"At times the world may seem an unfriendly and sinister place, but believe that there is much more good in it than bad. All you have to do is look hard enough and what might seem to be a series of unfortunate events may in fact be the first steps of a journey.”
— Lemony Snicket
unrealistically optimistic and irrationally moral
Attican is a firm subscriber to the belief that every person and creature is basically good, even when the evidence says otherwise. When the contrary happens and she witnesses a tragedy or injustice, she poorly rationalizes to herself why they are actually "good" until he's satisfied. Otherwise she will totally ignore it. She doesn't have a mean bone in her body and can't criticize, judge, or otherwise speak poorly of others. Punishes herself severely if she does anything "bad," occasionally by physically harming herself.
Being very interested in the natural world, she can be curious to the point of being invasive when getting to know new possible friends. She makes friends effortlessly (she'll often consider you a friend before you feel likewise towards her) and is easily labeled as a polite extrovert though she easily becomes withdrawn amongst crowds. Praise and gifts of any value make her happy to a disproportionate extent and so she has a tendency to hoard lots of little things.
Being taught by her father to cherish life is shown in her need to nurture--though she often takes on projects that are a little more than what she can handle. Although she generally feels very good about herself, having been abused while in her mother's care has left her self-esteem quite shaky.
Death is a concept that she has chosen to ignore for much of her life as it frightens her greatly.
relations grandmother
has never met her but feels very curious towards.
mother
the only being Attican has ever felt intense animosity toward.
Jay? His name made her smile because it made her think of the bird. It's lovely to meet you. My name is Attican. for a moment she extended her hand to him to shake, but then quickly retracted it and fell into a rough bow after realizing her faux pas. A faint blush of embarrassment shone on the surface of her mask. Now I know-- The muscles along one of her front legs twitched in aggravation. She bent at the waist and brought it up as far as she could manage to pluck a mean pebble that had been lodged in her frog. Attican examined it for a moment before discarding the little villain. --what name to write in my book when I give it to you! Kind of like.. how libraries do it.
"Nice to meet you, Attican," he stated, but couldn't help but put a thought toward libraries... He missed those, but wait...writing? "Do you have ink? A quill to write with?" he glanced down at his hooves, the thought suddenly occuring to him that he wouldn't have to write anymore. What had become of his journal?
She seemed taken back by the small barrage of questions. Uh, yes..? Attican closed her eyes and shook her head briefly to get rid of all the apprehension she felt about replying. Yeah, I do. What made you so curious? Attican scratched behind one of her ears and stared at Jay.
He shrugged, as if it was nothing, "I...I was just wondering." It wasn't like he could write with his hooves, but he could doodle. It'd beat drawing in the dirt.
Alright then! Attican was surprised by how genuinely cheerful sounding her reply was. It was clear to her that there was something more to his inquiry than just plain curiosity, but right then she felt too out of sorts to ask him any more about it. She grabbed a small bag from the hollowed tree and lay down in a patch of sunlight. With a gentle smile she patted the ground next to her.
He looked between her, the ground and then back at her. Sit with her? Okay...he slowly moved the distance between them, settling himself down in grass beside her, careful to not have his fur touch hers. He stayed silent for several moments, before asking, "Why...why does everyone in this forest look different from each other?"
The bag was filled with sun dried tomatoes: her favorite. For a moment she considered removing her mask in front of him. Her hands, which had already begun creeping up towards it, stopped and held their place. She turned away momentarily so he couldn't see when she popped a few in her mouth.
Why does everyone in this forest look different from each other?
Jay's question floated around in her head. She was quiet as she ruminated over it. I.. don't know, Attican swallowed. There's a whole lot of magic here, though. Maybe that's the reason why there are so many different creatures. Attican held out a few tomatoes in the palm of her hand to see if he wanted to try them.
The sound of hooves near the two alerted them of a new presence. "Greetings both of you"he said with a smile and settled on the other side of his mate and gave her a small peck on the cheek as an added greeting for her. "And you"he said to the buck,"How are you faring?"he said settling into a more comfortable position.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
The stag gave a skeptical look to the tomatoes in the centaur's hand, preparing a question in response, only to switch when they were joined by Daenir. "Well," he answered quietly, looking up at him "I am doing well..." As good as he could get, anyway. He brought his gaze to the ground, an ear turned in their direction to listen to them talk.
Small frown lines wrinkled at her hidden face when she saw how he looked at her offering. But then again, not everybody likes dried tomatoes. Attican had shrugged and eaten those she'd offered to the odd stag just moments before the sound of somebody approaching gained her attention. She smiled and patted at the Phantom's rump when he passed to be beside her. Hello, lovedove. I guess you two know each other. Jay's attitude had been becoming increasingly less enthusiastic and now he seemed to withdraw from the company completely. Attican blinked at him curiously for a moment. Want some tomatoes? The bag was offered to her mate.
His ears went back as his rump was bumped. He didn't mind it alone but with company it bothered him some. He shrugged it off and settled down,"Yes, I helped him some time ago though our first meeting was .......interesting"he chuckled. He took the offered back and leaned over to give her another kiss on the cheek,"I do thank you love" Turning back to jay he took a bite of the food then tilted his head,"Have they returned?"he asked with a calm voice.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
Jay shook his head at the question, pondering what he meant by interesting. Maybe Daenir wasn't accustomed to being treated as an illusion. "They haven't come back since you....you told them to leave," He didn't understand magic, it didn't help when he treated his delusions as actual creatures, "But they'll always be there. I can see them from time to time out of the corner of my eye. They were too scared to approach though." he muttered, raising his head to look up at the male.
Oh, it was? Attican mused to herself that it was likely impossible to have a first encounter with either of them that wouldn't be interesting. She smiled when her tomatoes were finally accepted.
