I Am Atvana

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Music is meant to be heard...






My character is named Atvana, after an entity in one of my novels.

It uses this color (#ad8200) to speak.

The mind is a powerful thing, and with full use of it one can do things that have only been dreamed. Its words are occasionally manifested in sound, but can also resonate through the air as energies, as thought, and still be understood. Its words can grow as flowers and vines, stir the trees as wind. One must only listen, and one will learn to hear.




Novel Background


In my novel, Atvana is more commonly referred to as the Forest Spirit. The name "Atvana" in itself refers to that name, seeing as it is a combination of the Hindi words/terms "Atman" (the Hindi word for the soul/true self which is of a divine, worldly, Godly, joyous, and blissful nature) and "vana" (the Hindi word for "forest"). Thus, divine spirit of the forest.

Atvana is benevolent (its purpose is to help the humans, animals, and plants it encounters), omnipotent, omnipresent, and omniscient. It is genderless, as it is a manifestation of God (as I believe all things are) without a defined physical form. It can take the form of anything, but regularly sticks to animals and plants. It loves to play, and more often than not takes the form of smaller animals and/or plants, due to its subtle nature. Do not misunderstand though, as it is infinitely powerful. I believe that power comes from the capability of doing all forms of harm, and the reality of doing all forms of good.




In The Forest


Atvana is a manifestation of divine with the power to do, literally, anything.
That said, its actions relating toward others can only be brought into effect voluntarily.
By the mechanisms of its function and complexities of its nature, others will react in an infinite amount of ways.

It loves all and will not fight without defined meaning, and only very, very rarely play fight. While fighting, it feels nothing but love for the opponent.


Its personality is childlike in the sense that it is always curious, always looking at the world with fascinated eyes.
It plays often, in many ways, and never means to offend. It is very loyal to whom it meets, and will often stay manifested just for them.

It watches over all other beings and things, as a protecting parent, sibling, friend.


It holds no enemies, no hatred. Every wrong committed is immediately forgiven. It loves too much to do anything else.

It can see misery, hatred, jealousy, and all other negatives that are sometimes trapped in others. It will always desire happiness for all beings.
It will make attempts to rid others of issues that go against them. It will never stop trying to help a soul with a problem to rid themselves of it.
It cannot stop helping, as it cannot stop loving.


It can heal anything, if the being allows it.
This may be a conscious or unconscious will to not accept a healing.
It is also possible that a healing at that time would go against the highest good of all involved.

It does not have a single duty. It manifests to promote the highest good of all of those involved.
Through this diverse need, it comes in an infinite number of forms, some with a tiny defined task, others far less direct.
Some of these forms are recurring, others are only present once. Each could, perhaps, be mistaken for an identity of its own, a deity, a soul.
In truth, the name "Atvana" is just another of these mistaken forms. It is not merely Atvana. It is everything.


Atvana loves:
Everything. It is all things.
It is the sky, the Earth, the seas.
It is the galaxies, the cells.
It is the Universe.
It is you, and it is I. It is all things.
It loves all things. Never ceasing. Always present.


It can be found...

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Test color, crazy bright

Test color, crazy bright gold. Get your sunglasses.


So she would like to be his friend. And he...oh, caring soul. What sadness. I understand. Thank you, Mother. Atvana keeps a regular pace in breathing. I am at your right hand, Amadahy. Rakkaus joins them, to which Atvana bows and lays back down. Rakkaus joins the growing herd, taking a place to Atvana's right. Atvana smiles in a motherly manner, looking out in the direction of the pond. Only the tops of the willows are visible, but they are still beautiful. Atvana watches for Saosin's name, remembering it easily. Atvana notices with some amusement that Rakkaus and Crispin have the same antlers.

I cannot speak to her, but perhaps I can let other things speak for me. May there be calming things? Atvana closes its body's eyes with a smile, listening to a bird sing. Crickets continue chirping, and the occasional creak of a tree in the forest echoes pleasantly. Atvana works to create an energy of happy music playing, like a sweet and soft lullaby. It cannot be heard by anyone, not even Atvana, but it can be felt. It is kind and reassuring. All will be alright. Opening its body's eyes, it sees that Crispin is absent. Its smile does not falter. It will be her company, it and Rakkaus.

