Today our 12-year old poodle had a heart attack. I was at work when my mom called and said she had taken her to the vet and Jeni had been put to sleep. We just buried her in the yard, and of course it's pouring here so it made it that much harder to do the job.
She was a really good girl. She loved her cookies, enjoyed having rides with me to pick up my dad or to the park, and taking long naps. She also loved to come along with Brandy and me on our afternoon walks in the neighborhood.
Below are the pictures of her from earliest to latest. I happened to take some pictures of her a few days ago.
These are the most recent pictures of her:
Edit - What the hell is wrong with me? Why can't I cry? Why are my parents and brothers weeping for Jeni and I can't even cry for her?
I feel so rotten, I don't understand why I'm so heartless that I can't cry for a dog I've known half of my life. She was one of my best friends, and even looking at these pictures doesn't spark any kind of deep reaction.
You know, I personally believe that something of our animal friends survives death. Maybe she's looking down from the big doghouse in the sky, waiting for you to join her.
I know, it's trite. *hugnuzzlehug* It hurts like hell to lose a pet.
I'm sorry ): And on Valentines Day.
When I look at the pictures, some tears ran down my face.
When I know someone's dead, and I see some pictures of them, I use to see them in their eyes, and start thinking that they're not really there anymore.
I'm so sorry. :'c
Have a nice Valentines Day.<3
I wouldn't worry about not crying. I don't think it's heartless; maybe it takes time to realize the loss. And I think everyone reacts differently. You took the time to post pictures of her and told us a little about her. I think this is one way you're mourning.
I cried a little over one of my dog's death, and he was my first puppy. I think it's because I remember more good things about him, rather than his death. But I have more of an emotional reaction now when I compare him to Jackie (they're both border collies). So maybe it takes time or the right trigger.
I'm sorry to hear that, but she seems so happy in those photos.
I can't help but smile because she obviously enjoyed being with you just as much as you enjoyed her company
Don't worry about not crying, people react to these sorts of things differently. Crying isn't the only way to mourn someone, so don't feel like your insulting her memory by not crying, it's obvious you cared for Jeni and that you miss her and that's enough
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Don't worry, Quad, I'm the same way. It's really hard for me to cry and it's a bodily function that comes naturally, so don't try and force yourself to. :C My dog died too and looking at pictures of him doesn't make me even sniffle a tear even though I loved him a lot. Same with funerals. I've never cried at one. I don't know why, I just can't. xD It doesn't mean you're not emotional by any means. <3
:c
Seems like one of the worst things in the world when long loved dogs die.
And it's weird, I'm kind of like that, but different. I don't cry usually - but I choke up if I even THINK about loosing one of my dogs... o.O;
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I'm a bit weird, but so is everyone else in the world, thus weird is normal and normal is weird. This in mind, I'm actually a little normal, and anyone who is completely normal might really be a serial killer. <- My logic. True self quote.
Sorry to hear it.
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;C I'm really sorry about
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Awww.....How sad... (also,
(also, your dachsund is cute.)
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D'8 omg she's freaking
I'm sorry. You're both in
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You know, I personally
I know, it's trite. *hugnuzzlehug* It hurts like hell to lose a pet.
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I'm sorry ): And on
When I look at the pictures, some tears ran down my face.
When I know someone's dead, and I see some pictures of them, I use to see them in their eyes, and start thinking that they're not really there anymore.
I'm so sorry. :'c
Have a nice Valentines Day.<3
I'm so sorry. She looked
She looked really sweet girl. At least she had a good life with a loving family. <333
Rest in peace, Jeni.
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I'm so sorry to hear about
I wouldn't worry about not crying. I don't think it's heartless; maybe it takes time to realize the loss. And I think everyone reacts differently. You took the time to post pictures of her and told us a little about her. I think this is one way you're mourning.
I cried a little over one of my dog's death, and he was my first puppy. I think it's because I remember more good things about him, rather than his death. But I have more of an emotional reaction now when I compare him to Jackie (they're both border collies). So maybe it takes time or the right trigger.
I'm sorry to hear that, but
I can't help but smile because she obviously enjoyed being with you just as much as you enjoyed her company
Don't worry about not crying, people react to these sorts of things differently. Crying isn't the only way to mourn someone, so don't feel like your insulting her memory by not crying, it's obvious you cared for Jeni and that you miss her and that's enough
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~Aztec priest of The Forest~
Don't worry, Quad, I'm the
:c Seems like one of the
Seems like one of the worst things in the world when long loved dogs die.
And it's weird, I'm kind of like that, but different. I don't cry usually - but I choke up if I even THINK about loosing one of my dogs... o.O;
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I'm a bit weird, but so is everyone else in the world, thus weird is normal and normal is weird. This in mind, I'm actually a little normal, and anyone who is completely normal might really be a serial killer. <- My logic. True self quote.