in the blog? Maybe, unsure just yet

March 18th
New font for the titles! Trying something out with comments. They broke a bit, sorry! Bear with me


A little cuddle-pile. Someone mysterious pelted everyone... I wonder who

March 17th - we have new info and UPDATE BOX WOOOOOOO
Leafy to the rescue with the comments!! <3 thank you so much
Atlas whipped this entire blog into shape, thank you for the help <3
Although, beware!! This is still a construction zone, I'm so sorry if I break anything LOL. Largely unfinished looks wise still!

Key Information
Name: Fjara
Icelandic origins, meaning ''to ebb'', alternatively ''shore'' (that will overflow).
Nicknames: Fjarko (dubbed this by Atlas; Croatian pun), ''My beloved koi'' (also Atlas), ''My darling wife'' (yes, you guessed it, also by Atlas please someone give him better nicknames-) , Calico Deer <3 (by several people)
Birthday: 12th of December
Species: Nykur
Gender: Male (I know it's surprising /lighthearted)
He has a very loose concept of gender. Doesn't quite get the gist of it; cue why you might see him without antlers sometimes. He forgets to appear with them! Or that they might be a social clue.
Demeanor: Nervous, hesitant, oftentimes not verbal. Incredibly sleepy, warm. Friendly. He's a bit silly.
Size: #13 (Slightly smaller than native TEF deer)
Scent: Probably bog water and algae. Nothing too dreamy from the fish man, sorry!
Theme Song: Sólstafir - Fjara
Voice: I don't think he knows either. But he sounds like the song does, in my head.
× His pictogram looks like a sad clown face to me, which is a large motivator for his design.
× The orange face he's drawn with is a mask! Which well, largely morphed to his face. There are no eyeholes in the mask, or a way to breathe.
× He's constantly nodding his head.
If you're curious here's his entire playlist
Relationships
he's everyone's wife.
Significant:
× Mockingbird - A fallen star, beyond captivating. A mirror, a little weirdo, bird husband thing—whatever. Impossible to define or put a title on. Forever the luckiest to be graced by your presence, though please stop covering Fjara in sticks and pebbles. His mane is beyond matted, and he smells even worse now. <3
Beloved Friends
× Fernelescent - A friendly soul; she brings him a sense of safety, comfort, and joy. She is someone he can always lean on and constantly seeks out. She is associated with the gentlest warmth.
× Rindea - A tiny feathered friend; a beloved soul ignited by warmth. She is always sought out for her kindness and fascinating company. She is associated with the dance of roses.
× Widmung - An old soul; one of the first faces he ever encountered as a fawn. Wise, well-spoken, and warm, he is a friend who sits with him through cold nights. He is associated with time.
× Cu - A little old soul with the funniest red nose; playful, warm, and beloved. His antics are hilarious and forever unmatched. He is associated with joy.
× Saater - A kindred spirit; met him recently during one of the quietest periods of Fjara's life. His immense playfulness, familiarity and sweet company are appreciated. He is associated with the glow of candles.
× Eris - A sweet soul; met him recently, not too long after Saater. Playful and the most comfortable pillow to nap on. Fjara wishes to know more about him. He is associated with the moon.
× Valaire - A quiet soul; the most recent acquaintance. Her intriguing and comfortable presence makes Fjara wish to know more about her.
× Seo - The second deer ever met. Incredibly playful, kind, and beloved. He misses seeing them around.
× BroadSandwich - The first deer ever met. A beloved, playfully silent friend, misses seeing them around.
× Fabi - A gentle soul; forever remembered and appreciated. He misses seeing them around.
Disclaimer
If you're going to view the art tab, heads up for colorful eyestrain, and for possible distressing imagery. Most of my art is uploaded to Toyhouse, but here I'll upload my TEF related things.
Fjara is a very special character to me - and one in an interesting predicament at that - he is forever stuck between being OOC and IC especially when active in The Forest. His character sometimes dvelves into sensitive thematics and serves as a creative outlet, a way of exploration and working through certain personal matters. Originally was created when I was trying to get back into art after an excessively long pause due to loss of passion; the intention was to have a character to TRY to roleplay with but as Fjara develops further as a being - I literally do not know how to approach roleplay with him. Possibly only with individuals I'm OOCly acquainted with, as it is hard to treat him as something ''other'', something that is fully disconnected from myself.
Despite that, he is my main connection to The Endless Forest - and probably will continue to be for a very long time. You may approach him IC or OOC, regardless every interaction is welcome and very looked forward to <3

