Lemon's Journal - Jan 13, 2009

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Today was a mixed bag. I woke up feeling relatively good, though the feelings from yesterday still lingered. I’m almost an adult doe, and it’s hard to get used to so many new emotions. The innocent crush I had on that stag… is different, now. It’s not the same, and it’s hard to even be around him, now. I can’t explain what the difference is, I don’t like to think about it. I feel stupid for feeling this way about someone so much older. I’m just a silly little fawn, maybe I’ll grow out of this phase, soon. I know there are probably lots of other deer who roll their eyes at me, I’m sure there are plenty of you who would like to tell me, “You’re just a fawn – you don’t know what love is, yet. You haven’t met many deer, yet. Your feelings will change, soon.” Maybe you’re right. But... Well, I do try to be modest, for the most part. Deer who are full of themselves are quite repulsive, if you ask me. Yet… If you’ll excuse such a bold statement, I am well aware that I am unusually mature for my age. My childhood has been anything but innocent, and I am already nearly grown. I am more intelligent than many deer would like to think.

Now, there are many deer in the forest who struggle with less-than-perfect fawnhoods. Many were orphaned, like me. Others were teased relentlessly by older deer; some ignored, some traumatized by various events. We deer are unique individuals, and we respond to these things differently. Some deer make up for lost time by turning themselves into eternal fawns – running around and playing tricks on other deer, acting like children in adult bodies. Other deer take a separate road; they become quiet, withdrawn, serious. And the remaining deer, myself included, take a mixture of both roads. But that mature, silent part of me is the majority of my being. I am much wiser than you might think; I know how things work.

I know he’d never like me, for a multitude of reasons. I don’t even know him that well.

But I guess, once I finally reach adulthood, I might stand a better chance. I am planning on telling him how I feel. I want to wait, though. I don’t want to.. rush things. Or…

I shouldn’t say much more, for fear that I will give away who it is that I’m speaking about.

Anyway. As I was saying, I woke up feeling terribly mixed up, thanks to the plethora of new hormones running rampant through my body. Yet, the memories of playing with Seth the day before, still hung around in my mind, making me smile. I laid for a while, feeling a little too lazy to bother getting up. That’s when he showed up. I didn’t get an image of his pictogram, I was too busy running away.

He lowered his antlers and stamped his feet at me, and I slunk off to the playground to hide, figuring he’d eventually grow bored and leave. He didn’t. Instead, he intensified his attacks, and began to yell! Terrified, I waited for an opportune moment, and took off! I’ve never run so fast, in my life! He didn’t immediately chase me; but he saw me hide inside one of the trees, and decided to follow me, to continue his angry pursuits.

I screamed, desperate for anyone to rescue me – but no one heard my cries. My sides heaved as I panted, exhausted and frightened beyond belief. Why was he pursuing me, so? Eventually, the stag’s initial anger began to take a turn toward curiosity. He moved slower, tried to look interested in other things, crept toward me inch-by-inch, rather than galloping my way. But the damage was already done – I was having none of his sneaky ways. I took off, whenever he turned to look another direction. I’ve never felt such fear, my heart hammering against my ribs so violently, I thought I might die.

It went on this way for some time – I would hide in a tree, waiting for him to dare approaching. I would use my memory of the forest to locate my next hiding spot, while simultaneously listening for the tell-tale sound of his footsteps, coming ever near. After some time, I had arrived at the pond – an unfortunate place to be, when you’re trying to hide. There aren’t many places to hide, you see. In addition, there were lots of deer around – all joyously minding their own business. While on a good day, I would have welcomed their company, today I wanted none of it. Every deer was a threat; every pair of eyes watched me with suspicion, every hoof wanted to kick my ribs in, every pair of antlers was just itching to collide into my tiny frame. I ran, screaming with fear, blind and defenseless against my attacker. I cleared the stream in a single bound, and skidded to a stop inside one of the willow’s. I think that’s where Dynamite found me – but I was too ruffled, I can’t remember much. It was all sort of a blur.

I took solace in his company, but I didn’t want to be around anyone else. I hung back and cowered when he tried to take me into the company of his friends; no deer was to be trusted, at this point. I tried to tell him to go on without me, that I just needed some time to calm down, and then I might join him. He stayed, however – ever a loyal, and sweet friend. I am lucky to have him as my friend, aren’t I? After a bit of playing, I had calmed down enough, and it was time for me to go back to sleep. So much terror had left me spent. I said goodbye, curled up, and drifted off to sleep – thinking how wonderful it was, to have such a noble and loyal friend.



When I awoke, I met up with Dynamite, once again. I was still feeling rather skittish, and I was careful to look over my shoulder every once in a while. Every distant moo constituted a 10-second listen. I analyzed every scent and sound, making sure that my attacked was nowhere near. Luckily, I haven’t run into him, since.

After a while, I spotted Raunun. He is a handsome and wonderful deer – I do like him, very much. And he is always a lot of fun. He was surrounded by many other deer, but I gladly ran up to him to say hello, surprising even myself at my boldness after such traumatizing events. Dynamite hung back, feeling unsure about being in the midst of so many deer. Then we three trotted off to play around the twin god’s statues. After only a few minutes, I began to feel much better.


