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PhysicalMore or less healthy. | Emotional? | Mental? | Note (5/21)Still filling sheit out, bear with me..

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* Spots and eyes appear completely red when not in the company of Mikael.

December 6, 2019 » Returned to the forest after a few months of recovering from her kidnapping. Often relives the trauma of being tortured and killed by Imran in the form of nightmares when she sleeps.
Slowly trying to get a sense of normalcy while distracting herself as much as possible by training with Mikael (and among other things). Might be prone to hardening preemptively when in the forest; tends to be on edge when she's alone.

Caught Romulus lingering by and was immediatley made uncomfortable by his close proximity. Wanted to leave, but didn't want to give him the satisfaction of making her move off (though unbeknownst to her, it wouldn't have given him any so she was really just giving him what he wanted by staying).
Refused to humor his questions about her life and gave him curt responses so he'd hopefully lose interest. And he did eventually leave, though she wasn't entirely sure if it was because he grew bored of his game or if it was something else. Regardless, has a feeling this won't be the last time she sees him.

Spent some time re-familiarizing herself with the crystal cave, which was something she didn't really think she missed until she stepped inside of it. Was later joined by Mikael in the cave and had a little chit chat with him about her brief encounter with Romulus. She demanded snuggles afterwards :pensive: and they did that for the rest of the night before returning to Erialas.

August 27, 2019 » Reunited with Mikael when he returned from the dead. At first, wasn't entirely sure if it was really him due to her previous hallucinations - but when she finally got close enough to touch him, became convinced that it was truly him.

Led him to the edge of the bed because it looked like he was about to fall over, but got spooked when sparks of black electricity left his body and made the house's lights go haywire. Thinking he was mad at her for killing the crowd of people in Genesis, stumbled backwards and fell on the floor in a pathetic sobbing heap. Nevermind that he hadn't been capable of doing that before..

In an emotional confession, admitted that she killed the civilians in genesis and explained that witnessing his gruesome death made her snap. But the Mercenary seemed far more worried about her physical state instead and asked if his father had hurt her, to which she responded no - she did it to herself. That she picked a fight with someone as a much needed distraction from the turmoil she felt within.

Asked if he h8ed her for fucking up things in Genesis, but Mikael got off from the bed to kneel down at her level like 'don't be rediculous' and that whatever happened in Genesis wasn't his concern right now. Nearly leaned into his hand when went to wipe one of her tears away, but his unpredictable zapzaping made him quickly withdraw.

When he said he couldn't return to Genesis due to whatever was going on with him, admitted to him that she didn't want him to go back and that she never cared about Genesis, only him. 'Cause I just wanna be with YOUUU!!!11

Then Mikael was like 'ok ok' and agreed that they wouldn't go back. BUT AS HE WENT ON to explain his own feelings on the subject - like him being 'blind' to the important things in life, was completely caught off guard when he said that he was destined to be by her side and PROPOSED!!11

Felt so many THINGS that she hasn't felt in years since her ressurection, and quickly reciprocated his words after it finally processed in her damaged little brain. Kissed Mikael as she embraced him, but it was all short lived because Mikael was afraid of hurting her from any prolonged contact. He told her he needed to figure out what was wrong with him, and the doe finally realized that his resurrection had done something strange to him. Said it was a cruel joke ; ( 'cause even though he was back and they cemented their relationship, she still couldn't 'have him.' Bitch I am so SAD!!!! I'M LITERALLY STARVING TO BE HELD!!



Not wanting to waste anymore time, Mikael told Lee he needed her to hang back for a bit so he could start figuring things out now, and that he promised he wouldn't be far. Gave him a slow nod and said "okay" in a quiet voice even though she didn't want him to leave. Watched him go with a very sad look on her face ):

August 23, 2019 » Deteriorating in mind, body, and soul with each passing day. Despite the effects of Umay's poison having worn off, still experiencing hallucinations of Mikael as she fails to cope with his death. Often lies in bed for hours on end when she's not trying to distract herself in the forest.

Sometimes hears Mikael whispering to her when she's both awake and dreaming; absolutely wrecked with the thought that he might think she's a monster for killing all those civilians in Genesis.

August 18, 2019 »





August 14 - 15, 2019 » bullet points cause a lot happened..

• Watched Mikael get strangled by his father (unbeknownst to her) in front of a crowd as he made a speech about the Mercenary being a weak leader.

• Went ballistic as crystals bursted through the ground, killing dozens of people in the crowd who were cheering for Mikael's death. Sent crystals in all directions in a blind rage as she was momentarily incapacitated by Jezebel's magic.