Stories of Origin
A shapeless imitator motivated by love towards others. Nykur; Sphinx; Shapeshifter; but above everything, currently just a sleepy koi colored stag.
Born from a troubled star, Fjara is many things at once, while also being nothing at all. A shapeless being, guided solely by his love towards others. He began as a water spirit, a creature of barely any consciousness that drifted through existence. Though he possesses the ability to shapeshift, it is not a conscious act but a response to deep emotion and specific circumstances. Fjara’s forms are never perfect imitations. Each carries remnants of the one before, a ghost of what was. Though he can change, he will never fully belong, forever caught between shapes, never quite fitting in.
His first transformation was into a fish. The first creature he saw upon gaining awareness, and the first to stir emotion within him. Overwhelmed by love for its small, fragile form, he became a gray-and-orange koi, dull-scaled and unshimmering. Decades spent as a fish left their mark; his mannerisms remain odd, his understanding of the world incomplete. He rarely blinks unless he remembers to, and often lies face down in ponds, seemingly drowning, but simply resting or blowing bubbles. He adores food but misunderstands what he should eat, chewing on foxtails despite the inevitable stomachaches. With his first form he learns of joy.
Fjara's second shift came with a human child: a boy who eagerly fed the pond fish where Fjara lived, hoping to bond with them. In time, this boy became Fjara’s first friend and the one who gifted him his most treasured possession: the crying mask he now wears to conceal the intricate fish-like patterns of his skin. With his second form he learns what it means to be grateful.
His third transformation was inspired by a mule deer, a creature of effortless grace he glimpsed while learning to coexist with humans. Longing for such beauty, he instead became something caught between worlds; neither fully humanoid nor entirely deer. Despite his efforts, his strange nature set him apart, making true acceptance amongst both species elusive. In this form, he learned the weight of yearning.
His final transformation took the shape of an adult human, mirroring his first friend who had since grown, moments before his passing. With this form, he learned sorrow and the timeless weight of loss.
Ageless, he carries the memories of those he has met, fragments of those he has been. He remains gentle, still largely incapable of speech or full understanding. Yet he knows how to recognize a friend and offer them his quiet, unwavering company.

ART MADE BY ME <3
It's mostly just a collection of sketches, but spooky warning for some of the imagery!!

to you, I give

we all want, we all yearn
be soft, don't be stern

dance little rose queen!!

i wonder how weird it feels to grow legs when you used to be a fish not too long ago

Reflect, Deflect and anything of that Effect,, 2025.

warmth <3

The final shift; one last stolen form. As long as Fjara endures, so will the memories.

Filament, 2024.

Celestial Tear, 2024.

Melrakkablús, 2024.

Aurora Borealis A, 2024.

Aurora Borealis B, 2024.

With Saater <3

With Mockingbird <3

prance

masked reference

unmasked reference

little guy

Foxtails, 2024.

First ever drawing of Fjara, and coincidentally the first thing I've drawn in years after a massive break.
It's mostly just a collection of sketches, but spooky warning for some of the imagery!!

to you, I give

we all want, we all yearn
be soft, don't be stern

dance little rose queen!!

i wonder how weird it feels to grow legs when you used to be a fish not too long ago

Reflect, Deflect and anything of that Effect,, 2025.

warmth <3

The final shift; one last stolen form. As long as Fjara endures, so will the memories.

Filament, 2024.

Celestial Tear, 2024.

Melrakkablús, 2024.

Aurora Borealis A, 2024.

Aurora Borealis B, 2024.

With Saater <3

With Mockingbird <3

prance

masked reference

unmasked reference

little guy

Foxtails, 2024.

First ever drawing of Fjara, and coincidentally the first thing I've drawn in years after a massive break.
ART MADE BY OTHER PLAYERS <3

@Rinniekins <3333333 AAAAAAA

@AtlasMoth - the first art of Fjara I ever received <3

@LeafyLupus - Seo, BroadSandwich, Fjara, Mielikki, Rindea

@LeafyLupus

@AtlasMoths

@AtlasMoths

@Liliac (Saater)

@Liliac (Saater)

@Liliac (Saater)

@Togetherness

@Hoodie (Valaire) - Atlas, Rindea, Fernelescent, Cu, Fjara, Eris, Saater, Yak, Widmung

@AtlasMoths
OTHER CHARACTERS

@oxyinco - Andy and Andrea playing

@AtlasMoths - seal Sölvi with his cursed sword

@Liliac (Saater) - Fernelescent, Gilles, Saater, Serra

@AtlasMoths - tiger form Andy

@AtlasMoths - Andy staring at Andrea

@Rinniekins <3333333 AAAAAAA

@AtlasMoth - the first art of Fjara I ever received <3

@LeafyLupus - Seo, BroadSandwich, Fjara, Mielikki, Rindea

@LeafyLupus

@AtlasMoths

@AtlasMoths

@Liliac (Saater)

@Liliac (Saater)

@Liliac (Saater)

