How do I explain to you what I feel..
so that you know that it is real
I would tell anyone that asks..
to try an make you forget the past
I know I made mistakes..
and with them my heart aches
To think of what I had done..
when only we had just begun
In time I hope you see..
just how much you mean to me
I don't ever want to leave you alone..
in my heart you have made a home
To feel your warm embrace..
your fingers touching my face
The gentle kiss of your lips..
something I don't want to miss
Your voice softly in my ear..
taking away all my fears
Wishing that you felt the same..
only having myself to blame
I want you more than I could ever say..
more and more with each passing day
Its not just a game you see..
I really want you to be with me
Do you really care?
You say you do, but your never there
My mind has all these questions
I am so confused...
Do you really love me?
You say it only grows an grows,
But that is something that never shows..
My mind has all these questions
i am so confused..
Do you really want me?
You say you do, but your touch less nights
Taunt me.....
My mind has all these questions
I am so confused..
Do you really listen to my heart?
You said you have, but it holds nothing for you
Your not trying, listen again...
My heart beats for you...
My blood pumps for you..
My eyes open for you..
My life goes on, just for you
Do you really care?
My mind has all these questions
I am so confused.....
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Deep in my mind, the thoughts have passed..
Feeling unloved so many times in the past
Wondering if this pain will ever go away..
Wishing so often for a clearer, brighter day
My heart has ached for such a long time..
Everything in my head sayin' it will be just fine
What I need is no longer what matters..
Deeply inside its all been so shattered
I find myself thinking, wondering what would be..
If ever I had released the true feelings to see
But now its too late to ponder on the past..
All those old memories that weren't meant to last
In my mind I keep saying no
but my heart says "just let go"
The hurt and pain that was so real
now seems like not such a big deal
Want to trust so much again
to be able to say "yes, he is my friend"
How hard it is letting go from the past
trying to open up anew and make things last
I love him more and more each day
how can I tell him in some special way
I'd drain the blood from my wrists
to let him know how much he was missed
He must not have known how I really feel
or he would realize how slowly it does kill
A simple kiss I can not give
rejected, I cannot continue to live
My eyes looking one last time
leaving my soul with nothing else to find
When my body falls limp in his arms
will he then know how well were his charms
Unwanted
Your sweet words and charm
I never thought they would do any harm..
That warm smile that made me blush
Is now something that's seldom seen much..
We didn't even have the time to get that close
Not like I longed too and wanted too the most..
but the feelings were still the same
my heart only yours to gain..
Unwanted and Not needed, again how I feel
those feelings somehow always becoming so real..
What I have to offer never seems enough
almost as if it was all nothing more than a bluff...
In the end I always start back with the same..
With nothing other than myself to blame..
No more tears, No more sleepless nights
Another of life's lessons and I'll somehow be alright..
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Beauty in the beholder, saw a Dove in hand, pulled out all the Feathers.
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