This is a blog to keep track of when my deer are in the forest and what they experience and what they think.


Currently_-__Tazanna is in the forest taking shelter at the old oak tree.She in accompanied by a stag with purple flowers in his antlers and a brown pelt with stripes.She has met three delightful fawns ,she proceeded to show them the to the oak if they needed to get dry.

Sweet 16 that's what most people call it.
I could almost believe that fantasy,but I'd rather call it a lie.At least for me it was not so sweet.For my sweet 16 I got my first cell phone,I will admit I was pretty much on cloud nine.I was aloud to skip school that day {since I'm homeschooled}.

My dad at this time was on a business trip and would not make it back till later on in the week.So it was just my mom and I.
Now it just so happens to also be a dance day.And any one that knows me is aware that I love to dance,and could probably talk your ear off about it.Secretly it''s been one of my dreams to become a dancer and be apart of a comapny.However,my mom wants me to stick to one of my other dreams,of becoming a nurse.

Any way since it's just me and my mom we decide to go out to see a movie.
On this outing we both are getting along I can see how my mom is reminiscing about when she was pregnent with me.But truthfully that wasn't bad.

This sweet sixteen was a milestone for me.Because it was the first birthday that went by with my brother calling me to wish me happy birthday.Another thing was that he promised me when I was 16 he would teach me how to drive.Something that even till this day I have not learned how to do.

I am enjoying my birthday but this is still in the back of my mind.
My realitives are calling me on my new cell to wish me happy birthday.
Once the movie is over ,we head to the studio but don't stay long.

I had decided to spend the rest of my day with my mom.
We grabbed dinner at one of our favorite Mexican restraunts.

But here is where it all started to go down hill into that endless blackhole.

After dinner my mom's attitude was colder,and I had no idea why.
I try to make conversation,and I can see she is annoyed.However before I could give up on the conversation she tells me to shut up.

Needless to say I did.I stared out the window and kept my body litterally away from her the entire ride home.

The day before my birth

Sierra story will come here.


The night past slowly and painfully but it passed.
It came to a point where she had to just be greatful for what she and Jareth shared and maybe what would continue.
Realizing that you couldn't dwell on the past was obvious but still in the same light you will always wonder.But there was happiness in this outcome the kingdom and all that dwell within it would be safe
The room seemed colder this morning or perhaps it was just her,as she readied herself for the day.

Her mind wandered to that silver and black egg that Jeremy sent her.Each day she anticipated it's hatching but it didn't happed.For know the egg was in Mabera's care but should anything strange occure she was to bring it to her.

She made her way to the dinning room.Upon entering she saw Jareth sitting at the table reading something.A smile appeared on her face "Good morning Jareth I trust the goblins are keeping you busy as................."she stopped her heart seemed to be burning.She looked at Jareth with confused eyes.
Before she could utter another word Abera came waddling through the door with the large egg in her arms.But instead of the usuale silver grey egg it was glowing.

Without waiting for Jareth or Mabera to say a word she swallowed her pain and grabbed the egg and ran outside and onto the balcony.She fell onto the ground from the pain the egg securly placed in her lap.Crack pick could be heard and then a dragon emerged from the glow.

As big as a greyhound even though it was just a baby.The color of the dragon was a combination of silver and black it beautiful eyes were caramel.
The dragon looked at Sierra as if in recognition.It placed it's mouth on forehead and entered her mind sealing there conection.
"My name is Theytor and I have waited centuries for you little one"for others you could just hear a low rumble eminating from the dragons thoat.
"I have not waited as long as you but I still have been waiting"she replied to him in her mind

Counting down the days till the 19th{Thursday}
Can anyone guess why?

My kingdom is at unease because of the maidens cries for it is so fond of her.Dearest girl you hide your tears behind stone wall but we can still see them and feel you pain.
And because of you cries your dragon has awakened.I'm afraid it might not like my ruler but he won't harm him unless you say so.

I saw it all happen you knew it was coming.But you still went just as faithful as ever.I will try to help you move on but I'm afraid your love will always linger with another.
Go ahead and cry let your heart weep for it's loss the pain will ease with time.
I'm surprised you lasted so long with Jareth until he took the initiative to leave.
You truly are strong.

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My ruler for I feel no sentiments in calling you by you name.You can afford this coldness since another does not or can not give it to you.
You lost again O Goblin King but more so when those others left you.You lost soo much more.
I had hoped you would see the light before you did something foolish,and idiotic,but that didn't happen
Amazingly she doesnt hold it against you but know ask yourself can you really live with this.

My pc is about to die so if you don't see me around thats why it wont hold a charge or ven charge plugged in so yeah.

