The road to Enlightenment.

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04/05/2013 - ...

















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Status

llllllllllllllllllll - Physical
llllllllllllllllllll - Emotional
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Notes: Suffering from a chronic cough, subject to fits at times and short of breath on occasion. Not uncommon to see blood coming up as well.


Updates

"....."

Recently: After the events two nights prior, is keeping mostly to himself in order to heal.

Earlier: ...




BASICS    IN DEPTH      FEAR WEAVING   COMBAT DETAIL   ART

Biology

Name . Mire
Age . Ageless, adult.
Gender . Male, stag.
Species . Parasitic Bongo hybrid
Appearance . [ Reference ]
Scent . Blackberries
Height . [ Here ]
Status . Single, no offspring - sterile.
Orientation . Pansexual.
Speech . "Talks like this."
Voice . Booker Dewitt (Bioshock Infinite)
Calls . Bugle (0:46 to 1:31 only) . Cry . Purr



Treasures

.Burning Candle.
An orange candle eternally lit by Tatata's flame. Acquired during Pandora's final efforts to dispatch her demon, Jealousy. Commemorates the day that Hamaliel fell and Pandora won back her freedom. His hope and light in the darkness when all other lights go out.

.Bone Necklace.
A gift from Abigale when they first met. Finely decorated, features an owl skull as the center piece. Cherishes it, hopes it will be a symbol of a good and sustaining friendship.

.Feathers.
One hawk feather found by the crying idol.
Two pheasant feathers found in various locations in the birch.











Personality Development

Insecure - Untrusting of those around him, very few constants exist in his short life. The less he trusts a deer, likely the more possessive he will be of them, as long as they have a positive relationship. This behaviour stems from a fear of abandonment or loss. Obedience dwindles as insecurity and fear heightens. He feels it necessary to constantly confirm his relationships, and may act aggressively towards strangers if they get too close, both physically or socially, to those he cares for.

Determined - He is extremely passionate about many aspects of his life. He is highly driven and persistent - at some times, obstinate and stubborn - especially when he has his mind set on a goal. The end justifies the means, even if it sometimes means causing conflict with his own morals.

Daft - While his actions may come across as naive or unintelligent on occasion, Mire is far from stupid. He can be extremely rash and careless, and most times, he acts in full awareness of his own irrational behaviour in spite of the potential consequences. On the flip side, however, this gives a very playful and light hearted side to him, which can be seen when in the company of those he loves. Different isn't always bad, and isn't always good, but in the end, it is part of him.

Sharp - Highly alert and observant, he is quick to pick up on things around him - whether it be from the environment or his company, most things usually don't tend to slip past him. This of course, like anything else, has its exceptions. He is usually very empathetic and aware of the feelings of those around him. A sense of curiousity leads him to investigate that which he does not understand. Mire takes advantage of most any opportunity to expand his knowledge.

Emotional - He has quickly proven to be an extremely sensitive and moody individual. Whether this stems from his insecurity, lack of trust, an unstable childhood or a combination of the three is uncertain. He has shown time and time again the tendency to go from happy to miserable and vice versa in the blink of an eye. He himself is still trying to understand it, but regardless of the cause, this is something that he will have to learn to live with.

More to be added.

Feeding Habits
Survives on blood from a living host or fresh meat. Current intake requirements - 2 litres of blood or 5 lbs of meat every forty-eight hours. Function - the hormone ghrelin, which triggers the appetite, alters the chemical makeup of the saliva in such a way as to encourage consistent blood flow (such as seen in vampire bats to prevent a wound from closing). Leptin is triggered when full, altering the saliva's composition once again, this time in the opposite direction. Leptin-induced saliva promotes the sealing of a wound using a false, thin layer of skin, created during solidification.










Fear is becoming the ruling force of this life. Traces of the Beast lay in wait.

Discoveries in Progress

Fragments of his dormant talents begin to surface. Feeling empowered by the essence of fear around him; stirs a rise in adrenaline, testosterone, and aggression, as well as physical energy and drive. Now, becomes a living vessel of this particular form of vitality.

