at last...

at last...

January 30, 2011 - 3:53am — GanzfeldEffect

...my body has changed to reflect what I have truly been.

No longer am I trapped inside the prison of spindly legs, reduced height and deception.

spindly to slender, i jump higher and run faster,
deception to truth.

the wind whistles in my ears as i let my legs take me where they wish
flying past the flower patch where I saw Jorogumo for the first time
soaring over the water as I had done just days ago with Walter

i felt as free as the dove that glided over my head into the heavens.

I must not forget to thank the dear fawn who helped me regain my proper appearance after the Change.
i don't know your spoken name, little one. but i wish to.

you seem sad often
don't ever forget to smile even when it seems impossible.

i led the fawn to a warm sunspot near the pond.
the light seemed to reflect off of me and my vision
it blurred
nothing but white
but light

t
r
a
n
c
e

Reason returned to me when i noticed the little one had gotten up
Circling me
why are you circling me?

my fur pricked
Circling, predatory
A simple fawn's actions turned my thoughts towards danger
tense
But it sat back down close beside me
and everything was all right. my racing pulse s l o w e d . . .

i hear a piano
violin
in my head
echoing, reverberating against my skull
melodic and serene
i
feel at ease.

i can't wait for their reactions when they see me.