› o5.o8.12 I do feel like a worthless piece of crap, gawd. I feel like knocking my head on and on against the wall and bleed the fucking life out of me.
› 1o.o7.12 Idk... things keep getting up together, only to fall down all over again, and I'm seriously not sure where are my limits. I'm just so worn out and I need to cry a river, but I promised myself I wouldn't, no. I just can't keep my tears inside anymore. I think that if my little sister wasn't home, I'd even scream out all this crap I feel inside. But I can't, she can't see me cry... she doesn't deserve it. I already feel that I treat her really bad, meh... I just can't help being bitter to everyone in this house nowadays. Except him.. and he might be gone soon, and I can't even do anything about it.
Massive headache isn't helping. Omg I feel so.. exhausted..
› o6.o6.11 i wanted this posted on my birthday. retrack if you want.
current thoughts: "......."
current mood: afraid, in distress.