"Is there really a reason to come back to this world? Give me one..."
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Those whom know Nightmare, and those who do not... this is a blog that I am creating for you. Nightmare will not respond to those who come due to his current Situation. A driving push will speed up the process of his rebirth... he can hear all who speak to him.
Nightmare will never die, so do not fear. Even without a push of those he cherishes he will still come back.
Mantled in the Mists of the Ruins... an eerie chill flowed through the breeze. Those who knew him well, might have grown concerned for the beast that was known as Nightmare. Over the recent times he had been around his body had been decaying... wilting away...
The great monster had made his way to the ruins days prior to what was to happen. Coming to a place he called 'home' for so long, the large slab... his resting place. That chill from the breeze brought a bad omen, and within sight those who passed by or came would see the massive figure of blue fur and black blood on that slab.
He was gone, not a sign of life in him... decayed and rotten most would think given the smell. However, this was only the beginning of something glorious... to die and then be reborn into something more... that was his life. Nightmare was constantly evolving... and this, was just another one of those times.
Black blood on the stone slab...
Blue Fur a mess, scattered without a care...
Feathers sprawled in heaps...
What was to become of this great beast?
Can you Save him?
Home is where you are...
Always in your Heart...
There is a home for you here...
Listen to them Nightmare...
Listen to them... my Brother...
Listen... Listen... Listen...
But I don't hear them... I don't hear anything...
Nightmare has placed himself upon the stone slab of the Ruins and rests there... his body is motionless and he has lost all of his winter fur which has fallen from his frame and blankets the stone around him. There is no sign of life upon approaching, he is positioned so that his view is on the tombstones nearby... almost as though he is watching over Hoshiko's grave from a distance.
His overall appearance seems to be slowly changing to fit his more recent form namely in the skull area.
Such a strange feeling it is to be dead and laying in the world that most would consider Limbo...
Floating in a world that is as clear as the nights sky on a bright night... I see the stars... I see the moon, bright and beautiful.
But yet I feel so lonely... I feel alone, like I have lost everything that I held dear to my blackened heart.
*chuckles* Amazing that over the course of the years this old body has become what it is... and the bearer of said body has become soft... weak...
Most of you wouldn't think of me as a weakling, but in reality... I am...
I bleed like you... even though it is black blood and not crimson...
I feel pain like you do... even though sometimes it's unbearable...
I feel emotions like you do... even though you might think of me as cold hearted...
Hmmm I felt the presence of another nearby tonight... someone that I did not know...
A Fawn... yes... small and youthful... I'm curious to find whom they were... perhaps when I am whole again we will meet?
Mmmm Hoshiko... can you see the Stars and Moon tonight? They are so beautiful... and you always do such a glorious dance amongst them... too bad you cannot come back as I am... I promised to protect your mother and I am such a failure... I could never protect her when she needed me most. What kind of 'brother' am I if I cannot protect the ones I love and cherish?
These are just events running through Nightmare's mind while he is in 'limbo' of sorts being reborn. He is not interacting with anyone... he is merely letting his mind wander in the deep pits of this rebirth.
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"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"
The little, white one settled down next to Nightmare's body when latter didn't seem to notice his nuzzles and sniffs.
He didn't mind the smell, the blood.. he hadn't seen his friend for so long and he was worried.
Why didn't he react? He looked more hurt than usual and it seemed like Crybaby couldn't help anymore... could he?
This deadly burst of snow is burning my hands,
I'm frozen to the bones, I am
A million mile from home, I'm walking away
I can't remind your eyes, your face *Thump Thump*
How long has it been since it has happened? I've lost track of time, laying on this death bed... wandering through the clouds of Limbo. Five Days? Six? Seven even... I don't know... so many come and go, I feel as though my corpse is disturbing them *chuckles* You'd think that they would have seen a dead body before. I guess not...
"... are you gone?"
Am I gone? You could say that I am... dear... dear Cry... I wish I could answer you, I wish I could see your face and make you not worry about me... there is another with you... *sighs* Ahhh dearest Joro... both of you I miss you all so much. It troubles me and hurts me to know that you are without me, without my protection... soon, so very soon this time will be over.
I will come back...
I will be with you again...
Please don't worry...
These are just events running through Nightmare's mind while he is in 'limbo' of sorts being reborn. He is not interacting with anyone... he is merely letting his mind wander in the deep pits of this rebirth.
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"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"
*Thump Thump* There are many things in my life that I've seen leave... I have beaten myself up over time over so many things that it seems as though I have gone completely mad. Would you believe I used to have a heart? One that showed kindness, that cherished affection and that even loved once? Funny I know... to think that something that could cause so much pain and anguish could ever love something.