His creation stores are being powered and charged by the manifestation or experience of fear, both within the host and without from others in his immediate vicinity. It is being held and stored for use in various methods of creation limited to his physical self. The keeper must eventually vent this energy, directing it onto a work of the mind which can then be applied to his own body - in essence, a form of gradual transformation that may take place over a series of hours, days, or even weeks at a time.

The Living and the Dead

Another world. Has traveled in the spiritual plane and succeeded in making contact with the spirits of the dead. A medium, and a living link to those who have passed on. May use the spirit realm as an escape from the real world; his sanctuary and place of quiet, only fled to in extreme circumstances. Has recently broken barriers and stepped into new frontiers, gaining access to many times and places woven into and beyond the fabric of reality.

Woven Creations
May 30th, 2013 - A silhouette made in Phaios' image. Duration of less than five minutes before vanishing.
November 7th, 2013 - Subject: Raleigh. Experimentation with manipulating fear energy into life energy. Results of experiment in progress.
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Statistics

Strength llllllllllllllllllll . Stamina llllllllllllllllllll . Speed llllllllllllllllllll . Defense llllllllllllllllllll . Intelligence llllllllllllllllllll
Evasion llllllllllllllllllll . Durability llllllllllllllllllll . Experience llllllllllllllllllll . Sensitivity llllllllllllllllllll . Drive llllllllllllllllllll

Details
[ Hover ] Injury Types Inflicted - Light Relative cuts from the hooves or antlers. Mild bruising. | Medium Considerable bruising and scattered, open gashes, cuts, and puncture wounds. | Heavy Severe open gashes from teeth and puncture wounds from antlers. Deep cuts from hooves.

Method and tactics
Has already learned that it's better to get behind or beside your target in order to attack them.
Goes for the sides and flanks. Beginning to go for pre-existing wounds to cripple a target. Prey
drive is usually applicable no matter the target; if it has blood, it's food. Quickly perfecting the
dodge and weave technique. Has a merciless and relentless method of approach; heavy bloodlust,
and desire for damage on either end. Tends to 'lose' himself in the fray.










Family
Thane Creator, acknowledged as such. Mixed emotions, small amounts of sympathy are often overshadowed by anger. Hated, but strangely, not loathed.
Mateo Adopted grand father through Thane. Neutral but affectionate towards. Accepted.
Morioch Older adopted brother, disowned by; understands this is for the best but misses him dearly regardless. A missing piece of his heart. Adored, bound to, though their contact has been severed.
Miriam Second oldest adopted sister. Bond cut short; rekindling, but with the utmost caution. Loving but wary towards.
Lueur Oldest adopted sister. Adored, bound to.
Isobel Fourth oldest adopted sister alongside Eve. Adored, bound to.
Eve Fourth oldest adopted sister alongside Isobel. Adored, bound to.

Geisha Birth mother. Confusion, distance, rejection? Damaged bond. Attempting to repair. Hope rekindled through her acceptance.
Ravus Adopted mother. Big, strong; protection and warmth. Recently reunited, renewed hope. Rekindling.
Aniu Adopted brother through Ravus and Geisha. No contact yet.















