Alright, firstly, I must tell you that I am a 16-year old girl who inherited a hormonal imbalance from her mother (who i believe was diagnosed with depression when she went into rehab for drinking), so take my moody ramblings with a grain of salt. The only time I'm truly emotionally normal is the first few days of menstruation. If you can't believe me, fine, don't. But even my boyfriend can sense the difference in me. I do not enjoy it at all, and it began when I hit puberty a few years ago.

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Also: I'm not returning, but I knew that if I got a friend to post for me, you'd possibly target that as a sign of weakness.

Although now you'll say 'you're an attention-hungry emo drama queen', maybe I'll get through to you better than if I'd gotten someone else to post for me :/

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My personality and yours, they don't seem to coincide well. I think I have come up with the reason: You aren't a very emotional person, and I can understand that, I never used to be, either.

So what you say in joke and jester to me, when I am having mood swings left and right for 3 weeks every month...I take it much differently than any guy would. I couldn't see any joke in what you said at that time, mainly because, well...any girl who has bad pms could tell you, you lose all reason. I mean, I cried over having a cat run away yesterday. (a cat showed up at my house, i think it was a cat of mine that ran away two years ago...and it ran away, and i balled my eyes out...no idea why)

I've had previous experiences with being unable to express my opinions, and I used to simply accept it and shut up. But I couldn't help but post once or twice (this was an entirely different forum), and they somehow found ways to turn my words around on me.

So, being hormonal, and relating this to that, I wanted to make it clear that I wanted to express my opinions. My "mate drama" between Dannii's Taliene and my deer Vein, that was just fun and games. She and I both enjoyed the drama, it's not as though I, as a person, cared, nor did she. And with Halogen and Anzel, it's more than I hadn't gotten ahold of Halogen for a few weeks, and I wondered if her deer even remembered mine, or if I should just ignore that plot thing once and for all.

I enjoy writing depressing poetry, not because it's depressing, but because it actually does help me to express my emotions out loud. I never force anyone to read the stuff, I even labelled things as "drama" so that the people who are tired of drama, wouldn't read.

Meh. You can say that my hormonal imbalances are all in my head, but then again, people can say alot of things :/ But teasing me and making fun of me in play, didn't exactly help. Because I'm an emotional person, and at that time, it really did hurt. It would be much easier to be a guy. My dad actually yells at me when I cry ^^; He doesn't understand my emotions at all. I don't blame him, he isn't a girl, so there's not much of a chance he'd ever have those problems.

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Feel free not to believe a single word I said, it's your right not to. But I was hurt, and if I can't say anything without having my opinions teased, well, I might as well not stay here.

I'll likely laugh if you respond to this the way that I'm guessing, because I'm quite used to having everything turned against me. Meh, whatever.

Seeya.

~ Christina

P.S. In case you don't get it yet...my hormones, mood swings, WHATEVER you want to call my sudden attacks of depression, rage, or sudden happiness...

...they don't care if it's the internet, or if it's in school, at home, between friends, or anything. :/ You can't tell atoms to cooperate. Sorry.