I've been feeling uncharacteristically down lately, most likely due to the stress emotion overload I had for the past few weeks. But I still don't like it. And my emotions tend to affect those of my deer, sometimes. So they are not happy balls of sunshine today either.

Though I think I know the reason for today.

When I lived back up north, I had basically one friend, and one friend only. But that was fine. I'd rather have one, truly awesome friend like her than a ton of other fair-weather friends. She and I were very close, and still are. We are total opposites of each other; the blond and the brunette, the math student and the artist, the one who adores kids and the one who can't stand to be around them. Yet, we both had the weirdest attraction. In all logic, we should have hated each other, t=yet we were best friends, who did all sorts of crazy stuff.

Yet when I moved, I lost that. For almost a year, I went without any friendly contact with another human being. I didn't talk to anyone, or sit with anyone, I didn't fit. The only thing that kept me going were her calls, and the promise of seeing her at Christmas.

We live 700 miles apart, yet we still remain close. Just a few weeks earlier, when I was visiting her, we still acted like we did before I moved 2 years ago, we were still the insane idiots we always were, watching creepy movies and playing Lord of the Rings for PS2. and that was the happiest I had been all year.

Yet today, was her 18th birthday. And I wasn't there. I wanted to be there, I really, really wanted to. She is my best friend in the whole world, yet I'm not there. I feel almost a universe away. I feel lonely.

All day I've been watching very old, very nostalgic movies and listening to sad songs, and wandering the Forest by myself, watching everyone else play.

I love to play the Sims, I build both Sims and houses and waste most of my day doing so XD

So here is a result of a few days work, my deer as Sims. Actually, I made them, except for Elani, a long while ago, but i just now got around to getting them into the game.


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First up is Atiq..........no...what are you talking about? Downloads, who says I use them? *shifty eyes*


Oh look it's the guy nobody likes-I mean umm....Adel. Yeah him. Sorry, but I couldn't get him to not smile :<


lol...Lier...I think I like him the most C:



and finally, my girl Elani ^-^

I have a lot of screen shots, so I may post a blog every once in a while to show you what they are up to :3

OF A PLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANT

>8D


*goes back into cage*

O-O'..........................

............I keep thinking that my boots in the corner of my room are my cat :/ ............it's freaking me out.



uh...........now what...........if you want to ask anything...go for it? Or shout something random? Amuse yourselves! I have Christmas presents to work on.

............you have no idea how much running around I've done since 4 am on Friday.

I had to fly from Jacksonville Florida to Charlotte NC for a 1 hour layover, then get on another flight to Baltimore MD. Then I get on a shuttle and head to the Maryland Institute College of Art (MICA) and ate lunch and took a 4 hour tour. And then we drive to the hotel and check in. Mind you this has all been with our luggage and our big ass art portfolios. Then they set us loose in the Inner Harbor to eat and shop and whatever, so at 9:30 pm we all go back to our rooms and crash. Saturday we wake up at 7:30, drive to DC, wait in line for an hour in very cold weather to get into where the portfolio day was being held, the Corcoran College of Art, which lasts from 10-2, and no lunch break. So Corcoran then feeds my group and gives us a tour of their college. AND THEN........we walk a half hour to our hotel, which was very fancy, and awesome, and stuff.......and go crash in our beds. Then we get to wake up at 8:30, and they set us loose in DC to go look at art museums. So me and my friend go walking all over DC, all day, and then we go back to the hotel, get our stuff, walk to the subway, take the subway to the airport, get to our flight, and fly back to Jacksonville.

AUGHIAMSOOOOOOTIREDANDIWANNAGOSLEEP........................but I wanted to come make sure that you guys were okay.

So yes, I am back, and for those of you that didn't know that I left, well then, I guess I didn't really go anywhere :/

Please fill me in on anything that went on for the past 3 days, I can't go sifting through the more than likely 10 diary pages you guys made XD, but I do not like being left out of the loop. Come and tell me, I want to get back into the community ASAP.

And if you want to know how Portfolio day went for me, I'll tell you. But right now, that bed looks reeeeeeally awesome.

