little bit of blood and bad words...oouhh so shamefull + my english is a true shame



I'm sitting alone looking at the window all by myself thinking about what i've done in my life...
I just need a little time,little time to realize who am i become...
I've overcomitted myself,i can't find sleep,i'm smyling when i want to scream my anger to that world..
I'm not the this or that,i'm just myself...which is worst...
All i wanted when i was a child was to walk on the sunshine...Here,it's the earth,full of shit,lies,anger and traitors...
I tought i was special,that i was meant to do something really special but in the end i'm just like everyone else and scene...
I tried to find peace and joy in my familly,my lovers ,but now,it's like that i'm a total stranger to them....
Isn't that pitiful?i'm writing words that i will never tell to total strangers who don't give an ass of my life...

If tomorrow i don't wake up,then let it be