The Diary of Seed 2-16-09 (Emo warning)

February 17, 2009 - 5:45am — Seed

I considered whether or not to write an entry today: I've not done so for a while; I doubt my voice is well-missed. And then I think that I should not think like that. But that, in turn, leads me to the reason I don't feel so immediately compelled to write here: when I think about my feelings about today, I feel so...petty. So small. I feel ashamed writing this, which only makes the feelings I'm writing about worse. I wonder if maybe I was expecting too much, or if I gave up too soon...But I doubt it. In the end, I decided not to go in full account of today: It only serves to re-inforce a few simple points:

First, thank you particularly to Blackhoof, 21, Zerg, and Terrant.

Second, as long as I live, which I intend to be as near as forever as I can manage, I will never have another birthday.

((I'm a little under the weather, which probably doesn't help Seed's mood much...on the other hand, he's been pretty happy later, and nature abhors a happy Seed, so this is probably essential for the universe to maintain homeostasis...Happy Birthday anyway, my little angsty one.))

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February 17, 2009 - 6:09am — Pegasicorn

I don't quite understand

I don't quite understand where this is coming from, but feel better soon (to the human as well as the deer).

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February 17, 2009 - 6:48am — Seed

eh, Seed had some

eh, Seed had some expectations that didn't really hold up: and then he feels bad about having the expectations in the first place, so then it loops around. Seed's misery comes, often enough, in the form of the "misery spiral." He'll be fine (and, probably, so will I) soon enough.

....I really regret writing the entry, now.
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February 17, 2009 - 7:03am — Kivalo

You are none of those.

February 17, 2009 - 7:05am — Zergarikiaka

I hope you feel better,

I hope you feel better, soon. Also, sorry I wasn't able to show up sooner and stay longer. The human owning the computer I appear threw had been at college and work all day up until I showed up, and she had to leave shortly after. Regardless, I hope your day gets better, along with health.

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I'm a bit weird, but so is everyone else in the world, thus weird is normal and normal is weird. This in mind, I'm actually a little normal, and anyone who is completely normal might really be a serial killer. <- My logic. True self quote.

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February 17, 2009 - 7:09pm — Fenqua

Fenkovan even gave Seed a

Fenkovan even gave Seed a nuzzle to congratulate him! I knew it was his birthday, so I threw a little party for him, even though it may not have been noticable in the first place, but still.. Look at Pega's pic, we sat around, danced and had fun together. It was my personal way of celebrating.

I'm sorry Seed didn't like his birthday though... ;_;

To pray is to believe, to believe is to purify one's soul

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To pray is to believe, to believe is to purify one's soul

February 17, 2009 - 7:30pm — Seed

Thanks for the effort ^^ I

Thanks for the effort ^^ I admit, my being sickly did not help Seed's mood much at all...

and it wasn't, all in all, a bad day...it was about level with some other days in the forest, which was about where the dissapointment popped in for Seed.

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Nelle Rovine

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February 17, 2009 - 11:59pm — Naryae