You can smell the pollen
Thats floating in the air
From the flowers that bloom
This time of year
The buttterfly flys bye
In its first debu
The birds rejoice
As they sing their song
Love is in the air
This time of year
The gentle breeze
Is nice
Compared to the harsh winds
Of winter
A new season has begun
Filled with new life and beauty
Tiss the season of spring
We say goodbye to winter for now
It wont be long
Till its at our doorstep
Once again
But now
Lets celebrate

I stand before the audience
Violin in hand
A sigh escapes my lips
To cure my tremblinging hands
As I lift my violin
I make a solemn vow
To let my story flow
From these hands to these strings
And let this violin make my sad story known
I wont hold back
Ill give it my all
I close my eyes
As I begin
Surrendering myself to the music
The audience is silent
As they hear the melody of my song
My pain seeps through
It has a different edge
That not even a critic could criticise
I stay with the feeling
Persuing it
The only sound
Is the violin
And the beating of my pulsing heart
At the very end
I close out with a hauting sad note
To let them know that was only the beginning
Of my tale
The silence rings clear
For only a second
Then the audience erupts in applause
I hold back the tears as I bow
I smile because I was able to show my true emotion
All because I made a solemn vow

In this world were living in
It seems so cruel
To be in
If you look at it from a distance
Many things you will see
But often times you will see the sadness
Thats cuts you like a knife
Things are forever changing
They cant be stopped
No matter how hard we try
To hang on
Eventually
It changes
With a blink of an eye
Nothings the same
If we cry
Whos to say
That there would be someone there
To wipe them away
And help you to your feet
When stumble across the ground
You see the person you want to be
Standing right in front of you
But know its only a ghost of the dream you once had
Disappearing to the unknown lands
We look back on the past and wish it was today
We cling tightly to these memories
For they once held so many bright dreams
But that all changed
You changed
And it seems to be a cruel reality
When you stare into the looking glass.

reserved for chapter 7


Little wing--

I sigh
Lost in thought
So many thoughts go through my head
Each time you come near me
I smile
As you smile
And laugh
My heart feels light
When your not here
My heart feel so incomplete
I cant resist the urge to look at you
Whenever your around
My heart flutters
Every time we touch
Your eyes
They dazzle me
Sparkling like diamonds
I never thought that there could be
A woman such as you
Could I ever be worthy
To love you
These feelings that I have for you are love
So confusing yet wonderful at the same time.
Would it be alright
If I took you in my arms
And never let go
Protecting you as long
As I breathe
The urge to do so is overwhelming
My will power to do so is fading
Would you love me to
Am I worthy to love such a person
Aghghgh,I grasp my hair
Frustrated with my questions.
I tilt my head back
Closing my eyes
Wishing for the answer
To my question can I love you

In the dead of night of night
In the thick of the garden
The moon shines brightly
At the spot where I am crying
Ive read the letter you sent
On how you said
You saw through my lies
And how you knew I was trying to protect you
But you also said
That you could and would protect me
No matter what
Clutching your letter
These tears of mine wont stop
I knew you would be at our special place
In the forest
Kicking off my heals
I run
The grass gentle touches my feet
But I barely notice
I wipe the tears from my eyes
But I dont look back
In the distance
I see your figure standing by the tree
My eyes start to tear when I see your face
You caught me in your strong embrace
I mumble in your chest
Im sorry
You only cling me tighter
And lift my chin to your face
I get lost in your eyes
As our lips slowly kiss
Im with you and Im safe

I fled before your eyes
Leaving you with the lies I spoke
I could not look back
And see your face
I did not want to see your face
A memory that would always haunt me
For a lifetime
I told myself that it was for the best
At least you would not face any more hardships because of me
My wealthy family disgraces me
With their noble heirs
Youll never know how hard it was
To say those things
To walk away
But that day
I left my heart with you
For no one else could have it
You might be a poor man
But your pride and dignity
Are greater than any others
You work hard and honestly
And to me thats all that matters
I sit here in this calm demeaner
Screaming and crying within my soul
I gave you my heart
But my soul is slowly dying here without you
It yearns for your laughter
And your warm embrace
My hands grip my hair as I think on these things
I did not want to do this
But then again I never wanted anyone to hurt you
And being a woman
This was all I could think to do
So please forgive me
And believe
I did not want to
But remember you still have my heart and that will never change
For you are the only one I deam worthy
To keep it.

Hi guys.....ummmm I wont be around as much these next few months at least until July. Cause school... and as some of you know my brother's anniversary is June 2,so yeah.... For my birthday May 19 my mom,my aunt and myself are probably going to the beach where my brother lived which is 12 or more hours a way. It will be the first visit back there with out him.
Ill occasionally pop in but not as much as before Ill continue with Anna's story in bits and pieces.As for my poems I already have a few in my head but Im not sure when Ill post them.


I hope you guys are doing all right. And if your going through a rough time focus on the positive and keep your head up.

Somehow I think will be a failed attempt but here goes.
Ill open up two slots for now if you request more than one for your deer or another deer that is fine. So here goes nothing.




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Anna was anxious as she came off her horse. All the people in the tribe it seemed were coming to greet her. Curious expressions stared at her as she held her composer.One of the young women approached her studying Anna before executing a slap. Before Anna could retaliate all of the other women joined in.Anna curled up on the ground while the women were still beating her .She did not scream or plead for mercy her pride would not allow such a thing.But she did not have to endure it for long. For Tokalah yelled for the women to stop in the native Sioux language.Fortunately the women stopped long enough for Tokalah to get to Anna. Pulling her up her looked at the women who initiated the attack but said nothing.Anna arms and legs would be covered with bruises from the beating but other wise nothing to serious.Luta came closer to Anna. He whispered to Anna"Its the way they are testing you to see if you are strong" he explained. Hell of a way she thought. But she lifted her head hoping they would know she was unaffected by the incodent."What next she "asked Luta. Luta cleared his throat" You will work for Tokalah" he replied. Anna had a sense of uneasiness as she looked at Tokalah who was right beside her. All she could say if he tried any thing he was dead meat.



Anna was lead to what she guessed was Tokalah"s teppe. He stopped outside motioning for her to go in. Anna ducked into the teppe where a kind hearted women sat.Anna did not hear Tokalah enter,but she saw his shadow walk off to another place.The woman smiled at Anna "My name is little wing "she said. standing.up she started touching Anna's dress where the cuts and holes were. Anna decided that Little wing seemed kind enough so she smile at her"My name is Anna" she introduced herself.