Positive Relations
June Grew up with her under the guise of 'sister', never was able to come to terms with that; stronger feelings for the doe emerged as they aged, and eventually led to confession. Currently 'dating', or, something like that. Devoted to and adored and with every fibre of his being.
Solei † Loved and cherished, had wanted to devote himself to her completely before her untimely passing. Will forever regret not being able to say goodbye. A missing piece of his heart.
Phaios † Deceased 29/05/2013. A mother figure, adored and relied on. Has lost a part of himself with her passing. His now lost guidance, comfort, and stability. A missing piece of his heart.
Umay Close friend and pack mate, adored and bound to.
Ikael Guardian. A mother-figure. Misses - gone?
Jahi Close friend and pack mate, adored. Companion, though scarce.
Rojan Close friend and pack mate, adored and bound to. Somewhat scarce.
Pandora Close friend and pack mate, sees much of himself in the nevermore. Adored and bound to.
Lats'vel Close friend and pack mate, adored, though still a source of confusion at times.
Kody Close friend and pack mate, adored.
Aurora Close friend and pack mate, adored.
Rhea Close friend and pack mate, adored. Companion.
Creusillana Close friend and pack mate, adored. Charge.
Rajih Friend and pack mate, adored. All jealousy towards has faded.
Lonno Friend and pack mate, mixed emotions. Leaning towards like.
Nii Close friend and pack mate, adored.
Lieva Close friend and pack mate, adored. His charge, would defend at all costs.
Ayo Good friend, getting to know better. Bonding.
Abigale New friend, treasured. Bonding.
Henna An old bond from his childhood. Friend? Guardian.
Galene A friend and maternal guardian. A source of wisdom and comfort.
JM A Guardian figure. Distant but always will remember what she's done for him and look fondly upon her.
Zahava A friend and growing bond. Has fought alongside, aided, and been aided by her on multiple occasions. In addition, an ally and source of reliability. Trusts her.
North A friend and growing bond. Loves tormenting the shepherd above all else.
Achilles Childhood friend.























Neutral / Negative Relations
Indi A distant memory. Recognizes, is civil towards but little more.
Pica Has mixed feelings about. Enjoys the little one's company and has fun playing with her, but sometimes gets unfriendly vibes from her or finds her too pushy. Acts friendly towards, however and usually has fun with the little one.
Israel Bordering between neutral and positive, curiosity has been piqued. Enjoys the times they spent playing. Israel helped teach Mire how to professionally peacock someone.

Ramsus Associated with aggression and harm. Bitter and tense around, dislikes significantly and will avoid unless defending friends or loved ones from the ram.
'Touro' That guy that follows Pan around. Doesn't like how pushy he is, finds him rude and ignorant.
Reed Rude, angry, and annoying. Thinks he and 'Touro' would be good friends.

















Mire is a character and his thoughts / actions do not represent those of his player.




Top art by Scythe.
Bottom art by Qanat.
Original concept by Sianna.
Original CSS by Brit, Sianna, and Iskalo.
Size chart by Apeldille. Thank you all very much! <3

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Scythe; ajshfjd ees oke

Scythe; ajshfjd ees oke <3 better late than never yeah? C:

Jinxy; SCREAMS AT YOU AND THROWS A HALIBUT
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Awh,so that's the guy sitting

Awh,so that's the guy sitting with Ruin and the others xD My map sucks sometimes fffffffffff.HAI MIRE.


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I danced inside giant candles

I danced inside giant candles before it was cool
~Poppy~
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OH HEY YOU FOUND HIM RUIN

OH HEY YOU FOUND HIM RUIN Laughing out loud
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WD: YES thanks for letting me

WD: YES thanks for letting me know who that was @-@ having some nasty weather here and the internet's a little slow :'D HAI THERE CB

Poppy: AJHDJFG you hipster BI <3 God dammit I love Jacob HE'S ADORABLE

Soli: YISS <3 so happy to see you and Tea again ♥ Super late but WELCOME BACK! 8D


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HEU

HEU
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UEH

UEH
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Eee thank you Xemi ;D I

Eee thank you Xemi ;D

I swear to you, I will get you that art of Kartex. Been going through a really, really bad artblock. Lines are done (after like 50 different poses...) and some base colors. Gonna try to work on him again once my stupid cough goes away x.x
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Omg don't even worry about

Omg don't even worry about that ;; God that was so long ago.. and tbh.. I don't play Kartex anymore anyway x.x I have soo many trades and commissions and stuff to catch up on, I don't even know if I would have time to make something for you in return ;; I feel awful saying that because I love your art but I've gotten in over my head and I need to deal with all the old stuff I owe people before I can even think of new things in this jumbled mess of a mind :C
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Oh but you made me the little

Oh but you made me the little pouf Tea in my sig! I had to make you something in return!