But I did... I held a love for things, for someone even... and then it all vanished. I found relief in a means of mutilation... destroying my body in a maddened attempt to relieve the pain that I felt inside. I destroyed myself... from the inside out and came back. Reborn a new, like a phoenix rising from the ashes of it's remains. Only to fall prey to emotions once again... I destroyed myself and that time... it felt as though I would never come back.
I stayed dormant for months, wandering in this world. Wandering in the Limbo's of hell to find myself. And when I finally came back, I threw away all those things that plagued me. I became cold, heartless... cruel... a creature with a heart as black as ash and a mind as cruel as the Devil himself. I felt no love, I felt no care... I felt nothing.... the only desires I had were to be with those that I held close. Few as they were...
But now, I feel those emotions rising again. I don't want to feel them, they made me suffer so much in the past. I cannot love anything, I will not love anything... never...
Heh, I must bore you with my words Hoshiko, listening to the ramblings of an old beast such as me must be so very boring. Continue to dance in the nights sky little star... you brighten this dreadful place more than anything could. I heard others came to visit me while I laid on that slab... those I do not know in fact... a young fawn I think... I do not know... *sighs* Perhaps we shall meet when I have returned...
These are just events running through Nightmare's mind while he is in 'limbo' of sorts being reborn. He is not interacting with anyone... he is merely letting his mind wander in the deep pits of this rebirth.
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"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"
The leaves have begun to reveal their smiling complexions once more, sprouting from the limbs of trees that had returned to their slumber not long ago. They grow differently, new, fresh, and with an interesting shape that perhaps they had not always borne. Yet they are the same tree, wrapped inside a different bark. Pandora is laying near one now- but it is no tree. No, for it will not be leaves that alter, nor a different encasing bark, but that of flesh. This tree is the giant Nightmare, whose body remains still upon the platform of the Ruins; he has drawn Pandora near, and the oily black fawn merely watches him, black lips invisible against her equally dark face, head tilted curiously.
She had met him once before, yes. Briefly, a heartbeat in a million. And yet her naive curiosity only brought her closer, wishing to know this beast- as she has done with many in her lifetime. However long such a lifetime has been.
Superfluous white hair shifts over her features, pouring down like an ivory waterfall to pool onto the chafed earth, next to the platform. Her head has tilted the other direction, oversized shell-shaped ears swiveling to and fro, incandescent white eyes never roaming away from the beast. They are wide- always wide, seeing, appearing for all the world as the simple innocence of a fawn and yet, with the slight narrowing of those 'innocent' eyes, one may see something far more... Knowing.
What is death? A part of Pandora, the little fawn, does not understand that he is not sleeping. Not really. Though, again, she has known death beyond the realm that many have tread. Who knows what goes on within her complex mind. "Nightie, Nightie, Panda's here..." she hums, swaying slightly to the song in her mind's eye, "You will grow leaves again, yes, yes." A child? Metaphorical? Hah... As she delivers a nod of conviction, a child's certainty, always, towards the trees around them, blooming and coming alive after Spring's tired start and Winter's brutal killing, she giggles. And then her smile fades slightly, invisible again against her oily black features. "Wake up, play with Panda now."
We were the kings and queens of promise
We were the victims of ourselves
Maybe the children of a lesser god
Between heaven and hell, Heaven and hell. *Thump Thump*
What is it like to be between Heaven and Hell? It's confusing... so very confusing... none of you know what it is like to walk in the planes of Limbo. To see things that you only think existed in fairy tales, heh... I wonder who would listen to my tales when I were to come back... no one... I doubt anyone would ever want to hear of such things.
Most cannot comprehend the meaning of the word Death much less understand what happens after it. So many of these so called deer are corrupted with the foul thoughts that everything should be peaceful or that nothing comes to an end. Well they are wrong, death is everywhere... insects die... the birds die... the rabbits, squirrels... everything must come to an end. And when it does, it becomes to prey of the scavengers... the flies, the worms... maggots everything. A great circle of life that never ceases to exist.
So many cannot comprehend this, they think it as foul and disgusting. I just see it as another part of the world that we live in. If you cannot cherish the bad as much as the good then you are a fucking idiot. Heh, maybe it's just the old age talking... hmmmm yes... perhaps it's just the old age talking.
Strange, that I feel things slowly starting to tick once again, my body is still dead but the puzzle pieces are slowly falling back into place. Flesh is being rewritten and redone, fur being shoved into the skin and latching itself into the body like a festering hungry maggot... bones snapping and fixing the fractures. Ahhh I had so many wounds coming up to this event... but slowly it is falling back into place.
