I feel so lost
But I know that I am not alone
For the screaming and the fighting tell me so

The tea does little to calm
And those little pills do taunt
To down them in one go
To finally be able to sleep
and slip into a world beyond the next
Escaping these nightmares
That do not allow me to sleep
Or even dream

To end this life that isn't mine
That I don't deserve
A burden is what I am
Nothing more nothing less

What you see is not what you get
If you tear away at the threads and slip into the seams
You'll truly see
The reality
The fighting is tiresome
It drains all the energy you posss

For it is both a physical and mental act
The physical being the shouting,though we never lay hands on one another
The mental being you are fighting with your mother
The only person I am closest to in this world

The clock strikes midnight
And my tears still flow
The reality of it hitting me in every direction
At this point I"m looking for a way out
In any way shape or form
the cost hopefully being my life
For I do not want to survive

Words ring in my mind


Worthless






Useless




not good enough

pathetic


It goes to these extremes
And I am powerless to stop it.