Anzel: The Human of one of my first friends in the forest...is leaving.
The reasons, I know not about, but they cannot simply be what is said. For my Human is able to perform those same things whilst in the forest, she either tells me to sit down or I leave the forest.
What is 'religion'? It sounds to me as though you relinquish yourself to some vision. I've seen so many visions, I cannot tell what is real and what is not. But I always keep a straight mind, and though I can easily see that there is more to this reality than meets the eye, I do not balance upon the invisible, the unproven.
My Human is agnostic, and maybe, so I am. I've nothing to hold me up when I fall, but nothing to restrain me from Being.
I may query of everything, and until the rest from which I cannot awaken again...the eternal night, the blackness, unconscious and fleeting, fast as sleep...I shall be as I am. And if somehow the unproven proves itself, how am I to know, without Being?
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My Human desires to speak...
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Me: I'm not sure if any of that would make sense to you, but it doesn't have to. I was simply letting out my frustration, I don't mean to offend anyone or debate over the undebatable. Please don't argue with me, because then you'll simply show me that religion causes conflicts...:/ Simply let me think as I do, and do not pray for me to find the way, for this is my way.
Anyways...
My dad apparently was being arrogant before.
He just told me that there -is- a faster connection speed that we could get. And it costs $60 more a month.
He basically told me to get a job, or we can't afford it.
I can't even drive, I can't even walk to the store, it'd take -way- too long. I'm only 16 >_<
Unless I could convince people to donate me $60 a month, I won't be able to enter the forest for a long time...:/ Why didn't he just tell me this earlier? He kept saying this is as fast as it gets. Now he tells me this. GAH. I HATE BEING KEPT IGNORANT.
*sighs*...
Anzel: Farewell, Stella, I shall remember you...
Though you weren't here, apparently...I'll remember you whenever I stumble across this flower patch...
Self Note - How to remember: Between the beautiful poppy patch (by the Ruins) and the Stump...Fairy Ring nearby with flowers in the direction of it. Little Fairy Ring right next to it.
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That's all I have to say...no arguments, please...
I'm not going to argue,
I'm really sorry about your dad being stupid and not telling you. Still, like I said earlier, it is a lot of money to pay. Yes, I know how much a dollar is worth, especially at the moment...
Anyway, I hope you figure it out soon, somehow.. x.x I wish I could help, but I know nothing about computers at all!
To pray is to believe, to believe is to purify one's soul
To pray is to believe, to believe is to purify one's soul
I have to agree with this
While I don't usually get into this, I'm actually Ordained.
Does playing this make me unfit to be a minister? To help others?
If playing a game like this can jeopardize or question your religion, you should be looking deeper than the game for the problems.
Addiction..fine.. I can understand completely.. but please.. don't bring religion into this.
all it does is upset people. and know it or not, you declare them to be distant from their God when you say things like that.
as for the internet connection.... 60$ a month is a horrible over charge. are you sure there isn't a better provider out there?
You've got a point there!
To pray is to believe, to believe is to purify one's soul
To pray is to believe, to believe is to purify one's soul
I wasn't the one to first
As I've said a few times...Wildblue.net is the only internet provider that covers our location x.x
And it's an EXTRA $60 a month for faster highspeed.
I just wish the reason my dad gave for us not having enough money wasn't 'your mom's an alcoholic and she's spending $120 a week on the phone'...because it ticks me off. -He- ticks me off.
I'm REALLY sick of him...
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May people please not call God 'Him'? ;-; That's one thing that kind-of...bothers me. I don't think an all-powerful being wouldn't be in need of a gender, for they wouldn't have anything or anyone to mate with, no?
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My dad just got ticked at me again :/
And he slammed the door.
*so angry right now*
Don't give up hope, Anzel.
I didn't want this to happen. I shouldn't have even brought up my reason for leaving. I should have just kept quiet about it. *sigh* I'm choosing to leave the game because I know God wants me to. That doesn't mean religion is getting in my way. If I really wanted to, I could ignore the calling and play this game forever and ever... but then I would live with guilt and I would find no joy in playing anymore. I'm a little angry myself why someone - will not say who - chose to turn this into a terrible, addicting game for me. God's helping me to get out. If I wanted I could choose not to listen. But instead I'm going to listen.
Again... it's complicated to understand. I wish you all knew how happy this is going to make me.
And I know that sounds cruel...
*sighs*...I have a feeling
Dig in.
If I desire to rant anymore, I will have to dehumanize myself and begin to examine humans from an inhuman perspective :/ I don't feel like doing that right now.
Also, people might hate the philosophical me who can simply enter open her mind and see living things as chemical reactions.
*takes a deep breath*
*breathes out*...
I hope my mom doesn't come home drunk, since she took the Debit Card without permission...
And I'm not sure he'd be able to. I wouldn't want to be in the car with him every day, anyways x.x...