Dear Masque.
August 5, 2009 - 12:06am — fayne
You have no idea how much I want to shit you right now. But I can't. It's you we're talking about, after all. I just have to get this to you somehow. So, you get this letter instead of a faceful of shovel.
I don't know what to do with you. I have the haunting feeling this is going to put you in an even worse mood, but that's because I suck at staying calm. Take the emotion out of what I'm about to say and consider it as twisted constructive critisism, and that's colser to my original intent.
What do you want, Masque? Exactly what are you going to settle on? It's like spin-the-bottle every damn day. Don't give me crap about how you don't want anything from us - you weren't born here. You're human, so you have to have some kind of desire. Shyla, Aegle and me - we don't know what to do. I can tell they're as lost as I am. Maybe you've decided where your heart's going, but you haven't shown us, and it's driving me crazy. I don't mean to speak for them, but still.
IT's painfully hard to distance myself from you. I'll say it straight. I'm sure they're feeling it too. I don't want to make this about me, but you need to know, really. Yeah, I liked you. A hell of a lot, to be exact. It's sorely clear how alike we are. No matter what I did, you held me at arm's length, so I was patient. Then I learned what Aegle and Shyla felt. I've had enough time with love - I wanted them to have their shot, so I tried to back away. It's hard when you keep this charade up. Really, really hard.
I can't hate you. No matter how hard I try, I keep looking back at you, so I figure I'm stuck with it. Just tell me what you've decided. I'll do what I can to stick around, no matter what. I guess.
Love, always,
T
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SFHJGH THIS WAS AMUSING. She would have told him in person but honestly, she was afraid for his safety, so have a note pinned to his apartment door. 
LALLY LALLY also Fled I have no idea what's up with the random spell-casting light. o_o My connection is funky right now lawl.
<3 -- Dannii <3
-- Dannii <3
Rare to find something
Feels like mom is telling
ohgawd where to begin.
I don't really know how to explain myself, T. All I can say is I'm sorry. I never thought you actually had anything for me, so I forced myself to believe you were leading me on. I don't think you realize how hard it is to read you sometimes. But I can't help it when I started to fall for you, and god knows I can't hold myself back when I should.
And you know what? It doesn't even matter. I'm not supposed to fall for anybody, ever again. I told myself that ten years ago, and I plan on holding myself to it. You know damn well it's not fair for me to be involved with anyone, unless you girls enjoy being treated like dirt. You don't deserve that, neither does Aegle, neither does Shyla. I love you guys too much to put you through that, so don't expect me to decide on someone- it's not happening.
I don't know why you keep putting up with my bullshit, but I can only thank you for it. Starting now, I won't let feelings get between myself and you three. I'm lucky as hell to have you as friends, and that's really all I need. So, continue to be pissed at me or whatever, I've said my part.
-voicemailed because I just know she wouldn't pick up-
((It's really hard to write all srslol when there's a million&1 distractions and now it's tiem to go to Chilie's so PEACE OUT GIRL SCOUT.))
Thanks, you guys.
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