Her attention bounced between the two of them: first to Phantom, then to Jay. Curiosity burned inside the center of her stomach but she refrained from asking Jay who "they" were and how the Phantom scared them off.
He glanced at his mate from the corner of his eye then chuckled darkly before taking a bite of the dried tomato. He nodded at the buck,"well seems I gave them quite the fright then hmm"he said laughing again. His demeanor was like that of a noblemen at a party. All he lacked was a glass of champagne and a suit. "Though if they ever get the courage to approach you again, come to me"he said with a nod. "At the moment I am secretly working on a charm that you can wear to keep them away permanently"he said looking at his mate for a second to see how she'd respond to this new news before he looked to Jay.
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You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
Permanently? Jay could only stare at him, stuck somewhere between shocked, grateful and confused. Did he mean that? Or was he just playing with him, some sort of amusing game to entertain Attican? Part of his mind said that much, that Daenir might be powerful, but to completely fix his mind? To make him normal? No doctor could do that and keep him sane. Or not an invalid who had to permenantly be taken care of for the rest of their lives. He had to be taken care of, sure, but at least he could still somewhat function. He felt a glimmer of hope, something he hadn't felt in years, rise up in his heart, and the stag could only look away. He didn't want to see if the other's eyes were true to the word, or if they only held some sort of cruel humor.
"Do you really mean that? You could fix my brain?" he questioned in a voice barely above a whisper. They had said that before, that they could fix him, but that was just putting a bandage over the problem without fixing it. They drugged him, tested on him as they tried to isolate the source in his mind without actually going in and cutting specific parts of his brain. They knew that type of thing didn't work on the patients they had tested on. He had been lucky enough to have a doctor who had enough sense to try something new. Granted the end result was something of a controversy. He bit his lower lip and did his best to push those assumptions from his mind. It wasn't for sure, anyway. Maybe they sent him here, knowing that this was his new life. This would fix him; make him something they could be proud of instead of the retarded(used in the literal sense), untrustworthy son he was.
The more the two of them spoke, the more intrigued she became. Her eyes flicked over to try and meet Phantom's when he looked over at her. What were they talking about? How tactless it would be to ask them, but she wanted to know so badly that she felt as if she was going to go crazy staying there any longer.
Rising quickly and smoothly, she excused herself in a hushed voice and meant to move away far enough that the two could speak in privately but she could still see them. Perhaps the two of them would find her exit abrupt and strange--in all honesty, Attican didn't care.
The blue grey stag watched the female suddenly stand and find a reason to leave. Had he said something wrong? Jay pondered over this for several moments, confused. He didn't understand what he did or didn't do, or what he said. Had he insulted her in some way? He tried to wrap his mind around her point of view, but he couldn't think of anything; he didn't know her well enough to know what would or wouldn't upset her.
I'm glad you do! I'm a big Phan myself x)
Her mate/husband is sort of an adaptation or alternative take on the Phantom. If you haven't already checked out his bio, you totally should!
Jay? His name made her smile
"Nice to meet you, Attican,"
She seemed taken back by the
He shrugged, as if it was
Alright then! Attican was
(is tempted to bring in
~ C.S. Lewis
the more the merrier 8>
He looked between her, the
Go for it Orin.
The bag was filled with sun
Why does everyone in this forest look different from each other?
Jay's question floated around in her head. She was quiet as she ruminated over it. I.. don't know, Attican swallowed. There's a whole lot of magic here, though. Maybe that's the reason why there are so many different creatures. Attican held out a few tomatoes in the palm of her hand to see if he wanted to try them.
The sound of hooves near the
~ C.S. Lewis
The stag gave a skeptical
Small frown lines wrinkled at
Hello, lovedove. I guess you two know each other. Jay's attitude had been becoming increasingly less enthusiastic and now he seemed to withdraw from the company completely. Attican blinked at him curiously for a moment. Want some tomatoes? The bag was offered to her mate.
His ears went back as his
~ C.S. Lewis
Jay shook his head at the
Oh, it was? Attican mused to
Her attention bounced between the two of them: first to Phantom, then to Jay. Curiosity burned inside the center of her stomach but she refrained from asking Jay who "they" were and how the Phantom scared them off.
(oh wow that was bad.. I'm sorry)
He glanced at his mate from
~ C.S. Lewis
Permanently? Jay could only
"Do you really mean that? You could fix my brain?" he questioned in a voice barely above a whisper. They had said that before, that they could fix him, but that was just putting a bandage over the problem without fixing it. They drugged him, tested on him as they tried to isolate the source in his mind without actually going in and cutting specific parts of his brain. They knew that type of thing didn't work on the patients they had tested on. He had been lucky enough to have a doctor who had enough sense to try something new. Granted the end result was something of a controversy. He bit his lower lip and did his best to push those assumptions from his mind. It wasn't for sure, anyway. Maybe they sent him here, knowing that this was his new life. This would fix him; make him something they could be proud of instead of the retarded(used in the literal sense), untrustworthy son he was.
The more the two of them
Rising quickly and smoothly, she excused herself in a hushed voice and meant to move away far enough that the two could speak in privately but she could still see them. Perhaps the two of them would find her exit abrupt and strange--in all honesty, Attican didn't care.
The blue grey stag watched
Hey FishBiscuit, Love the
I'm always open to roleplay ^^
Hey there! Aw, thanks a lot
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Love the refence to the
I'm always open to roleplay ^^
I'm glad you do! I'm a big
Her mate/husband is sort of an adaptation or alternative take on the Phantom. If you haven't already checked out his bio, you totally should!
That is a cool name
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I'm always open to roleplay ^^