Hey guys! Lieka brought it to my attention on Deviantart that I never posted my "goodbye" post.

Those of you who know me know that I have recently been disappearing off and on for quite some time. Unfortunately, this time I'll be leaving the community for good. I'm so sorry if my disappearance has worried anyone, or hurt anyone's feelings.

I'm not making excuses with this post, I just want you guys to understand why I won't be around. I figure I owe you at least that much. (:

Friends of mine know that I've been struggling with anxiety for many years, and recently the stress has gone through the roof. The Endless Forest was, at first, a place where I could come and relax. But as my character grew, the drama kept increasing, and it became stressful simply playing the actual game. This sounds bad, but it isn't meant that way. Drama is good, I've always said that. But I'm at a point in my life where stress is so high that I can't deal with any more. So roleplaying isn't for me, right now -- and not just at TEF, but everywhere I used to roleplay. I get too intwined with my characters, and I can't take it.

Please understand that it isn't you guys at fault. I really want to stress that part. Basically, I have a disorder which causes my brain overreact to every tiny amount of stress. Things which most people don't bat an eyelash at. It gets so bad sometimes that I actually feel the physical effects. For a few years, up until last June, it was difficult for me to even leave the house. That's under normal circumstances.

Now consider that in the past year I've gone through my last year of highschool, got my first job, got kicked out of my house by my cultist parents, moved to the other side of the world to live with my long-distance chronically ill boyfriend, immersed in a completely new culture full of new etiquette and customs, and attempted to learn a new language at breakneck speed so I can try to get a job and communicate with people here in the Netherlands. Now there is added stress from the fact that I might not be able to extend my visa, which means I will have nowhere to go. So please understand that I need to eliminate as much stress as possible right now. :c

I know this doesn't sound like much; but you have to understand that for me, someone who has stayed indoors for 18 years and lived an anxious, homebody life, it's pretty extreme. I think what I'm feeling at the moment is akin to the way a domesticated animal feels when it's lived with humans all its life, and has suddenly been thrown into the wild.

I did try playing "no strings attatched", but when it all comes down to it, the game just doesn't interest me that way. So I'm no longer considering myself a part of the TEF community, and I no longer actively play the game.

However, I do love you guys and if you ever want to contact me, feel free to email me at or stop by my deviantart account at electropanda.deviantart.com.

Thank you guys for the wonderful memories, and for helping me through this stressful time in my life. But now it's time for Lemon to take her leave.

Love,
LT