What a beautiful day. Atvana smiles when it sees Saosin, sleeping next to Ravyn in the birch forest under a eucalyptus tree. They look peaceful.
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((Ama's is brighter- it's

((Ama's is brighter- it's annoying. x3 It should be a darker blue. >.<))
Ama smiles and looks up, blinking into the face of her seemingly mute friend.
"Thanks for staying by me..."
By the time Rakkaus joined them, Ama had fallen asleep, listening to the music of the forest, though only the rather obvious sounds, like the pond lapping at its shores and the wind through the trees above. Drifting in and out of the light sleep, she suddenly felt the warmth of the sun brilliantly, like a blanket, the birds softly singing her to sleep.
It's all like music...
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-Rakkaus affectionately

-Rakkaus affectionately nuzzles Atvana- <3
Awesome bio! Love your take on Atvana’s picto! (Not sure how to do the tracking thing yet, but will when I learn!)
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(If you fiddle around with an

(If you fiddle around with an RGB site, I'm sure you could get it pretty quickly. :3)


Atvana, when being thanked, looks toward her, making eye contact. Due to its divine nature (which, come to think about it, she may not even know about yet XD), eye contact is very, very intense, but pleasant when it is giving off pleasant energies (which, of course, it is). It smiles a big smile, crinkling its eyes at her.

You are welcome. You are always welcome, Amadahy.

It faces the pond again. It can see it now. It sees deer playing. They are adorable.

Atvana comes to sense that its prayers have been answered. It lays down completely. This body will rest, while it will stay, all around. It has formed a protective and loving bubble of its consciousness around dear Amadahy. It watches the forest more, ever-entertained. Ever-blissful. It waits for what will come, what God is keeping a mystery.

You are letting me experience what it is like to be one of these beings here. I thank you for this opportunity. It is difficult, trying...but it is beautiful. Atvana opens one eye to look at Amadahy as it thinks this last bit. It smiles and closes it eye. What a beautiful day indeed.
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[No response][/No

[No response][/No response]
D": Sorry!
She's mostly asleep right now, so all's well. x3

Just know that she has occasional nightmares about a certain set of antlers & a certain deer that goes with them (and it's not Saosin x3).
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Rakkaus, *Smiles.* Atvana

Rakkaus,

*Smiles.* Atvana apologizes for being so absent. As you can probably see from our conversation, Ocean and I are having quite the conversation while Atvana keeps her Amadahy company. :3 Atvana nuzzles back, making a mental note to play with Rakkaus when it can.


Why thank you. I made up the stormy bit of it, because I had no idea what to make the line that crosses the square. XD

Tracking, actually, is quite simple. I'm not sure if I do it "right," but I go to my page and track myself. This takes me to a page of all of the pages I've commented on. "New" messages are messages that were posted after your own, that you haven't gotten a chance to see. These are possible replies to you, or perhaps to others. I hope that makes sense/was helpful. XD

Atvana was very happy to see you today.
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Ama, Atvana smiles. I see.

Ama,

Atvana smiles.


I see. So, her fear of those antlers, do they then stem from something that once happened?

Or will I have to work for an answer? :3


Deer are using us to get pelts. I'm going to stand and scare them. XDDDDDD

...that didn't work. D8
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Rakkaus! *waves at* ...Holy

Rakkaus! *waves at*

...Holy smokes, was Atvana speaking aloud all this time? o.o

I'll just go ahead and give you the answer.
There's a certain deer that's roaming around who had threatened/chased her twice, wearing those antlers. And for some reason, she's curious about him.
But he mostly scares her and has made her rather nervous around those 'tlers. :3
[e]: She doesn't have too many nightmares & is recovering quite well, by the way. x3

xDDDD
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Ama, Oh, no, no, no! That

Ama,

Oh, no, no, no! That would be quotes without italics, it it were speaking aloud. I would have made a big deal about that, too. XD Italics are thought. Quotes around italics would be telepathy, but it figures that communicating with her in any way at this point would freak her out, and it doesn't want to do that. Thus, it waits.

Ah, she's awake!