@Togetherness

@Hoodie (Valaire) - Atlas, Rindea, Fernelescent, Cu, Fjara, Eris, Saater, Yak, Widmung

@AtlasMoths
OTHER CHARACTERS

@oxyinco - Andy and Andrea playing

@AtlasMoths - seal Sölvi with his cursed sword

@Liliac (Saater) - Fernelescent, Gilles, Saater, Serra

@AtlasMoths - tiger form Andy

@AtlasMoths - Andy staring at Andrea
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Yay! Finally Fjara have own
Art made by Saater
Hurray for broken blog!!
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forever sleepy
Oh the blog looks so
How glad I am that fate has
I looked at the gallery, and dissolved into feelings. You know how to convey emotion like no one else. Thank you so much for capturing that cold night we spent on the pond together. I still remember it. I can't express my reaction in words, I can only silently express my feelings like a fish. My deepest gratitude.
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this looks absolutely
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Thank you Rindea, it's all
Saater, your words mean everything to me. I struggle to express myself through words as well, but I finally sat down and wrote Fjara's story, just as I promised all those months ago. Now, the Sad-Boy-Deer Club has a new member!
Valaire thank you kindly <33 I couldn't create a swamp creature and have him smell like flowers
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forever sleepy
I loved reading his story,
My favorite bits are,
"Fjara’s forms are never perfect imitations"
"rarely blinks unless he remembers to,"
And especially "sorrow and the timeless weight of loss." I think about that often too. Nice and to the point wording.
Karame I am so glad to hear
Those are some of my favorite bits too, I feel like they suggest the most of his characterization <3 And I understand, I sometimes wish that I would stop thinking about loss, at least this often. But I suppose there is some comfort to be found there as well.
A bit unrelated, but I went on another dive on Toyhouse and re-read Só's biography. The way you describe her character is bone chilling - and I mean this in the best possible way. It's like she was not born, but forged. It's so inspiring.
Hope I get to meet you in the game too, someday. <3
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forever sleepy
Testing how wide I can make
Here's a little Fernelescent I drew yesterday <3
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forever sleepy
Must place a track here. You
Thank you for sharing your story to everyone!
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Klowndaaaaa, I didn't notice
Thank you again for drawing her, the colors are so warm and the pose is so Ferne-style, hopping everywhere to have fun
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I really like this image of
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I love the Fernelescent art
Thank you for reading the
And thank you all <333 I associate Ferne mainly with warmth and joy, so I'm glad it carries over!
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forever sleepy
can't really think of
can't really think of something to say, only thank you dear mr.moth <3
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WOW Klownda, this bio is
this bio is really unbelievable! That must have take tons of time! I like every piece of detail you put in there.
Absolutely amazing.
P.S.
"take a guilty look" the mysterious shapeshifter was Cu. I logged in yesterday, saw your cuddle pile and
could´nt resist try to change everyone a bit.
I still don't know what to
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Wow.. The painting is so, so
Wow, this is amazing. It's
Also, your new bio is amazing!
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@Pink Your comment made me so
Big thanks to Cu for his playfulness, I love tabbing back in and seeing everyone in different pelts. We need to try giving everyone the peacock set again soon >: ) there has been a lack of peacock antics in the forest lately!
@Saater Fjara is indeed receiving the magic with an open soul. In my mind, he is mesmerized by what he sees and it's the most beautiful thing he's ever seen, despite him not understanding it. Thank you so much for your amazing words, they truly warm my heart <3
@Rindea Thank you so so much, you've made my soul incredibly happy with your words <3
@Eris I love how you've worded it. I am glad that you have friends that bring you such comfort and light in your life <3 It is so sweet to hear. Thank you so much!
Another big block of text, but I truly appreciate you all. Thank you for your company, despite me being quiet lately.
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forever sleepy
tonight's sketch
tonight's sketch
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forever sleepy
It's absolutely brilliant.
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Aaaa so beautiful!!! Also
Also I must thank you here as well for the wonderful gift!! <33 I love it so much. Also I love the caption you put for it as well aaa <3
You have the most astonishing
The time and effort you put into your pieces are magnificent and beautiful!
Thank you for sharing your marvelous artwork to everyone!
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@Saater, the imagery of your
@Rindea I think that his first moments with legs (human and deer) were rather unsettling for him. Somehow... in my mind it feels like he's spent at least a couple of days post transformation just laying somewhere, before realizing that he can get up and... wobble around
You are very welcome <3 the caption for her has been stuck in my mind entire time I doodled it.
@Widmung Thank you very much for your masterful words! <333 A lot of my energy in art lately has been focused on making everything flow, so I hope to make more things like this in the future. The goal is to figure out how to make the canvases burst with pure movement.
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forever sleepy