But if you want someone else instead, please just let me know, else I will continue with Kartex x3 I have to give you something else as was agreed, and I am ashamed its taking me this long to work myself into it Sad
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Aww ;__; I made you a Teapoof

Aww ;__; I made you a Teapoof because I wanted to ♥ You don't have to do anything for me <3 if you really wanna draw someone though, I'd love to get some art of Mire as an adult 8D I can send you his reference on skype if you want 0:
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You're too sweet Xemi!

You're too sweet Xemi! (Though I miss Mr. icicle!)

Oh yes! Totally will! I have seen Mire around lately (though his picto wasn't on the map and I couldn't figure out who it was :V!!!!)

But I would be more than happy to draw him! And yes! Send it to me on skype Laughing out loud

I probably won't be able to work on it til Thursday, but by then I should have a good idea ^^
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NOOO noo I'm really not ;;

NOOO noo I'm really not ;; kgjfk I miss him too.. but my muse is gone for him and I gotta just accept it T-T it was fun while it lasted though. No worries, gosh there's no rush at all I promise ;; not gonna be able to use it for a while still anyway. Thank you so much for doing this for me <33
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heeee it's no problem happy

heeee it's no problem happy to actually do something in exchange TwT
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She knew he'd find Phai

She knew he'd find Phai sooner or later. She wouldn't stay; she'd had her time to mourn. Quietly she approached him. He was so big now, and she was little- she'd always thought he'd be the little brother she could protect. She didn't think that'd be happening now.

Words were unnecessary. She gently brushed against his side, nuzzling his face gently. Then she wandered off.
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A gentle, agonized grunt from

A gentle, agonized grunt from the quillback and that was all. His features softened at his sister's touch, and for a moment, he was able to relax. He didn't need to open his eyes to know that it was Isobel by his side. The fleeting moment of comfort shown was the only thanks he would be able to offer her now.

Perhaps later he could properly express his gratitude when words were found once again.
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pretend she came back

pretend she came back ok

Isobel sat down beside Mire again, her frills tucking in behind her ears as much as possible. She stared at the tree, sighing. So many emotions were swirling in her little head. Finally, the first thing that kept repeating itself inside it blurted out.

"She's not coming back, you know. No one can fix her. It's not like Papa and Moro. It's like Mama. Some people don't get chances. They don't get fixed."
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For days he had laid in

For days he had laid in silence by that tree and he would continue to do so for as long as he felt was needed. What defined itself as 'needed' though? That was a question Mire had never answered for himself. Ears and quills lay flat, eyes stayed shut, locking in their glow beneath his boney helm. A flick of an ear as his sister approached. He recognized her by scent and sound alone, and need not shift from where he was currently situated. His shoulders lifted with his sides, then fell, breathing out a deep and tired sigh.

Her words did not bring him comfort; only woke up a deep-rooted fury in him. Quills and fur alike bristled, and his lips curled back in a snarl.

"What do you know about death?" A mask of anger patched itself over the underlying sorrow.

"She's coming back. She's obviously left to do something important and when she's done, she'll be back. And I'll be waiting for her." His features softened, though the tension of a grimace remained on his muzzle. More likely than not he knew he was lying to himself; false hope was better than no hope at all. Acceptance was beyond his reach.
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Isobel's own quills raised,

Isobel's own quills raised, and she hissed.

"What does Iso know about death? Your Mama wasn't killed. I may not have known her very well, but she was my Mama. I didn't get a chance to know her, Mire. And she won't come back. So don't you tell me I don't know about death.
I watched Moro and Papa kill themselves and rip themselves apart in front of me and bleed to death. Maybe they came back but they still -died-.
You think I don't want Phaios back? She was like another Mama to me too. I want her to be fixed. But I know better."


She growled and stood, walking away from him to sit across from him.

"How dare you brother. How dare you. Iso knows."
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Both eyes eased open,

Both eyes eased open, gleaming out from mere slits between lids. Teeth were bared again in a sheer snarl, and he raises his head up, easily towering over his 'little' sister.