I see...how interesting. I'm curious too.
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Oh good. 'Cause I had a:

Oh good. 'Cause I had a: 'what on earth do I say to cover THAT' moment.
Oh good. |D
And yes, you're probably right.

Yeees. :3

I can't even figure out who this stag IS. |D None of us can. We just know that it seems to have a temper to rival a mad dog. x3

& she "hears" music; she was reacting to the music on Atvana's profile (since I was also trying to figure out if it was familiar).
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Any time Rakkaus gets to

Any time Rakkaus gets to spend with Atvana, he's happy with. <3

(Thanks for your help with the tracking bit!)
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Rakkaus, And vice versa.

Rakkaus,

And vice versa. :3

You're very welcome; I know that I still need help with things, a lot of help, mind you, so it's nice to be helpful every so often. XD
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Ama, XD I wouldn't toss you

Ama,

XD I wouldn't toss you in so deep without first showing you how to swim. Metaphorically, of course. Swimming in the game is so far a not-so-good thing.

Ah, so it is not over cautious. Good. I worry over such things.

How sad Atvana only could stay material for such a short time in her wake... At least she was not physically left alone.

And my apologies for leaving so quickly. It's that blasted college schedule; completely insane, it is.


What a meanie-face. If Atvana catches that happening, it will not have a pleased.

Lucky, here it is not omnipotent. That stag would be screwed it if was and had been told to remove the being. *Laughlaugh.*

Ah, those songs. Those are just three of the songs that I wrote my first novel (first appearance of the Forest Spirit, a.k.a. Atvana [though in that entire thing I did not have a name for it]) to the sound of. I found them to be the most pertinent to Atvana itself.

They may be familiar. They're from good movies. Or, at least, in good movies. :3

I just got a talking feeling. A lot of what Atvana says comes from feeling. Almost as if it isn't me saying it (which wouldn't be surprising seeing as it is a "fictional" [or so we think] manifestation of a real being), but merely me interpreting. It didn't really say anything specific, but it felt very kindly toward you. Sort of like being proud...but...I dunno, different. Kind of like it is happy to see you and how well you're doing with...whatever you're doing.

I do things like this a lot. I get a little odd, and kind of paranormal. I used to restrain it, but...well, it just feels wrong to restrain what feels like kindness and wonder, you know?
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Aw, your comment about me and

Aw, your comment about me and Nerri is so sweet :3
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Zeekii, Oh my gosh, hi!

Zeekii,

Oh my gosh, hi! You're here~!

Well, I figured I'd mention what I actually felt. :3

Nerri's mentioned in the little story I wrote, too. >_> But only a little since it was just a thought about her...but she's there! :3

*Gigglegiggle.*
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Hey! ^-^ Hopefully, I can

Hey! ^-^

Hopefully, I can come on longer now, and Nerri will be able to be with Atvana again. She misses her forest spirit friend...

Your stories are all too cute! x3
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Zeekii, Hi~ Hopefully

Zeekii,

Hi~

Hopefully indeed! I won't be online much at all today since it's Thanksgiving here and all, but tomorrow. ;D Atvana is so ridiculously excited, you don't even know.

Thank you~ I'm in the process of writing a couple more. :3

P.S., do you know Ocean, or does Nerri know her deer Ama[dahy]? While you and Nerri were poofed, Atvana and I seem to have made nice friends with her. :3 It would be cool if we could be, like, a trio of terrifying amazing. 8D

Hope to see you soon~

(And because Ocean asked me before, I only find it logical to ask you since it's so fun to use: do you have MSN, Yahoo IM, or AIM? :3)
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Just popping in! *Rakkaus

Just popping in! *Rakkaus nuzzles Atvana*
-- This account belongs to Moss/3, now. 's picture

/tracking 8D

/tracking 8D
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Rakkaus, Welcome by. 8D

Rakkaus,

Welcome by. 8D *Atvana nuzzles back with a smile.*
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Deathday (cute name), Thank

Deathday (cute name),

Thank you~

I make minute changes all the time, so when it says "new!" chances are it's a new typo-correction or something like that. XD
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I've no idea why I've missed

I've no idea why I've missed this bio but it must be tracked!
Atvana is such an awesome character and I love the way you've put this bio together. (8
I just hope I'd meet it again soon. Atvana, not the bio. I mean... It's hard to speak about 'it' when you talk about a character. 8D
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Narina, *Laughs.* Thank you

Narina,

*Laughs.* Thank you very much! :3 I tried. (Sadly.)