This is very late reply for
Also commenting for the art pieces you have made, specially the big piece: it is a masterpiece! I love the coloring and the mood, it's hard to put into words, but it is very powerful, I like it! I'm very happy to see you sharing your arts in the forums, always happy to see them ^^ Your style is very inspiring as well! Even the newest Fjara art, I love the lore behind it: 'how to use your legs on the ground, after you have lived a life in the water without legs', it's mystery and also magical.
Art made by Saater
It's not a weird thing to say
I'm struggling with words right now, but I thank you very much for your kind comment <333 I've pretty much stopped posting art anywhere but in this community, so coming back to these comments makes me really overjoyed. The fact that I might've been able to move souls other than mine with the art I create, makes it all feel worth it. <33 thank you and can't wait to see you in the forest again!
Also I'm still thinking about the last drawings caption. It's truly a mystery to me, how it would feel
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i saw this, and immediately
i saw this, and immediately thought of a baby Fjara, hehe
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oh my gosh that is SO
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I've been wanting to try to
I've been wanting to try to draw Fjara for a long time now, so here's everyone's favorite sleepy calico deer!!!! I gave him some little friends there as well.
This is also very experimental as I was trying out some new brushes, also I haven't drawn water in years.
Here's the no background version as well. <3
RIN!!!! Thank you SO SO SO
I think my favorite thing ever has to be that I can recognize exactly which place in the game this is. That attention to detail is just <3333333333333333333333 the fur details (how does he look so plush?!), and his floppy ears, little emo hair and all,, ahh thank you so much <3 The water also turned out fantastic, the reflection adds so much to it!
I'm gently picking this art up and running away with it, time to print it over my entire ceiling or something <3
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Aaaaa I'm so so so happy you
Yesss I'm glad the place is recognizable!! <3 Good to hear that the water also turned out fine, as that is something I struggle with a lot, thus rarely drawing it.
Haha I'm sooo glad you like it and you're so very welcome!! <33 I'm very happy if I'm able to make a friend's day even a little bit better with my silly little gifts and art in general! <3
Happy to hear that you
Water is really daunting, I get you! Dreading ever having to render reflections. I'm also working on a water piece with Fjara for a while now.. sleeping like this with a similar pose. I have a feeling it's a rite of passage for everyone drawing him to draw him asleep in water, facing the same direction. It's so funny
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Question for anyone that sees
Is the blog eye-strainy? Or is it easily readable? Debating if a change of font/amount of text is needed... especially considering how text heavy entire blog is lol.
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Fjara definitely living up to
Also to answer the question; for me it is easily readable! But if you feel like it is eye-strainy, of course you could try changing the font or maybe just the size of the font.
Also love love love the relationships tab!! <333 Wonderful descriptions for everyone that I feel are very spot-on!
I love it too, that there is
Yippe for amount of text being fine! I think it's because I was having a bad headache, I opened the relationship tab after I was done writing and went like ''oh no thats so much text what'' LOL... but thank you sm!! I will dim the text a bit, so it's different than the titles. Maybe that helps a bit visually :thinking:
Glad you like it <333
( sorry to everyone that's unaware, but you do have a wife)
also, I saw you added Mr.Feng to Rindea's ''positive'' associations, made me smile <3
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forever sleepy
Rin, how I adore your art!
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klownda, oh yeah I can
And haha yeah it is perfect!
Saater, thank you so so much for your kind words!! <33 I'm really happy I got the face right, as Fjara's face definitely has that certain tender vibe! I'm so glad I managed to convey the atmosphere the way I wanted as well!! <33
Thank you so much, your words mean a lot to me and truly warms my heart. <3
Saater I agree so much!! He's
Rindea, I'm glad that you like the screenshot ;D I have many more like this hidden and waiting. Climbing around on people and structures with the fun guy has been a bit too much joy lately, and now my screenshots folder has 200 more images. Def very IC of him *cough*
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forever sleepy
finished something ancient
finished something ancient tonight. Wanted to do dramatic practice lighting, but I always keep ending up with soft light for him. Very inspired by Low's Lullaby <3 if ya have time I recommend giving it a listen.
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When I look at the portrait
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Oh I can't wait to see all
Oh my gosh I absolutely adore the portrait!! That is so insanely beautiful, for a lack of a better word I find it very melancholic, in a very very beautiful, soft and calm way. It really touches my soul. I love the soft light so much! I can definitely see why you would end up with soft light for him, it fits so well. I gave the song a listen as well (I love it!!! Adding it to my melancholic song playlist hehe), and yeah it definitely fits the art, I can see how it would have inspired this masterpiece, it has the exact same vibe to it. Truly wonderful. <3 You just always keep impressing me with your art, your talent is truly a sight to behold. <33
Finally we meet in forest -