Hmmmmm...
"Wake up, play with Panda now."
*chuckles* Such a demanding little thing aren't we dearest Pandora... I cannot wake for you... not yet... I cannot play with you. But soon, soon enough I will wake... and I promise to play with you for as long as I can dearest Pandora. But you will have to grow patience... just bear with it a little longer. Soon you will see me back, see me... sprouting my leaves yet again.
*chuckles more* I never knew I would be missed this much... here I thought so many hated me... so many deemed me as an aggressive creature that did not warrant any attention. Seeing me as garbage to be tossed to a side and avoided. Perhaps I was wrong in those thoughts...
These are just events running through Nightmare's mind while he is in 'limbo' of sorts being reborn. He is not interacting with anyone... he is merely letting his mind wander in the deep pits of this rebirth.
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"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"
So many love and cherish you Nightmare...
Why do you stay in this world for so long?
Why do you stay in Limbo?
Why brother... why?
They want you back... you should go to them... *THUMP thump*
Heh, you ask me why I stay here Belo? Why I desire to be within the world of the dead rather than the world of the living? Yes, they love me... yes, they cherish me... but how long will that last? Every good thing much come to an end brother... even love. Those that are my family will soon forget about me, and they will move on with their lives.
This place... this paradise between Heaven and Hell lets me be away from all of the things in my life that have otherwise destroyed me. You are a fool to think that I want to go back at all brother...
How can you say that Nightmare?
How can you turn your back on the ones you love?
Have you no emotion? Have you no care?
I can say it... because they have turned their backs on me... now begone brother... I wish to be alone to wander more.
These are just events running through Nightmare's mind while he is in 'limbo' of sorts being reborn. He is not interacting with anyone... he is merely letting his mind wander in the deep pits of this rebirth.
—
"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"
Lacrimosa.
Broken and vanishing into the distance,
I want to love this dazzling world once more.
I hide my dreams within my eyes,
Until my tainted heart,
Receives falling tears. *THUMP thump*
Hoshiko... how can I go back to them? I am not the creature that they remember me to be... I am changed... different... a monster. They love me... they cry for me... they mourn my passing as though I was their next of kin. Why? Why do they do this for something like me?
Is it out of pity? Is it out of love... or are they truly concerned for my well being? Are they truly concerned for me for that matter? I don't know what to do anymore... I am lost... so very lost Hoshiko... how can I go back now?
Lacrimosa.
Fallen and born here,
I want to love this blood-soaked world without fear.
Instead of being forgiven, forgive and have faith,
And remain on the face of this earth,
To count the tearful days that pass.
These are just events running through Nightmare's mind while he is in 'limbo' of sorts being reborn. He is not interacting with anyone... he is merely letting his mind wander in the deep pits of this rebirth.
—
"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"
The night sky void of the stars
I wander with eyes that can’t even see where I’m going *THUMP thump... Thump...*
Is it time already...
No... it can't be...
*chuckles and sighs*
Have I really lost track of my time here...
These are just events running through Nightmare's mind while he is in 'limbo' of sorts being reborn. He is not interacting with anyone... he is merely letting his mind wander in the deep pits of this rebirth.
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"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"
Even though Nightmare is now back everyone is still free to interact on this blog. This is for those who didn't have the time to see him and for those who just wanted to have their deer interacting with him during this time ^^
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"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"
Had to move this blog to
"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"
Such a strange feeling it is
Such a strange feeling it is to be dead and laying in the world that most would consider Limbo...
Floating in a world that is as clear as the nights sky on a bright night... I see the stars... I see the moon, bright and beautiful.
But yet I feel so lonely... I feel alone, like I have lost everything that I held dear to my blackened heart.
*chuckles* Amazing that over the course of the years this old body has become what it is... and the bearer of said body has become soft... weak...
Most of you wouldn't think of me as a weakling, but in reality... I am...
I bleed like you... even though it is black blood and not crimson...
I feel pain like you do... even though sometimes it's unbearable...
I feel emotions like you do... even though you might think of me as cold hearted...
Hmmm I felt the presence of another nearby tonight... someone that I did not know...
A Fawn... yes... small and youthful... I'm curious to find whom they were... perhaps when I am whole again we will meet?
Mmmm Hoshiko... can you see the Stars and Moon tonight? They are so beautiful... and you always do such a glorious dance amongst them... too bad you cannot come back as I am... I promised to protect your mother and I am such a failure... I could never protect her when she needed me most. What kind of 'brother' am I if I cannot protect the ones I love and cherish?