Thank you, too! I just decided to bounce off of my own Spiritual beliefs and make a character out of it. It's a little difficult, but it's definitely enjoyable. And thanks for that "way you've put this bio together" comment too. I just sort of bounded off of other people's ideas, and wrote what looked sensible. 8D

Atvana hopes to meet Riptail again soon as well. XD If it makes it easier for you, you can pick a gender to call it. It is both male and female, so it can be acknowledged as one or another. It all depends on what you see. <3

P.S., every time I see your signature, I d'aawwww at Riptail there. XD <3
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Such an interesting

Such an interesting character! Dodge is honored to have been Atvana's twin. =3
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Ryuiki, XD Thank

Ryuiki,

XD Thank you~

Atvana is delighted to have physically met Dodge. :3
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*Sneaks up on Serenai*

*Sneaks up on Serenai*
...
*poke* 8DDD
*crazy laughter*

hmm...yes, I moved the conversation-type thing to your bio, so I didnt have to apologise again to Lag xD
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XD Good idea. My actual first

XD Good idea. My actual first name is Chanelle, if you'd like to use that instead~

*Pokes back. Runs in a circle giggling. Trips over a bush and lands in an over-sized puddle. Causes a large splash and insults several fish with her presence.*
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Ah ok, well, instead of

Ah ok, well, instead of calling me Zeekii maybe you would prefer to call me Sarah xD

*Falls over with laughter. Holds out a hand to help you up, and as soon as you go to grab it runs away. Skips around some trees and swings on the branches.*
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Ah. Hello Sarah. c: *Shakes

Ah. Hello Sarah. c:

*Shakes off what water she can. Sits in a warm place to dry. Watches Sarah be a nutball.*

*Draws.*

So, I'm considering broadcasting me drawing someday. No idea why I'm telling you, just putting it out there for the world, I suppose.

Atvana is very patiently and contently waiting at the apex point of the bridge for whenever Nerri decides to pop in (feel no rush). ...with Basil, apparently. I like Basil. He's so cute. ...and there he goes. And here comes some other deer. Holy crap, Atvana's getting a lot of attention. ._. And there it goes. And here's Basil again, yay! :3

Anyway, I'll shut up and send this thing. >_>
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Why hello there, Chanelle

Why hello there, Chanelle =)

I'd like to come and watch you draw, if I may...whenever you decide to broadcast, if you ever do xD

Haha. Nerri came to join Atvana (obviously you know that) and had a lot of fun with it. Sorry I kept being motionless some times, I was talking to my boyfriend at the same time, then at the point were Nerri seemed sad...well, that was OOC. Just something he said to me, but nevermind that.

Was Basil the deer wearing the zombie pelt, crying mask and real deer antlers? He kept running away into the pond, disappearing and coming back again XD It was strange, although not as strange as when we were dancing in a line with Dag and the other deer, Dag fell asleep and then the other one straight after haha.

I might come on again a bit later, hopefully I will...
Right now, I'm going to try and sort this thing out with my boyfriend ^-^
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<3

You would be very much welcomed to! I'd love it. I'm considering using live stream, since iScribble LAGS terribly for me after a little while, and if I used iScribble I'd have my belovéd drawing program.

It was great! I wondered what was going on, particularly at that sad bit. Atvana sure as Hell did too. XD <3333

Yes, that was Basil. I'm very much fond of him and his rampant insanity. Today was the first day that he and Atvana really socialized, and it went quite nicely. I can't help but wonder if Pictodeer was just playing him OOC, he was so happy-seeming. :3 That was humourous. "Yay, line of red deer! Four whole deersies! ...three! ...two? NERRI, DON'T LEAVE ME. D8" XDD

I hope you will as well! though it's being a problem-face for me and...OH MY GOD AFTER FIFTEEN MINUTES THE PICTOGRAMS JUST SPREAD, YAY. 8D ...it's glitchy though. And no more Basil. *Sobs.* Gotta restart, hope for the best.

