U p d a t e s
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Physical: 99%; hungry.
Mental: 80%; uncertain.
5/13/13
Napped up in a tree all day, surprised she hadn't thought of it before. For an entire day wasn't attacked or chased around by anyone. This must be a record.
5/12/13
Plans on bathing, knows she must reek. Immediately stared down by the grey doe who proceeded to rub on her tree and beat on her until she fled. Fought back, but mostly ran, seething. Managed to bathe quickly when she found herself alone. Was approached eventually by Shahla, reacted the only way she knew how at this point: cowered. Appreciated the doe's kindness though, once she realized she wasn't hostile. Didn't get a chance to say anything but a quick "I'm sorry" since she was charged by the grey doe. Fled to her tree. Hälla marked it, and she challenged that, marking it over and over but not fighting back when Hälla beat on her more. Surprised when Shahla defended her, but staying very close to her tree. Stubbornly trying to keep her scent on it.
5/11/13
Went to fetch her pelt, charged a few times by Hälla, but she was too busy concentrating on keeping whatever food was left in her stomach from coming up during the walk to the Twin Gods statue. Went back to her tree, to find it had been marked by the grey doe. Furious. Smothered the tree in her scent to try to rid it of Hälla's, intent on keeping it there. Ended up leaving a few dark hairs from her mane on it when she rubbed it too hard. Lay by her tree, sleeping on and off. Roused herself to mark it every now and then, wanting her scent to be ingrained permanently. Too tired and sore to do anything but watch the world go by and hope that the tigress and her doe won't come to make her suffer more. Considering seeking the grey doe out later to confront her about the continuous bullying. Is undoubtedly impatient to recover so she can fight back again. Didn't end up acting on it, marked her tree one last time before settling down for the night.
5/10/13
Was approached by the tigress, who felt the urge to show some teeth. Exchanged words, ended up having a breakdown, Shahla threatening Edrea's life and Mai returning it, letting it be known that if Shahla hurt Edrea once more she wouldn't let it go. Shahla left. Curled up by the tree, too tired to even attempt to groom herself. Is a complete mess.
5/9/13
Fetched her pelt and wandered off. Was immediately barreled into by Hälla. Bolted. Was chased around the forest again, slowed when she started getting out of breath but kept moving long after the grey doe's footsteps faded. Very close to her breaking point. After trying to get some sleep by a tree, realized she couldn't because she kept thinking something was going to charge out of the brush and she wouldn't be ready. Shook off the anxious thoughts and steeled herself to leave the relative safety of the birch, decided that she shouldn't let herself be like this. What happened to the stubborn, fiery doe that she was less than a week ago? Still in a fragile state, but won't run away from threats this time. Doesn't have the strength to constantly flee from things that hurt her any more. Determined not to be weak.
After thinking on it a while, knew that she couldn't hurt Hälla if she came after her again. She just didn't have the heart to do it after being such close friends, even if that was clearly not the case now. Put two and two together about not seeing Shahla around when Mai was being chased(Figured if she was the tigress would have joined in). Went back to her, firm in her resolve. Showed her side to Hälla who soon charged at her. Didn't fight back, was shoved around for a bit before Fletcher, a boar(Lats'vel), and another deer(Sascha?) intervened. Ignored them, trying to dart back towards the grey doe to receive her beating that she was starting to believe she deserved. Also expressing that she still cares for Hälla. Was on the receiving end of a few more rough shoves before she was blocked off by the males. Gave up and limped to the Crying Idol, unable to move very fast due to a sharp pain around her rib cage. Let the water run over her briefly, and then collapsed beside the Idol and fell asleep quickly.
Got into another fight with Hälla after terse words were exchanged and the two argued. Goaded Hälla on for unknown reasons, stubbornly fought until she was battered and bruised. Escaped the brawl after landing a hard blow with her tail. Limped away very, very slowly, bloody and broken.
Like a snail.
5/8/13
Woke, and wandered too close to Shahla and Hälla. Shahla charged and chased her all around the forest. Terrified and out of breath, kept running even after the footsteps faded behind her. Cuddled up to a tree to cry.