'Your Mama wasn't killed.'

"No, worse. She left me. Abandoned me. I was dead to her."

'I didn't get a chance to know her, Mire.'

"Then you've even less of a reason to miss her." A rough, hollow snort follows as he sways where he sits. Hungry. Tired. Dehydrated. Her figure splits and wavers before his very eyes, and he moves with her, trying to keep her centered.

"Do you know what happens after someone dies? Have you been to the land of the dead, dear sister? You'd best pay it a visit. Perhaps you'll learn something."
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Isobel stood up immediately,

Isobel stood up immediately, a loud snarl escaping from her mouth as her frills flew wide open and her quills stood high on end. She didn't care if he was taller.

"DON'T TELL ISO HOW SHE FEELS!"

Isobel ran toward him, stopping inches away. She was still growling, teeth bared and eyes narrowed, breathing heavily and enraged.

"Land of the dead, huh? Who's gonna send me there, you? Don't act like you know everything. "
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Her rapid movement startled

Her rapid movement startled him and he fumbled with his legs, trying to get them beneath him, only to fall again in a dizzy heap. A second attempt ends in failure, and so for now he gives it up. Tension builds in his neck and shoulders;

"DON'T TELL ISO HOW SHE FEELS!"

"Then DON'T tell me something YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT!" The tension is released like a viper lashing out; a snap, and he lunges at the other quillback. Poor orientation leaves him with a mouthful of sheared, split wood that cracked clean off the birch tree by which he sat, shattered on impact. It's cleaved through like warm butter, nary a sliver of resistance, and then the pieces are dropped from his jaws. Waste. Useless. Not what he was aiming for.

"Don't act like you know everything."

"Practice what you preach, sister." A remaining sliver is spat in her direction carelessly. Part of him hopes it will wedge itself somewhere inconvenient. A stronger part recoils from premature guilt that may not be necessary should it miss.
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Isobel shrieked in

Isobel shrieked in frustration as he yelled back, ducking out of his way as he lunged at her. and growling as she nipped at one of his forelegs. She winced as he caught the branch.

"I don't know everything, brother. I only know that they leave and WECAN'TFIXIT. You want to send me off to die and not be fixed? FINE!"

Her logic had left her. In her mind, she was trying to comfort her brother. He'd lost it and went after her, and now he wanted to hurt her.
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A jolt as tiny teeth raked

A jolt as tiny teeth raked through and tore open a small wound on his upper leg; again he staggered to his feet, only to collapse once again, rolling onto his side this time. The world was spinning, and finally he closed his eyes, unable to keep his hateful stare on Isobel. His body went tense, and the quillback choked out a dry cough, relaxing and going limp with fatigue. The days without food and water were taking its toll on him but he cared little for that.

"N-no.. no, Iso.." Though he was far from seeing sense, or seeing at all, his morality was alive enough to fill him with guilt.

"I didn't mean it.."
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ugh now i see grammar up

ugh now i see grammar up there i can't fix on my post aslkjsalkdsa

Isobel swallowed. She was hurt. He had hurt her. No doubt she had hurt him somehow with what she had said, but it was hard for her to comprehend that. Her ears pinned back. Was Mire going to go, too, now?

"Is don't smell good. You need food. I'll make sure I fix you."
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"M'sorry Iso.." Mire edges

"M'sorry Iso.." Mire edges closer to the tree as best he can until he's leaning into the trunk of the tree. He lays his head down again, eyes shut; his brief moments of anger having taken much of his remaining energy.

"N-no, no, I'm not hungry," he murmurs, an unintentional lie. Very likely, he was starving, but far too much so to even recognize the feeling as hunger anymore. Even if it was there, beneath the other feelings, thirst pushed it down and out of the way but even this he would not admit.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry Isobel.. m'sorry.."
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"Need to eat. Both need to

"Need to eat. Both need to eat." She herself hadn't been eating much, and her ribs were making their own appearance. Her hunger wasn't fully returned, and with the loss of Phaios it threatened to go away again. Instincts however told her she would die if she didn't eat, and that was something she wasn't ready to face either. Raising her head, she saw a squirrel not far away, busying itself with its nuts.

