Embarrassment:;.~

It’s a cruel thing.

My human had just returned from a short vacation, and I was eager to feel the cold breeze of the Forest. A few deer were confused by my action, but I took them no notice. Then, who should appear but he himself! It’s some kind of cruel trick; my human always putting me into the Forest when he arrives. I shy away from him, waiting for the perfect time to walk up to him.

Who should then come but a mystery deer, their face hidden by a long mask. They were adorned in peacock feathers and an uncommon navy and white coat. They insisted on following me around until they went to bother him. Oh, how much fury I felt! I was about to trot over and put some sense into them, before I sighted the old one. He looked younger, in the gazelle pelt and brown real deer mask. He began to attack the mystery deer, in a blunt, unexplainable rage.

He was apparently bored by this deer and came over to maul me. I was not going to tolerate that, oh no! I put up quite a fight, and I presumed myself winning until I looked up.

Why was he always there?

I faltered, and the demon gazelle grew bored. He went over to attack my love, shortly departing after that. Oh, how I wished I could have ripped the fur off of his back! Instead of my usual white shade around my face, I was scarlet with embarrassment. My love seemed as confused as my heart felt, staring at me with those ever-beautiful grey eyes.

Unwittingly, I fled.

There will be a time.

There will.

Best Regards,

Aspen:;.~

Loop's moods progressed like this over today.

'Oh, look, Aspen! Hi!'

'ZOMG EETS MAGNET. She should talk to him.'

'Asp, I want you to meet someone!'

'Oh, come on, just talk to him!'

'O NO U JUST DINT RUN AWAY.'

'Gon kill you fer doing that. NAOW.'

Uhuh.

[edit] DUDE WTF.
Clone Asps? Doing battle?
o.0

Does anyone ever get the feeling that they care more than their friends do?
It’s like your whole world rests with them…you love them, and adore them, and wish to be with them all the time and when you’re not you feel a constant emptiness inside.
Yet despite this, you feel you are nothing ‘more’ than a friend to them. A companion when their life grows dull without one, someone to romp with when their own company, or the company of their other friends does not suffice. Like you’re nothing but a name on a list…like your friends have favorites and you are never one of them.
Yet each of them mean worlds to you. To me.
I curl up beneath the willow and brood about how selfish I am. Why can’t I be satisfied? And then I think, maybe…maybe I care too much. Maybe the latter is what friendship should really be, and I put too much faith in others.
I set myself up for the fall.

Reetno has grown now. Do I imagine the distance I feel from him? Probably. My mind can’t seem to linger on optimism long anymore. But what if I do not? Part of me wishes to be glad. He needs to grow bolder, to make more friends, to find love, and yet I feel each step in one direction takes him further from my own. Selfish, that’s all it is.
Why can I find no satisfaction in the world anymore?
I can think of no cause for these feelings, other than…no, it’s too silly to say, yet…omitting it from this confessional feels wrong. I wish…to feel special somehow, I think. I once felt this way, with Reetno, but it’s fading now. I can’t be content being just another face in the forest…to be overlooked. How horrible I am, I think, for thinking this way. How truly awful…

Chapter 7 - Familiar Sancutary

A group of deer were waiting when Swiftkill dashed into the Oak. Some began to grumble at the interruption, but Aeros instantly knew. "Where are the others?"

"I...I don't know...it killed..."

"Let's go." Vipin tossed his antlers and jerked his head. the others had seen the grave expression on his face, and followed as Swiftkill led them flying towards the Playground. Xylia followed behind, her short legs only allowing her to barely keep up.

Vipin was the first to spot Lieka emerging from the Trinagle, and the shapes on the ground around the three stones. The Queen of Darkness said nothing, but the smile on her face caused Swift to let out a huge sigh. "You did it." She guestured to the sleeping deer around the Trinagle. "Wake them up."

Aeros nuzzled Loop into waking. The doe blinked and yawned. "What? What happened?"

"Nothing. Nothing at all."

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REALLY SHORT HAPPY ENDING = BAW.
I had serious writer's block today so I scratched this up quick. Hope you guys enjoyed it. :3 I've got something else planned that's shorter and more personal, now.

Chapter 6 - Off With Their Heads

Loop blinked fiercely as the harsh sunlight burned her eyes. Swiftkill shook her head and looked around nervously. "Look..."

It was the forest...or, at least, what was left of it. The sunlight was tinged red, and everywhere the trees were burned and blackened with soot. Even the Pond was dried up, and the ground was charred and littered with what looked to be boulders. Hesitantly, the two does approached one. A ray of sunlight hit it as they got closer, and Loop gasped.

It was Quamar's body, charred nearly beyond recognition. Swiftkill looked around wildly, and identified others in a shaky voice. "Walter...21...Trois...what happened?" Loop bit her lip, and tried to sound more confident then she felt upon answering. "Nothing happened. It's an illusion. Theyre'''trying to trick us." She blinked back the tears coming to her eyes and glanced around, looking for a way out. Immediately her eyes went to the Twin Gods statues.

