A sight worth resting to.

Im actully not very happy today. I have to babysit 3 fawns, and that's not the bad part. The bad part is, the time i have to babysit is the same time as the locking antlers compition! Me and my friend Sammy were gonna go until Walter asked me to babysit his little cousins! This is horrible! The next one is March were the males show off their new coats and antlers in the battle. But this one is extra special because it is winter and they don't really do the fight in winter. So i guess i just gave the Tree Office 7 leafs in trade for the spots. Those were from my bank account! I could of bought myself a new mask or spell. But instead i wasted it on seats! Thanks Walter. Thanks alot.


The babysitting went horrible! Lenny, one of the fawns, wanted roasted hazel nuts which we could only get at the Cliff Deer restaurant. So we went there. It was busy. Many deer were there. Some were talking about the compition. Upon them i saw Sammy, Nanook, Starry and James. I called to them. ''Hey guys! Have a spot for me?'' i called. They didn't reply. Nanook noticed me though and came over to me and said ''Well, we were saving this spot for Walter but here.'' She gave me a rock that said Seat 5. We were all going to be in the front row together! Walter soon walked into the giant rock restaurant. ''Hey Nanook! What's up?'' he asked. ''Oh hey Walter! I was wondering when you were going to come.'' she said.

Hehe. Walter has to take care of his cousins now. And i get the spot! Right now me and my friends are all watching it. Sammy is sitting beside me. James is eating poppy seeds. Starry my little fawn brother had to go to the washroom and he can't go alone. So Nanook had to take him to the bucks lue. And my other friend Nutik is fighting up there! It's awesome!

Im at home now. My mom said we get to all have a sleepover. Me, Starry, Nanook, James and Sammy. We are settling down for bed time. I will write tommorow.

The First day of the rest of my life.

[=darkgreen]It feels like the stars are falling. Not the ones that are actually falling, dangling on their strings, like some sort of slow-spinning mobiles, bouncing in and out of sight, rising from the ground to some sort of heavens. I mean the pole star, in its silent direction. I mean the stars I always looked up to when I was young. I mean the constellations, pictured in days past...
Ah, but I'm getting ahead of myself.

This morning, I had a fun time welcoming the new year. I sat on a giant tulips for a moment with Herla -- perfect aim, I should add, making a proper stack of it... Until Vala came up, surprised at how high up we were. I got down, and the two of us enjoyed the celebratory fruit that hanged in place of pinecones, and we ran about. When I lost track of Vala, I went and sat with Verve, and we enjoyed the sight of the falling snow on the birch's reddened ground...And, eventually, I went to sit with Moss and eventually Saosin by the river, and watched the sun turn Moss gold. After that, I was out for a while...

And then I heard that Walter, out of some stupid misplaced jealousy, had attacked Lemon yesterday. My sister, who, understandably, wanted no more to do with him. And me?
...I was out of patience with it. With having to forgive and apologize and excuse for someone who never once did any of that for himself. And...
I have to protect my sister, emotionally if I fail all else. When we became a family, I promised inside to stand with her against the world if need be, and for her make the world my enemy. I cannot stand by someone who hurts her.
It wasn't entirely for her sake, though. I...I want to be a good person. And there are times I know that to some extent, standing by Walter when he does what he does, without apology (some of it, I really think he can't control) and without admitting he's wrong... I know that's not something I can do and still call myself a good person.