To keep those tears at bay
And say those words of loyalty
When your heart is wrenched from it's rightful place
Slap to the face

A punch in the gut
Your energy drained
But still that love remains
It's a fire that always burns
No matter how much it rains

I reached for a star that was falling
I just wanted to put it back in place
But it burned my hands
Maybe know with the rejection on the other side
He can heal in his own time
I wish I was just pawn in place
To play apart in this game
But a pawn could never feel so strongly this way

Till the dying day
You have my heart
I watch you
From afar
Because you won't allow me by your side

You won't be forced
These reptitve words must be soo tiresome for you by know

But even if you could never love me in this way
It's ok
But my heart is forever in your hands
Foolish girl I might seem
At least to you
Please forgive me
In the future no matter whom you choose to be with
A friend you'll always have in me.

I'll burn these hands a thousand times
To keep your world from falling down.

I have read some of the recent drama that has been about the banning of Css for awhile,and we will live.?Yes the circumstances of which it was taken was not happy.

However,we still have the community we can still express our characters in different ways,we can still contact other players and still essentially be a community.

The css will be miss me included but were still able to continue.A troll like that needed to be adressed and I'm glad it was .Art like Css should not be destroyed.

Anyway were still here,alive,yes it's disappointing that privilege is taken away for know but we still have each other.*hugs+nuzzles*


Let the light shine through the clouds
To give us a better view
Smile and realize
The important things in your life
And what is just a passing fancy
The good will survive
And will remain true
Till the very end.

Slowly but surely I began to drift back into consciousness from my nights peaceful slumber.Pausing momentarily I open my eyes to let them adjust.Noticing that the sun was not shining but clouds of grey were stamped across the sky.
Something seems out of place and I couldn't put my fingure on it.
Abera hastily makes her ways in the room out of breath.Before she make it to me I realize what was wrong.
Philip normally wakes me up once in the middle of the night but he hadn't last night.Not waiting for an explanation I grab my robe and run to the nursery barefoot.


The door was opened immediately seeing the wet nurse trying to calm the wrestless child.But he made no sound not even a wail or cry.Upon seeing me the wet nurse moves out of the way picking up Philip I notice that his skin was hot.Placing a hand on his forehead I realize he has a fever.I know fevers can sometimes be deadly for infants so I order Abera to go fetch a healer and I instruct the wet nurse to ready Philip a cool bath.

In my arms Philp stills and rests his head on my chest.He seems to know that in my arms I will help and protect him.Cradling him closer I kiss his head and sing soft lullibyes in his ears.
Once the wetnurse returned Philip was bathed.It seemed to help a small smile appeared on the babes face.But after he is bathed and dressed the fever remained.

I was on the verge of blasting my way through the door to find that darn healer,until she opened the door.Seeing my distressed face the healer quickly came in.Relunctantly I let Philip go into the arms of the healer and sat in the wooden rocker.Abera tried to convince to eat and change my clothing but I would not leave his side.

I'm sure I looked like a bloody mess but it didn't matter.The healer put some herbal paste on the roof of Philip's mouth.For a moment he seemed wide awake but then I noticed how his eyelids began to droop till he was sound asleep.

The healer turned to me and handed me a bottle of the same thing she

My dearest Sierra you have yet to discover what you are fully capable of.Your prescence and your wisdom will bring peace to the underworld.This battle which you are facing currently will shape your life here in many ways.
My ruler the Goblin King or other wise known as Jareth you were shocked at my choice to turn your little friend.Your harsh reaction and blunt words showed not only me but Sierra how displeased you were.
However I am older than the both of you I can not make the two of you do anything and I am hard pressed on you part Jareth to do so.I have watched you three times.......show your heart to another and not be recieved willingly.

I am no fool I watched you as you befriended this girl,protected her.However,even I can not see inside your mind or heart enough to know your true feelings.You both are similiar her past relastionships have left her feeling unwanted,unloved,some have left her in fear.Yet in spite she openly confessed her heart to you.Brave and bold she is and then she was left with a child.
It was then I knew I could help better not only her life but possibly yours as well.

If I didn't see and know all that I do about her I would never have changed her.
Her innocence is unfaltered unchanged by the society she lived in.Unselfish, loving ,compassionate,
loyal many of these traits are hard to find.Her persistents and stubborness have tested you Jareth so many times your jaw is strained and that little vain in your temple makes an appearence.

Suffer in silence thats what she prefers and has done for a long time.Yet she would willingly listen to any-one elses problem and be there should to cry on.But she wants to seem strong to others but perhaps that is her achilles heel.

She understands that children are precious things,otherwise she would have given baby Philip to someone else.
She is different from other mortals and granted many fae women.For who would help these goblins of mine and treat them as friends.She doesn't seek power