June 12, 2008 - 6:28am — Seed
I miss my fawnhood: I miss hanging out with Scape all the time, and the times Payton and I were togethor as fawns, not sure of the feelings that would pull us togethor like leaves in the current of a river...I miss the feeling of a big, connected community: I still see it now and again...but for sad things, not happy ones. Maybe it was that desire that set me off trying to do a service nightly. It worked well last night: there weren't many of us, but we had a good time. I would have been happy to have that again tonight.
At first, I figured, well, not many deer were on, but they could get on soon...I don't know who I was fooling. Magnet did a very good job of keeping my company: the two of us waited in the ruins, calling out to deer who, I guess, decided not to listen. I'm hoping that those few found better things to do, rather than there being a misunderstanding. But these things do happen, I suppose... I waited for 10 minutes or so, and when no one other than Magnet or I showed up, I decided I would just walk back to the bridge.
In lighter news, I watched birds near the deermuda today: I liked the feeling of their little claws on my antlers, the bustle of their come and go...there's a poem in there somewhere, I'm sure. I notice that many of the animals in the forest are like the deer who live here...
I'll try tommorow, I'll try tommorow...
((Maybe I should try a different time...))
I'm so sorry, I was the fawn
Pega: I think it might be
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land|scape|goat
magnets don't always attract
4.9 on the Richter Scale
Well, you planned it at 4 am
To pray is to believe, to believe is to purify one's soul
To pray is to believe, to believe is to purify one's soul
I wanted to go again, but
The forest these days seems so empty and lonely to me, it's been ages since I've seen a familiar picto in the forest without having planned a meeting. It seems like everyone is disappearing, it's making me so depressed and lonely. I was very excited when you started these services again, though, because I was hopeful it might bring up activity and cheer me up. I think with a little tweaking, they can work fine. Maybe we could even work it so that every day of the week has a different time for the meeting, so people from different places can join in more easily.
Damn, I was totally there to
Next time I will.