I “discovered” a little stump by the water’s edge, and spent several minutes trying to sit on top of it. I never did get it; my aiming is still pretty shaky, as I’m not all too experienced with flying, yet. I resorted to sitting inside the stump, instead.


Hey, cool. Now we have spells to turn us into stumps? 8D


That’s when Raunun, with a stroke of good luck, landed right on top of me. Insanity ensued.


…what are we looking at, again?



Raunun: Meeting adjourned! Lemon: But we just got here!




Sadly, I lost track of Dynamite somewhere along the way. Raunun and I ran off to the pond, where we did a little waterwalking. A little fawn joined us – I don’t know her name, but I know that she belongs to the human, Lieka.



We also played near the ruins. I was… uncertain, at first. I only played in the trees, not daring to approach the creepy old ruins.


Raunun discovered a mysterious fawnifier machine! Walk backwards through it, and it turns you into a fawn!


Then I spotted the fawn who joined us on the pond, and I couldn’t help it. I just had to go sit on her! I was a bit too slow, though – she caught me in the act! After that, I was alright with playing near the pagan idols, as long as we didn’t venture any further into the ruins.



After a while, I said goodbye to Raunun, and went to sleep. When I awoke, I found Seth! We had a blast, together. And, for your enjoyment, an interpretation of Seth and Lemon:


Seth: I’m glad you’re so happy to see me, but you’re a bit heavy, dear. D8



Lemon: Oh, hello little fawn! What—no. That’s not a body, behind me. Pay no mind to the suspicious-looking legs sticking out of the ground; move along, move along. >____>



Lemon: x____x




We scared quite a few fawns with our antics, actually.

After that, it was back to the ruins. I was curious about the place, as my adventure with Raunun had sparked a bit of interest. After all, we had played on Pagan graves, and we were still alive… I told Seth that I was scared, and he understood. Slowly, little by little, he showed me that the ruins isn’t such a scary place. I crept into the ruins, feeling terrified and curious at the same time; comforted by the warm feeling of Seth, standing right next to me.



Eventually I realized that everything was okay, and I began to relax. Thanks to Seth, I’ve begun getting over my fear of the ruins. I still won’t go near the place if I can help it, but I won’t have to sit and sulk alone, when my friends are all having fun inside.

I had fun exploring – it’s delightful, discovering something so new and curious.


Seth: Hmm, I can’t quite read this. I need my glasses…



Notice the hands clasped under Lemon’s chin. xD


After that, we met another fawn, who was pretty friendly. He gave me some huge antlers, and they were heavy! I’m glad I don’t have to carry those things around all the time, like stags do. Being a doe is pretty nice, sometimes. Seth said goodbye, after some time. I was sad to see him go, and I laid next to him until he vanished. The fawn curled up beside me, and we slept there for hours.

Lemon
toboe's picture

Uio was going to say hi to

Uio was going to say hi to Lemon she left before he got his set back. ;__;
Rowan might come see Lemon if she's on tonight, but Row is injured so she can't stay long or play much. Uio is in a good mood though, he'd love to play with Lemon again sometime soon. <3



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It was good to play with

It was good to play with you!

doesn't have a name, but may develop one in time. But I call her for now! (You can use http://i265.photobucket.com/albums/ii221/Serpanther/liekadaughter.png with [IMG] tags if you like, or just call her Liëka's daughter.)

Hmmm... I'm curious to see

Hmmm... I'm curious to see who Lemon likes. 8D

I hope Seth can meet Lemon's bully soon, so he can teach him a lesson.
Seth: That's right! >8/

That was so fun with the button mashing! xD I'm glad that Seth helped Lemon get somewhat over her fear of the ruins. <3
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I was giving my rl friend a

I was giving my rl friend a tour of The Endless Forest and saw you and Seth playing on that stump. LOL, then I was trying to teach her how to waterwalk and stumbled across you two laying on the water. You were all over the place that day. XD

I LOVE the pic of Seth sitting on Lemon lol. I don't think I've ever seen that one done before. X3 And I'm also curious to know who the heck was chasing her. :[
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Lieka -- Aha! I remember

Lieka --
Aha! I remember seeing that picture post of yours, now. :3 Introducing as Lieka's daughter. <3 I actually like that she has no English name. I almost didn't give Lemon a name, but I didn't like her picto that much. xD

Also, I'm lazy. 8')

Echo --
Teehee. ;3
And lol buttonmashing. <33 Lemon's definitely glad Seth helped her get over her fear, as well. He's also helped her get over her fear of strangers, too, in a way -- hanging out with him, she's often around deer she doesn't know. :')


Sarita --
Bahaha, yeah. Actually, the stag Lemon was with on the stump and the pond is named Raunun. :3 He's another good friend of Lemon's. <3

And yes bahaha, that picture of Seth sitting on Lemon is epic. xD Poor little Lemon. |DD
I still don't know who was chasing her, but I spotted him again yesterday while playing with Raunun, Carnelian, and Uio. Raunun and Lemon kept a wary eye on him, but he didn't make any trouble, so I think Lemon's safe. |D

Lemon: Speak for yourself. ;___;

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Oop. >.< I meant Raunun... I

Oop. >.< I meant Raunun... I was thinking of Seth because of that picture I was about to comment on. XD

Hm. Well that deer needs a good talking to either way. >_>