"You stay." Like he really had a choice. Isobel stood, making her way slowly to the squirrel. She'd gotten good at hunting; practice had made it easier on her and though she was still a bit clumsy, she managed to catch the squirrel. She made her way back up the hill, dropping the rodent in front of her brother.

"We share."
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Finally with a defeated sigh

Finally with a defeated sigh he nodded. There was no stopping his stubborn sister and he knew it; size side, he was still her little brother and somehow she was still stuck looking after him. A faint, fleeting smile tugged at the corners of his mouth at the thought, then faded away. The muscles in his face ached just from moving. The sound of Isobel's approaching hoof steps managed to wake him, and coaxed him to sit up enough to eat.

Stretching his neck out towards it, his jaws parted timidly; a quick nip down and his canines punctured the small rodent's skin and kept it held firmly in his grasp as blood trickled down his throat from the newly inflicted wounds. It was a meager amount, but generous considering the size of the prey. Within minutes, it would be drained entirely.

He nosed it in the direction of his sister. In this way, he would not need to take away from her meal.

"Don't need the rest. It's yours. Can't use it much anyway." A faint smile.

"Thank you Iso. Are you okay?"
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Isobel was pleased to see

Isobel was pleased to see Mire eat, although her eyes widened with curiosity. She tilted her head, watching him, fascinated. When he finished, she sniffed the squirrel, then took a few bites from it. She couldn't seem to keep much down either. But at least for now, it was enough to sustain her.

"Don't know if I'm okay. Feel empty. Angry. Want to hurt things."
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"You can hurt me." Said

"You can hurt me." Said calmly, matter of factly, impartially.

"I made you hurt, right? Would it make you feel better?" A sense of calm overtakes him, relieved as she eats as well. He had been worried she may go back on her word simply to get him to eat instead.
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"No", she said

"No", she said simply.


"Just anyone who hurts us."
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A smile, and then he reaches

A smile, and then he reaches out towards Isobel to lick her on the nose. He lifts a front leg just enough to drag his hoof through the dirt; a silent welcome for her to sit with him. Above anything else right now, in spite of his behaviour he hoped she may choose to stay.
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She stood, making her way

She stood, making her way over to sit close, flopping down. She yawned, settling her head on the ground.

"It'll be okay. Somehow."
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isobel not eve ;_;

isobel not eve ;_;
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Ugh sorry I was super tired

Ugh sorry I was super tired when I wrote those updates ;___; I knew it was Iso, dunno why Eve ended up getting written down but I knew it was her. :C
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Iso: i biet u agin

Iso: i biet u agin
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Mire: ill fart on u

Mire: ill fart on u
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Iso: & i catch dat frat & put

Iso: & i catch dat frat & put it in ur faec

i'm all kinds of toxins k
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omg no dutch ovens kimi no

omg no dutch ovens kimi no ngjfk
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RRRRRRRRRRRROFL

RRRRRRRRRRRROFL

*drinks tea* .w. well hello

*drinks tea* .w. well hello frand
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herler uvu -facepet-

herler uvu -facepet-
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Aww, I feel so bad for Mire.

Aww, I feel so bad for Mire. /dumps Jacob on
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Aww he's okay ;v; he's doin a

Aww he's okay ;v; he's doin a lot better. Always happy to see Jacob though. ♥
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&hearts; Agggggggh I wanna



Agggggggh I wanna start drawing deer again but I have no way to upload it. Guess I`ll stick to computer paper then
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Aww ;; you don't have a

Aww ;; you don't have a camera? Could always draw on paper then take photos and stuff~
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OwO... maybe. With my luck

OwO... maybe. With my luck it would probably take the picture in a really low quality XD
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Pfft XD better than nothing

Pfft XD better than nothing though, yes? My camera takes crap photos sometimes too T-T <3
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:I

:I