Name | 'Nirvana'
Pictogram | star
Nicknames | Nir
Speaks in | #686566
Gender | Stag; man
Day Set | Orca Pelt
Night Set | Nightfall Pelt
Voice | soft slur
Scent | burning, night
Origin | Born from the death of a star
Species | Stardust

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Appearance | A tall and slender creature, with too-long legs and a swan-like neck. Short, soft black-and-white fur, curly. A black ruff of fluffier, thicker, curlier fur around his neck, similar to wool but much softer. Black hooves, white antlers; elegant, thin. Markings; with a white human face, almost androgynous. Long-lashed. Slightly crooked nose. Large, frightened black eyes. Long ears, one of which droops down. Carries trinkets in his antlers such as pocketwatches, crosses, candles and jewellery, as well as various multicoloured flowers along with regular forest ones.

During the night, his entire body seems to glow and sparkle as if made of starlight. Liquid-light silver/white/gold seems to be thrown away from him with every movement, and drips from him too.

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History | [=9]This character's history is complex and it is incredibly difficult to try and word it accurately.

Nirvana does have an alternate human life; his forest visits seem to occur through his subconscious mind, mostly when he is dreaming or unconscious. However, it is possible that given his absent-minded nature he can visit the forest through mere daydreams; his physical form does not pass from one realm to the next, only his spiritual, metaphysical form.

In terms of his forest life, Nirvana has no biological family and has never experienced a fawnhood. He has absoloutely no memory of a forest life prior to 16.03.12, and does not know where the trinkets upon his antlers came from; they hold no significance in his human life.

His human life is much more complex. Still he has never experienced a childhood and his genesis came from the death of a star; he recalls vague memories of a dark lake and the terror of almost drowning, but nothing more. Nirvana is somewhat aware of where he comes from, but does not know where this knowledge was gained; part of him suspects it came from God.

Nirvana is able to access flashing memories of horrific events from the past in his human life, but it is not often he sees fit to try and remember them. The date of his human genesis is unknown. Strangely, 16.03.12 is the same day that he found himself in a small apartment in a new town, apparently starting over from an old life he can barely remember.

His memory since then is mostly fluid and clear.

Behaviour

(developing)

highly conflicting and indecisive, ever-changing

polite, civil, sweet, gentle, quiet,
enjoys company, honest, affectionate

imaginative, philosophical, learner, thinker
frightened, anxious, shaky, paranoid
absent-minded, sad, longing, nostalgic

soft-spoken; rarely talks; considers words carefully
disturbed, disgusted with himself, self-loathing
protective, cowardly, easily influenced

contradictive; almost split; unstable; dangerous
irritable, nasty, violent, cruel, obsessive, bitter, vengeful
masochistic, submissive, sexual


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Quirks

- Has a fascination with death, particularly ways of killing oneself
- Enjoys debating and arguements, even when proved wrong
- Strongly masochistic
- Drawn to females and males for different reasons
- Feels a strong need to protect those younger or smaller than him
- Likely has some form of personality disorder; what this may be is unclear
- Experiences severe bouts of sorrow and longing; tends to gaze at the night sky frequently, though he is not entirely sure why
- May be much more aggressive during the night; dominant, unlike his usual submissive self
- Falls into an almost trance-like state when inside the great oak; mesmerised by its song
- Dislikes both pinecones and mushrooms; the former taste foul, and the latter make him feel strange
- Refuses to drink from the Pond, but will gladly swim in it; drinks from the river instead
- Generally afraid of those larger and stronger than him, but seeks their approval
- Changes the flowers on his antlers each time he comes across a new flowerpatch
- Absoloutely adores casting forest magic, but isn't keen on being transformed
- Sometimes has trouble sleeping and may stay awake for a few days at a time
- Known to use others to get what he wants

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Relationships

| ! Fear ! | + Like + | - Dislike - | ~ Neutral ~ | * Lust * | ♥ Love ♥ |

! + Virus - * | '' | terror; cruelty; lust; affection; warmth; conflicted
! Lovelace - | 'Sprite' | shame; anxiety; self-loathing; fear
! Kalma - | 'Coward' | fear; uneasiness; mistrust
! Circus * | 'Demon' | paranoia; shame; fear; lust; rage; sadism

+ Fawn + | 'Deadwitch' | affection; protectiveness; warmth; contentment
+ Cybele + | 'Half' | delight; intrigue; playfulness; fondness
+ Aimitis + | 'Maredoe' | gentleness, playfulness, interest
+ Jewel + | 'Venetian' | warmth, affection, delight

~ ??? (unicorn) + | 'Prettything' | safety, calm, rest, softness
~ ??? (feathers, no mask) + | 'Circlehook' | curiousity, intrigue
~ Umay ~ | 'Cat' | compassion, concern
~ Azarel ~ | 'Keys' | uncertainty, apprehension