And I wish you the best of things. :3 <3333
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<3

You would be very much welcomed to! I'd love it. I'm considering using live stream, since iScribble LAGS terribly for me after a little while, and if I used iScribble I'd have my belovéd drawing program.

It was great! I wondered what was going on, particularly at that sad bit. Atvana sure as Hell did too. XD <3333

Yes, that was Basil. I'm very much fond of him and his rampant insanity. Today was the first day that he and Atvana really socialized, and it went quite nicely. I can't help but wonder if Pictodeer was just playing him OOC, he was so happy-seeming. :3 That was humourous. "Yay, line of red deer! Four whole deersies! ...three! ...two? NERRI, DON'T LEAVE ME. D8" XDD

I hope you will as well! though it's being a problem-face for me and...OH MY GOD AFTER FIFTEEN MINUTES THE PICTOGRAMS JUST SPREAD, YAY. 8D ...it's glitchy though. And no more Basil. *Sobs.* Gotta restart, hope for the best.

And I wish you the best of things. :3 <3333
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Dehy was happy to see you

Dehy was happy to see you again!
My computer was being quite slow. Sorry she was a bit unresponsive :3
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As Atvana was Dehy Light.

As Atvana was Dehy Light. <3

It is all good and well. It's nice having someone who will just pause for a while. It gives me time to breathe and sit back, as opposed to PAYING ATTENTION AT ALL MOMEMENTS SO I DON'T MISS ANYTHING, which sometimes becomes...overbearing.
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*Rakkaus nuzzles Atvana and

*Rakkaus nuzzles Atvana and sits with her* <3

(He misses her)
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Should it get its manifested

Should it get its manifested butt in the forest? >w> XD
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Found her! lol Rakkaus goes

Found her! lol Rakkaus goes *poof* -here I am- *nuzzle* <3
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It's nice to see you,

It's nice to see you, dear.

Would you mind checking Sir Rakkaus' biography? I've left a request. :3
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Yes, Ra will help!

Yes, Ra will help! <3
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<3

I'm thinking the fantlers... Probably. I'll see if there's a better pair, but it will probably be those.

Maybe the magpie feathers...but probably the fantlers. >w>

AH. NO. THE GAME QUIT. WHY? D8
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Hope that's the set Atvana

Hope that's the set Atvana likes!

Also, I think we've the makings for a Fawn Army. lol
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It is. You'll see why soon

It is. You'll see why soon enough. Thank you. <3

Do you have MSN? o:

And hot damn! We do! 8DDD
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You're very much welcome! I

You're very much welcome!

I don't have MSN, but I can get it.

And they all vanished on us.

Edit: Okay, my computer doesn't like MSN. It never has. Sorry! I do have AIM and YIM though?
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If you have Yahoo IM or AIM,

If you have Yahoo IM or AIM, those would work too. MSN just seems most prevalent here. And it's my favorite. XD

Oh, hey, you have an edit down there. I do indeed. Yahoo is , and AIM is serenaixdemon.

...don't ask about the silliness of either. I was young. XD

Fawns are finnickey like that...

You know, I'm sort of liking this just sitting around business. It's relaxing. :3
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I'm a AIM user the most, will

I'm a AIM user the most, will add you now!<3

And sitting is fun too. Soothing with the water lapping and tree frogs? lol Except for when Ra starts spazzin' in place. lol

Edit: I'll be Hauntis on AIM or on YIM. <3
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*Actually logs in to AIM. XD

*Actually logs in to AIM. XD *

Indeed. Spazzing works. The music...sort of contradicts the other music I had, but it works. XDDD
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Ha, yeah. She has t o take a

Ha, yeah. She has t o take a break every once in a while!!! Shes prtty hyper alot. lol * gets on forest*
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*Debates forest.* Indeed she

*Debates forest.*

Indeed she does. My Atvana is normally in a bliss state where it just sits. :3
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:3 Dehy found her a sun

:3 Dehy found her a sun spot!!! Its tiny but she can sit in it perfectly 8D its at the playground.... shes quite calm in it XD
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That's lovely. 8D I have

That's lovely. 8D I have always liked those.

The moon spots even better, at night. <3
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