• Was released from Jezebel's 'grasp' when shards hit the Deathbell, but it was too late. Imran killed Mikael via.. melting. And then there was no more Mikael.

• Completely lost it, though Imran and Jezebel escaped before she could take her vengeance. Started to uproot cars with her crystals, sending them flying towards citizens that were still in the area.

• Viewed the city as traitors and mindless sheep who wanted her love dead, so unleashed her wrath by impaling the citizens who were now beginning to rebel and shoot bullets. Imran couldn't rule over a city if he had no subjects.. (:

• Got tackled by Chrona who told her that she was only proving Imran's words true, and that they needed to high tail it out of there. Pretty much just.. 'no u' and tried to continue her onslaught, but Kovac grabbed her by the arm and dragged her to the getaway cars.

• Was taken to the safehouse in the snowy mountains of Vyth where she went into shock.

• Obviously not taking Mikael's death well, portaled to the forest the next day where she immediately came across Umay. Attacked her without warning with the hopes of getting the shit beat out of her. Cuz I'm hurting so much on the inside that I need to feel physical pain to distract me ):

• Was relentless as she duked it out with the massive lioness, tanking hits she.. definitely wouldn't have under normal circumstances. And that's a pretty DUMB thing to do lee

• But then!! A Rojan appeared, and Lee punched him too 'cause she don't discriminate. Was tag-teamed a few times, altering between Umay and Rojan until another yuge stranger came to aid them (Saul).

• At one point, had all 3 of them on her (rip), but the fight came to its climax when Umay stung her on the back with her scorpion tail. Wth that's cheating!!11

• Had a moment of realization that she might actually Die, and while death would've been a sweet release, she would have just become entombed again. And that would Literally Be Worse

• Crystallized her entire body once she started to feel the immediate effects of Umay's venom and released crystal spikes from her body to impale whoever was unlucky enough to be in its line of fire. Had some of them propelled back to her via Rojan's magic, but they bounced off her hardened form.

• Avoided further damage and made her retreat back to her cave where she started to undergo convulsions for well over thirty minutes, the doe experiencing hallucinations soon after that.

July 19, 2019 » Had a good, relaxing day in the forest with her milkiest man. Everyone pls lookie!!! :3

April 23, 2019 » Had an encounter with Romulus that made her reeee in silence because she was too stubborn to move off when he started to stare at the back of her head. Basically tried to be as bitchy as possible by rubbing it in his face that she was better off without him and didn't miss him when he asked. Ended up being more pissed off than Romulus 'cause he seemed to thrive off her reactions and remarks while she wanted to square up. Stop acting nice to me I DON'T like this!!

Despite her rage, kept it contained and acted more or less stoic except for the venom in her words. Scoffed when he took his leave and mentioned that he'd see her again.

A few hours after that interaction, left back to Erialas where she found Mikael having a smoke on the balcony. Cue 'where the FUCK have you been' and some interrogating that ended with him revealing that the city was on the verge of destruction because of a mystery clan leader. Welp, guess we'll die.

Though in all seriousness, told Mikael he had to stop excluding her from these important missions because she was more useful with him than at home, and that they could better protect each other if they were together. He relented eventually, and after discussing the important bits of information, mentioned that her ex-lover paid her a visit in the forest. Glad he didn't seem to be paranoid or fearful of it when she glossed over the conversation, and so shared a tender moment when she reaffirmed her love for the Mercenary.

February 8, 2019 » After avoiding the whole 'new sibling' thing for the past couple months, finally decided to approach Gita Li when she found her alone. Was hesitant at first, but after pushing old, distasteful memories to the back of her mind, asked the fawn where her mother was. A little surprised that Galene and Takato were nowhere to be found, but assumed that maybe the kid snuck off.

Either way, asked Gita if she knew that she had a big sister, to which the fawn responded with confusion cause.. what is a sister!! Just said that Gita's mom was also her mom, which made them siblings and thus sisters. Didn't mention that they weren't blood related as she felt it would confuse the child even more, but in any case, she kind of liked the idea of being viewed as a blood relative.

Told Gita that she had a gift for her and ended up forming a red crystal bracelet in front of her, the doe using her manipulation powers to place it around Gita's foreleg when she presented it to her. Mentioned that the bracelet was special and could help protect her from the big bad wolves, though didn't expect her to know what those were. She'd likely learn in time.

Was a little surprised that Gita was as enamored with the gift as she was, but was glad all the same that she made such a good impression on the fawn. Cuddled together after that.