They were gone. All that remained were sear marks and a crumbling stone base. Loop let out a breath and backed up, her ears back in fear. "There's no way this is home," she whispered. "We have to get out, now." Swiftkill nodded and guided her friend's eyes away, towards the crying idol. "Look."

It, at least, was normal, but defecit of the water it usually poured from it's eyes. At the very least, Lieka had been able to pinpoint their escape route. Swiftkill sighed and darted towards it, with Loop following.

But they didn't get very far. Four huge vines shot from the ground and wrapped themselves around Loop, dragging her away. Swiftkill screamed and pounded at the black plants, but within moments the older doe was gone. Swift scrabbled at the ground with her hooves in desperation, but was forced to jump away as more vines appeared. Dashing madly for the Idol, one caught hold of her hoof. Still, the adrenaline in her body was pumping so hard that the doe mad a last, desperate leap -

I used to have one, but I lost it, and I'm too lazy to find it. It's time I updated it, anyways.

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- Name: Anzel

- Nicknames: Zelical, Zelly, Nirish, Ghost Deer

- Gender: Doe

- Appearance:


- How to remember her pictogram: Golden snitch, wing, or...an 'F' flipped in a mirror with a swirly at the bottom.

- Mate: None. [font size=-4]but she might have one or two...<<; she's in denial.[/url]

- Details of her glitch: Anzel isn't ignoring you. She just can't see you.

I apparently have a high 'ping', which prevents me from loading other people's movements, or even loading them at all, most of the time. Here's how it is for me:

When I connect and log in, all the pictograms fall into a clump at the bottom of my screen, and they don't spread out, normally. If they do, either there are very few with fake pictograms, or I might be lucky, and see every deer in the forest, even the weather! But the deer I see, don't move. If they move, it's in place, and the action repeats. Often, the deer are setless to me.

Other people can often see me, but I may or may not appear with my set to them, and I may or may not move to them. I cannot see them move around, and I cannot tell if they are chasing me unless I check the live map. So, don't think I'm disrespecting you if I ignore you. Because if I could see you, I would bow and be polite. I just...don't even know you're there. x.x

- Personality: Anzel is basically...me. Her name is based from an old wolf RP character I had named Dark Angel, who went through a series of revelations, and became Anzel. She is very wise, too much so. But Anzel is not a predator like Dark Angel was, and was never and will never be quite as unkind.

My heart is an open book
You can see the pages
You can read the writing torn by my hoof
Into the page before me
Every night and everyday

I don't see you there
As more than a friend
How could I? Pah, silly!
I'm a ghost! How could I ever love?
How would I ever know what a mate even was?

The extra nuzzles I give him
When I spy him, sleek as midnight,
Are because he is my friend!
I'm just a ghost!
How could he ever care?

Like I've said, I don't love
No, I don't, he's just a friend
He doesn't have any clue and he never will
Not that there's anything to ever have a clue about
Because there isn't and never will be

No, no, it's okay
I know he has a mate
And she is a beautiful doe, and I have no bad thoughts of her
Even if she might be breaking his heart
As she breaks mine slowly

What? Did I say that? I kid!
Have you not heard of hyperboles? Pah;
Enough of this 'love', whatever it is
I'll never know it feels like fleers in my heart
I never will

It's felt like suffication since I first saw him
His eyes preoccupied with another doe
But I think it's just a coincidence; Yes, that's it,
Nothing but a realization of my glitch
That makes sense, now doesn't it?

I never blush; Never shy away from his form
I shall never care that he has a mate, and no, it troubles me not
I'm just a ghost, I don't know love
I don't notice him any more than he notices me
And I do not protest too much!!!

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Blame the song 'Doth I Protest Too Much' by Alanis Morissette. Think you can figure it out?

I just woke up not 15 minutes ago, so it'll probably be easy. It's a free-verse poem of LAZEHNESS.

Yup, today on the Live Forest Map I spotted Anzels picto, and it was moving o.o so I put Draak in the forest and we found her . I'm not sure who out of the little group she could see though.

Draak: Yup, so I ran and found Anzel along with Magnet and Vesper (both who I dont think I've met before). Pepokeen was there too for a little bit. Anzel ran off and we followed her to the Playground where we danced for a while.


She then led us to the "wallet"/"Suitcase" thing where we messed around for a bit. Sit Roffles!


More running. Come on Magneeeeet!:


Lol treefaceplants XD


And then after Vesper and Magnet broke off from the little group, we went to the Bowl where we messed around in the trees :B. Raz took this closeup too:


Aaaand that was about it really, Anzel dissapeared while Raz went to get a drink. It was fun playing chase around the forest with her X)

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I might as well share some of the shots I took of the laggy Abiogenesis Draak and I experienced. So here they are:

Waiting for the Abio to start, I saw...well I thought I saw Saan O_o. And...I'm not sure...but that deer with Quammy's set isnt me...I think it was Quammy...

I loaded some deer, fwee...including...I believe it's Magnet. I'll have to check...:3

Can anyone see me?

EDIT: I'm so mean...I just moo'd at sleeping Ammy, I think XDDD;;;

Fledermaus, Adagio, thanks so much for helping me get my set back. ^^ I've been having wonky thinks happening, and I keep losing it. I really appreciate your help.