You know how much I like to ask for your opinions, and many of other members do the same thing as well.

We are like a family after all, aren't we?

So please, let me explain you what is the problem and what this post post all about.

I am suffering of one of the most common fears world wide: arachnophobia.
(If you have it too, you are free to leave this page.)

I am not just talking about the appearance. Spiders are rather 'attracting' to me. But I am scared of its legs and fangs/small horns on the side of their heads. I know that spiders can hurt, and that is the main reason why they freak me out so much.
Every single sight of them, even fictional, like in pictures, movies and (even worse) in real-life, makes me paranoid. I see one spider (even if my parents get rid of it), and I start looking everywhere around me with my eyes. I don't even dare touch any part of the house or of my room that has been left untouched for too long.

And it's a very big problem for me. Why?
For several reasons:

1// I like spiders. They are really interesting, and some species like mygale spiders (or tarantulas) can be pretty and fascinating to look at in my opinion.

2// Last year, I had to go through a nightmarish period during which bugs and spiders were procreating the most (and there had been floodings in the city that went inside the cellars), and found my home occupied many times by them.
This caused me to become paranoiac, even asking my parents to check the toilets for I had the horrible surprise once to be face-to-face with one climbing down its string directly into it, with me noticing it only after I closed the door behind me...
Anyway, I kept asking my parents to check the toilets, the bathroom (because of the vent and it is next to my room) and even spray some insecticide in case of.

3// I love nature and I just wish I could get rid of this fear along with my entomophobia...

This fear is ruining my life, just like my fear of bugs!
Therefore, during my nap of earlier, I came up with the idea of a therapeutic character.
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You read very well. A therapeutic character.
I have seen a few spider-related characters, and I thought that maybe this concept could help get me into this arachnid world and learn more about them so I won't have any reason to be scared of them anymore. I don't know, maybe learning how to live like a spider or playing a spider-like character? Just being what you fear?

It may not work, but I want to give it a try nonetheless.
The problem is, despite my 'fascination' for them, my imagination cannot come up with any color, patterns, or features. I have no idea how to create this character and I fear to search it through google because of all the pictures of them that can make me paranoid again.

The only idea I could think about was that they could be a deer with extra spider-like legs but any other ideas are accepted... including any other species than deer.

So yeah, it's more like creating a character altogether.

So, let me reword and ask this in one simple sentence: may you please help me invent this character and finally get rid of my arachnophobia?


If you have anything else that could help me overcome this fear, please let me know. I want to try everything. But keep in mind that facing it (including going to natural places) has never worked for me (not even for my entomophobia).
Also I live in France. I know that species depend on countries and regions, as I have heard.
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Just putting notes here and all ideas:

# Read and learn about spiders.
# Have a pet spider...maybe?
# Put some features that can trigger my phobia.
# Put some features or aspects that I find more appealing in spiders.
# Read books involving spiders.

# Wolf spiders carry their babies on their back.
# Peacock spiders have bright colors and a nice dance.
# Trapdoor spiders hide underground.

Concept art so far:
# # by Evern
# by W0lfclaw
# # by Archangelus

Archangelus' kind of draws me more.
Just the black color is not really something I like, scary black spiders. ;.;
Does even orange and brown spiders exist by the way? Too scared to go through google... Tried to see how is spider anatomy and it's kind of funny where the common organs are placed, haha.

And a little cute bonus by Vessan to cheer me up when my paranoia/phobia is on ♥


Thank you to all of the people who helped/are helping me. ♥
I hope this will be a good experience...