These are just events running through Nightmare's mind while he is in 'limbo' of sorts being reborn. He is not interacting with anyone... he is merely letting his mind wander in the deep pits of this rebirth.
"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"
-retracks- I'll also try to
CSS needs to stop being so
-RETRACK-
The little, white one settled
He didn't mind the smell, the blood.. he hadn't seen his friend for so long and he was worried.
Why didn't he react? He looked more hurt than usual and it seemed like Crybaby couldn't help anymore... could he?
"... are you gone?" he whispered, a tear falling.
This deadly burst of snow is
This deadly burst of snow is burning my hands,
I'm frozen to the bones, I am
A million mile from home, I'm walking away
I can't remind your eyes, your face
*Thump Thump*
How long has it been since it has happened? I've lost track of time, laying on this death bed... wandering through the clouds of Limbo. Five Days? Six? Seven even... I don't know... so many come and go, I feel as though my corpse is disturbing them *chuckles* You'd think that they would have seen a dead body before. I guess not...
"... are you gone?"
Am I gone? You could say that I am... dear... dear Cry... I wish I could answer you, I wish I could see your face and make you not worry about me... there is another with you... *sighs* Ahhh dearest Joro... both of you I miss you all so much. It troubles me and hurts me to know that you are without me, without my protection... soon, so very soon this time will be over.
I will come back...
I will be with you again...
Please don't worry...
These are just events running through Nightmare's mind while he is in 'limbo' of sorts being reborn. He is not interacting with anyone... he is merely letting his mind wander in the deep pits of this rebirth.
"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"
*Thump Thump* There are many
*Thump Thump*
There are many things in my life that I've seen leave... I have beaten myself up over time over so many things that it seems as though I have gone completely mad. Would you believe I used to have a heart? One that showed kindness, that cherished affection and that even loved once? Funny I know... to think that something that could cause so much pain and anguish could ever love something.
But I did... I held a love for things, for someone even... and then it all vanished. I found relief in a means of mutilation... destroying my body in a maddened attempt to relieve the pain that I felt inside. I destroyed myself... from the inside out and came back. Reborn a new, like a phoenix rising from the ashes of it's remains. Only to fall prey to emotions once again... I destroyed myself and that time... it felt as though I would never come back.
I stayed dormant for months, wandering in this world. Wandering in the Limbo's of hell to find myself. And when I finally came back, I threw away all those things that plagued me. I became cold, heartless... cruel... a creature with a heart as black as ash and a mind as cruel as the Devil himself. I felt no love, I felt no care... I felt nothing.... the only desires I had were to be with those that I held close. Few as they were...
But now, I feel those emotions rising again. I don't want to feel them, they made me suffer so much in the past. I cannot love anything, I will not love anything... never...
Heh, I must bore you with my words Hoshiko, listening to the ramblings of an old beast such as me must be so very boring. Continue to dance in the nights sky little star... you brighten this dreadful place more than anything could. I heard others came to visit me while I laid on that slab... those I do not know in fact... a young fawn I think... I do not know... *sighs* Perhaps we shall meet when I have returned...
These are just events running through Nightmare's mind while he is in 'limbo' of sorts being reborn. He is not interacting with anyone... he is merely letting his mind wander in the deep pits of this rebirth.
"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"
The leaves have begun to
She had met him once before, yes. Briefly, a heartbeat in a million. And yet her naive curiosity only brought her closer, wishing to know this beast- as she has done with many in her lifetime. However long such a lifetime has been.
Superfluous white hair shifts over her features, pouring down like an ivory waterfall to pool onto the chafed earth, next to the platform. Her head has tilted the other direction, oversized shell-shaped ears swiveling to and fro, incandescent white eyes never roaming away from the beast. They are wide- always wide, seeing, appearing for all the world as the simple innocence of a fawn and yet, with the slight narrowing of those 'innocent' eyes, one may see something far more... Knowing.
What is death? A part of Pandora, the little fawn, does not understand that he is not sleeping. Not really. Though, again, she has known death beyond the realm that many have tread. Who knows what goes on within her complex mind. "Nightie, Nightie, Panda's here..." she hums, swaying slightly to the song in her mind's eye, "You will grow leaves again, yes, yes." A child? Metaphorical? Hah... As she delivers a nod of conviction, a child's certainty, always, towards the trees around them, blooming and coming alive after Spring's tired start and Winter's brutal killing, she giggles. And then her smile fades slightly, invisible again against her oily black features. "Wake up, play with Panda now."
We were the kings and queens
We were the kings and queens of promise
We were the victims of ourselves
Maybe the children of a lesser god
Between heaven and hell, Heaven and hell.