5/6/13
Doesn't know what to think anymore. Found Edrea, heavily injured. Believed it to be a dream, before realizing it to be reality. Conflicted, didn't know whether to go to her or not. Decided on the former. Feeling extremely guilty about it. Still has feelings for her that she can't deny.
Spent time with her, before growing restless and wandering to the ruins. Saw that Hälla was pacing, looked upset. Charged in without a second thought when she saw a stranger rear at her, taunting and rearing back.
Scented Edrea again, went over to her. Exchanged shaky nuzzles, worried for her health. Didn't see Shahla until she was upon them. Bolted, practically having a panic attack. Felt like a little kid with their hand in the cookie jar. Feeling extremely, extreme
ly guilty, like she betrayed Shahla. Stood around with Edrea, paced for a bit, anxious. Settled down beneath her and tried to calm her nerves.
5/3/13
Is going to give acting normal another try. Went to fetch her pelt before player had to go afk to watch NCIS against her will.
/conflicted
Got back, and found that the bloodstained tree had been marked once more by Hälla. Surprised at herself about how it upset her, rubbed against it herself and settled down at its base. Wondering what Hälla and Shahla are so upset about, doesn't want to get in either of the does' way so is staying where she is.
5/2/13
Woke up and fetched her pelt, was found immediately by Hälla and Shahla. Soon caught a familiar scent on the breeze, followed it to a pool of blood at the base of a tree. Edrea's blood. Horrified, stood around until she was followed by Hälla, Shahla, and Fletcher. Stood unresponsive for the most part, throwing herself from a standstill into a sprint to try to get away from her friends before she got sick right in front of them. Came back quickly, embarassed but for the most part shocked and still hurting. Was asked to go for a walk with Hälla, obliged. Ended up telling Hälla the reason behind all her strange behavior and the blood. Still not quite able to get over how she had played a part in Edrea's injury, but won't argue with her over it.
Napped with Hälla while both players afk'd to watch some Glee.
Because Glee is
Momentarily thought she saw the grey doe and the tigress chasing after Edrea, but figures it must have been someone else. (Presumes that Edrea is not around judging from the blood at the tree.)
5/1/13
Currently quite numb. Blocking out the pain and trying to act like everything is normal. Woke and fetched her pelt, forcing herself not to linger on Edrea's absence. Wandered over to Shahla and Hälla. Greeted by the tigress with nuzzles, who realized something was off almost immediately. Greeted Hälla rather nervously, made anxious by the obvious tension. Wishes things between them could be like they used to be.
Too lethargic to do much. Sat down nearby, wanting to give Hälla her distance. Felt almost like she was intruding. Followed by Shahla, who sat next to her. Found out that she had accidentally taken Hälla's spot, hurt but unwilling to show it when the grey doe insisted that Shahla move over so that she could take her spot back. Isn't complaining about the glares and the hostility she's been recieving from Hälla lately, but each time it pushes her further towards her breaking point. Pretty much already there, with the incident concerning Edrea.
Spoke with Shahla about what happened. Then eventually the tigress moved closer to her, causing an argument with Hälla. Curled up and took all the yelling without complaint, beginning to think she did something to either Hälla, Shahla, or both of them to deserve this. Supposes it's her fault. Curled up even tighter so neither could see her crying into her fur. Acquired a headache from the screaming, is starting to doubt her friendship with Hälla. Wearily accepted her apology, tried to sleep while they cuddled more.
Eventually couldn't stand how she couldn't so much as look at Shahla without flinching and anticipating glares from Hälla. Retreated into her mind and fell asleep for the night.
Mine
sure! C: E: SILVVVV u r
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thanks, dina!
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EVERYWHERE <33 :3
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MY HEYA/BRITTANA FEELS
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ALL THE BRITTANA FEELS
smellz like SEXY IN hurr
*opens door dramaticly*
why did the chicken cross the playground!?!?!?!?
TO GET TO THE OTHER SLIDE
BAHAHAHAHA
Sorry I haven't replied on
LOL don't worry about it
Is it alright if I draw Mai
Love Mai & miss seeing her
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me too! wondering where you
edrea: "I want my baby
ems&dina; ilu gaiz
ilu gaiz ♥
danke! it's good to be back~ i missed going ingame for a bit, its been a busy week.
Sorry I have been so inactive
I'm so sorry the drawing I