.............this slipped my mind............shut up I had artwork due for class >>

ANYWHO.

yeah for me, I don't really care what it is, so long as you don't send me anything via snail mail.

you may draw any of my three boys:

1. Adel
2. Atiq
3. Lier

or, if you feel that you are not good at drawing, you can write a story or a poem. You may do whatever with them. Dress Adel up as an elf, tie Lier to a sled, draw Atiq baking cookies, make them human, doesn't matter, you are free to do as you wish C:

Happy Holidays, and have fun!

*goes to work on her Christmas gifts*

...........the 5th of December.............(don't tell me it's November, I know)

butbutbutbut...............I gotta remember that date! I know it's only a few days from now, but I forget things very easily, very quickly. So I had to write it down and the closest thing was the keyboard and this blog. My mom stole the desk drawer......set.....roll-y.....thing........that stands next to my desk and has all of my paper and pens T-T

okay, so it's written down......typed......whatever. BUT........8D...........it's not important to you guys, this is so I don't forget, you can ignore the fangirl-ness that is about to commence:

8D HELLSINGOVA5ISCOMINGOUTINENGLISHDUBONTHE5TH!!!!!1!!1!1khfwetrfghfggmf

................leave me alone.......only anime you will ever see me watch.......and like.........

*is still in happyland C8*



you can go back to your lives now. Oh, if for some reason you read this far (I would have stopped long ago XD)and you feel like you need some purpose for this post, you can ask anybody any question (Atiq, Lier, and Adel...........or me........or Darren)........since it's going around like a bug again.

Atiq
Lier
Adel

and even though he's not a deer, he's been hanging around here enough:
Darren

[EDIT] Dammit! Cato cannot spell at all >:C I'm sorry for bumping this, but I am VERY anal about spelling, I just had to go back and fix it. If you already saw this, or don't want to, then please ignore it, it was just really bugging me once I noticed XD

pfft.....screw it. Adel is too fun for me to work with. He acts so emo and grumpy, but he really isn't. Human Adel is easier to work with for me, and I need to get used to how he acts as a human for later. And since this is the only place I feel comfortable with writing.......I annoy you guys with it :3

Features all three of my boys and Darren, the random thing that "followed Atiq home"

If I feel like continuing in someway, I can include others, if they ask, and........yeah. BYE.


OHOHWAIT.............Adel said he likes this song: Echo - Trapt and it also goes along with him too well X3.

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It was just another normal day, nothing uneventful seemed to be happening on the busy street. People walked by bundled up in their coats and scarves to keep off the November chill. The tall buildings stood as high as they did every day, and the apartments had the same tenants running in and out like a hive of bees. The halls of the apartment building were quiet and empty, until you came to a certain one, where yells could be heard within.
"WHERE'D THE TOWELS GO?!" Came a muffled yell from behind a bathroom door.
Atiq turned around in his seat and answered, "Lier's washing them. I thought Darren warned you not to take a shower until they were done?"
"Oops,"came a murmur from a corner of the room.
Atiq shot Darren an annoyed look. "What a memory you have. Well Adel, just get dressed anyways."

but I wanted to get these up before I forget........
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LOL, sorry Rowan, but I cannot take good close-ups, I'm a total newbie at it X3 Poor Kuro, I cut her legs off :C

lol, and a Lier butt:


*pokes it*

I think I fixed it........maybe, I'm still watching for the "Blue Screen of Death", I have to give it a few minutes just to be sure........................

BUT, there is no annoying Rapid Antivirus icon on my toolbar, and no rude and disturbing files are popping up on my desktop, and annoying fake waring messages are appearing in my face..........I may just have this bug problem solved. Let's see...........................*waits a few minutes*
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AHAH! YOU STUPID LITTLE VIRUS! CATO JUST BEAT YOUR ASS DOWN!
No one messes with Cato and her computer, especially if her former army technician brother has anything to say about it C:<

It's gone now, I can relax and use my computer freely again. Yay I can get into the forest this weekend XD

Now just to worry about the other stuff >>;

And don't mind how I keep typing my titles, I was just bored and wanted to play around with the keyboard ^-^;