*Thump Thump*
What is it like to be between Heaven and Hell? It's confusing... so very confusing... none of you know what it is like to walk in the planes of Limbo. To see things that you only think existed in fairy tales, heh... I wonder who would listen to my tales when I were to come back... no one... I doubt anyone would ever want to hear of such things.
Most cannot comprehend the meaning of the word Death much less understand what happens after it. So many of these so called deer are corrupted with the foul thoughts that everything should be peaceful or that nothing comes to an end. Well they are wrong, death is everywhere... insects die... the birds die... the rabbits, squirrels... everything must come to an end. And when it does, it becomes to prey of the scavengers... the flies, the worms... maggots everything. A great circle of life that never ceases to exist.
So many cannot comprehend this, they think it as foul and disgusting. I just see it as another part of the world that we live in. If you cannot cherish the bad as much as the good then you are a fucking idiot. Heh, maybe it's just the old age talking... hmmmm yes... perhaps it's just the old age talking.
Strange, that I feel things slowly starting to tick once again, my body is still dead but the puzzle pieces are slowly falling back into place. Flesh is being rewritten and redone, fur being shoved into the skin and latching itself into the body like a festering hungry maggot... bones snapping and fixing the fractures. Ahhh I had so many wounds coming up to this event... but slowly it is falling back into place.
Hmmmmm...
"Wake up, play with Panda now."
*chuckles* Such a demanding little thing aren't we dearest Pandora... I cannot wake for you... not yet... I cannot play with you. But soon, soon enough I will wake... and I promise to play with you for as long as I can dearest Pandora. But you will have to grow patience... just bear with it a little longer. Soon you will see me back, see me... sprouting my leaves yet again.
*chuckles more* I never knew I would be missed this much... here I thought so many hated me... so many deemed me as an aggressive creature that did not warrant any attention. Seeing me as garbage to be tossed to a side and avoided. Perhaps I was wrong in those thoughts...
These are just events running through Nightmare's mind while he is in 'limbo' of sorts being reborn. He is not interacting with anyone... he is merely letting his mind wander in the deep pits of this rebirth.
"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"
So many love and cherish you
So many love and cherish you Nightmare...
Why do you stay in this world for so long?
Why do you stay in Limbo?
Why brother... why?
They want you back... you should go to them...
*THUMP thump*
Heh, you ask me why I stay here Belo? Why I desire to be within the world of the dead rather than the world of the living? Yes, they love me... yes, they cherish me... but how long will that last? Every good thing much come to an end brother... even love. Those that are my family will soon forget about me, and they will move on with their lives.
This place... this paradise between Heaven and Hell lets me be away from all of the things in my life that have otherwise destroyed me. You are a fool to think that I want to go back at all brother...
How can you say that Nightmare?
How can you turn your back on the ones you love?
Have you no emotion? Have you no care?
I can say it... because they have turned their backs on me... now begone brother... I wish to be alone to wander more.
These are just events running through Nightmare's mind while he is in 'limbo' of sorts being reborn. He is not interacting with anyone... he is merely letting his mind wander in the deep pits of this rebirth.
"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"
Lacrimosa. Broken and
Lacrimosa.
Broken and vanishing into the distance,
I want to love this dazzling world once more.
I hide my dreams within my eyes,
Until my tainted heart,
Receives falling tears.
*THUMP thump*
Hoshiko... how can I go back to them? I am not the creature that they remember me to be... I am changed... different... a monster. They love me... they cry for me... they mourn my passing as though I was their next of kin. Why? Why do they do this for something like me?
Is it out of pity? Is it out of love... or are they truly concerned for my well being? Are they truly concerned for me for that matter? I don't know what to do anymore... I am lost... so very lost Hoshiko... how can I go back now?
Lacrimosa.
Fallen and born here,
I want to love this blood-soaked world without fear.
Instead of being forgiven, forgive and have faith,
And remain on the face of this earth,
To count the tearful days that pass.
These are just events running through Nightmare's mind while he is in 'limbo' of sorts being reborn. He is not interacting with anyone... he is merely letting his mind wander in the deep pits of this rebirth.
"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"
The night sky void of the
The night sky void of the stars
I wander with eyes that can’t even see where I’m going
*THUMP thump... Thump...*
Is it time already...
No... it can't be...
*chuckles and sighs*
Have I really lost track of my time here...
These are just events running through Nightmare's mind while he is in 'limbo' of sorts being reborn. He is not interacting with anyone... he is merely letting his mind wander in the deep pits of this rebirth.
"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"
Even though Nightmare is now
"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"
Hope Nightmare doesn't mind