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I can feel the loss, stronger than ever.
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It's not supposed to be there,
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is it?
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Everyone will loose someone someday.
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But it feels so wrong...
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I miss them all so much.
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It's my biggest wish for them to return.
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But it seems like it's difficult for wishes to become true.
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It's not like I deserve it.
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No, actually not. I never did anything but being comforted,
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by my dad, by my friends. I have no rights to be sad,
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it's not fair.
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Everyone feels jolly rotten someday.
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I could show some strength by fighting these feelings down.
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Good morning, what's up with you?
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Oh, I? I'm doing fine, it's no big problem.
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The more I think about it, the more unreal it gets.
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Did it actually happen?
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Luck will come with happiness.
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My mother wouldn't want me to cry.
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I cannot lie to myself forever.
