Record Within Exterior Touched Memories
"Only time will heal.."
P:95% - Fit. | M:100% | Feeling: Energetic, content
March 14th, 2020
Thin and slender after the winter, but happy. Lives a quiet life these days.
Kauna - Albinistic red deer (Cervus elaphus) hind - In her prime - July 2010
Mother Lioness - Serene Elegance - The Silverine - Silverine Hind - Holy White Booty
Daughter to an Emperor - Mother to Many - Sister to Some - Partner to None
Motherly - Independent - Wise - Elegant - Peaceful - Feral - Passionate - Loyal - Protective - Stubborn Affectionate - Brutal
• Her past hold many hidden secrets, some of them have been revealed as her residence here as been continued. Keeps to herself a lot.
• Tends to hide her anger the best ways she can, even when furious she does not raise her voice. It is hard to make her angry in the first place.
• She is a very heavy sleeper and would not wake up if a bomb exploded near her, also she snuffles quite a lot when she sleeps.
• Tries to keep up positive thinking by searching something good in everyone, succeeds almost every time at that. Also will not show negative emotions easily. Smiles even when dying inside.
• A real day dreamer at times, drifts off with her thoughts.
• Does not want to let others down, does anything to prevent that from happening. She will take bullets for her closest ones.
• Time and distance between her and her offspring mean nothing. They are always loved and cherished.
• Is capable of feeling jealousy, very unlikely for her to show it.
• Independent creature that does not need anyone by her side, deals with things well on her own. Does not submiss easily, it's probably the highest gesture you may get from her.
• A wild being that is yet to be tamed.
• Traumatized in many different ways by events and creatures from her past, those things has only made her mentally extremely strong and independent.
• Does not want to be a second choise, prefers leaving the situation when she feels like being someone's second choise or if someone is settling for her company.
• Seeks solitude from time to time.
• During her life she has had to face countless fights in order to stay alive, due to that she has become very experienced fighter.
• Was an experiment, very traumatic experience in so many ways.
• Was taught that needing others is a sign of weakness, yet does not consider others weak if they ask for her help. This way of thinking is valid when she thinks about herself.
• Monoamorous, polygamous.
• Very unlikely to adopt relations. More often takes a fawn under her care than adopts siblings.
•Has adopted two sisters in the past. The bond between them cannot be broken and the depth of the bonds cannot be described by words.
• Always longs for freedom, at times feels trapped in a rather small place like this forest. Unnatural for her to live in captivity.
Serenity. Paradise. Motherhood. Strength & power. Patience. Family. Overcoming traumas. Will power. PTSD. Imperfection. Silk. Felines. Trientalis europaea. Limitlessness. Determination. Summer nights. Sea breeze.
Panu Aaltio - Forgiveness
Finger Eleven - One thing
Colin Hay - Waiting for my real life to begin
Jacob Groth - Forgiveness
Johnny Cash - Solitary man
Johnny Cash - I won't back down
Pink - So what
"Sometimes the strength of a motherhood
is greater than natural laws."
-Barbara Kingsolver
"Damaged people are dangerous,
they know they can survive."
-Josephine Hart
"Solitude vivifies;
isolation kills."
-Joseph Roux
"To be free
is often to be lonely."
-W.H. Auden
• Normal sized red deer hind, elegant and slender. Moves effortlessly and lightly.
• Soft, silky fur colored in pure white, subtle rose colored spots here and there on her back and rump.
• One visible scar on her left shoulder, a gun shot wound healed into a roundish scar.
• Blood red eyes that turn into black whenever she is agitated or furious enough.
• Sharp fangs hidden most of the time, appear when she wishes them to.
• From time to time still wears a dark red ribbon around her muzzle, the ribbon has special qualities. To those who does not know it, it appears as a regular ribbon.
• Her presence is calming and serene, she is in no hurry and takes the time to appreciate her company should she have some.
• Gentle, welcoming look in her eyes.
• Experienced in combat, a force to be reckoned with. Her slender body might fool one to think she is weak and frail. Kicks with power, bites to kill.
• Fast runner, relies heavily on speed and swift movements in case she needs to flee.
• Ruthless when fighting for her of for her loved ones life. A mother lioness.
Joseph † Biological Father; The one she respected the most and looked up to. Warm and loving relationship. Rarely argued. Taught what is important, what to treasure, what to let go. Greatest rolemodel to her. Slaughtered by Jonathan. Forever bitter of. Forever missed.
Sayaka † Biological Mother; The bond between the two was always warn and loving. Sayaka's pride and joy as she was the daughter of the leader and as a hind from the lowest rank she was beyond ecstatic to give birth to a strong white fawn. The birth lifted Sayaka up on the ranking scale, leaving her in the middle cast of the group. Often thinks back on how her mother would handle a conflict, loves endlessly. Forever missed.
Unrevealed Biological Sister; Sharing the same father the two grew close and tight all the way to the day when hell broke loose and everyone were forced to die. Or leave if they were sneaky enough to flee. Managed to flee and since had been watching The Silverine Hind from afar, letting her believe she died among the rest. Reunited in 2015 in the endless forest, however having to part ways as them being together was too much of a risk for both of them. There might still be someone out there wanting the last remains of the herd dead. Cherished bond, fearful of losing her for good. Loved.
Jonathan † Former Partner, Father to Nicholas; Grew up together, shared her life with. First time had deep feelings for someone, feelings described as love. He killed their son and her father. Became obsessed with her and began to hunt her down killing everyone on his way. Loathed him for what he had done. Killed by The Red.
Ehrune Former Partner, Father to Rae and Poika; What she thought was a dream come true turned out to be a nightmare as their views of their relationship were not on the same level. Was taken on a massive guilt trip by the male where her selfesteem and self value sunk too deep for her to handle. The bull is still very much loved and cherished with only good memories in her mind. However feels better and more like herself now that they have parted ways. Respected and adored. 12.10.2012-28.4.2015.
Nicholas Biological Son; First born son. 2008. Once killed by Jonathan leaving the hind shattered and broken, the tiny fawn ended up spending years and years in limbo. Returned years later in the form in which he was killed. Unwilling to let anyone harm him, will protect him with her life. Incapable of losing him again, highly treasured. Grown into a fine stag taking his own paths in life, sees a lot of same traits in him that she once saw in his father, both good and bad.
Kajo Biological Son; Second born son, first one to be born in the forest. 2011. Fathered by The Red. At first unsure how to handle another fawn. After countless ups and downs she gave birth to him. The most treasured creature in the world. Protects with her life and soul. Extremely proud of her baby boy. Sometimes forgets he is all grown up, misses greatly. Often visits him in Scotland.
Naara † Biological Daughter; Third offspring. 2012. Miscarried due to massive mental stress and a series of nervous breakdowns. Every day wonders what she would have been like. Father unknown, Forever bitter for this. Eventually got to the place where she can accept her loss and name her lost child.
Rae Biological Daughter; Fourth offspring, Her little baby girl.2013. Fathered by Ehrune Proud of how strong she has become and what a great mother she is as she takes many helpless fawns under her wing and gives them a chance to live and grow. Amused by how much she reminds her of herself. Likely to be fiercely, brutally protective of. Not to be touched Her first born daughter.
Poika Biological Son; Fifth offspring, third born son. 2014. Fathered by Ehrune. Shares a deep rooted connection due to getting to know him before giving birth to him and being possessed by him. Dangerously protective and possessive of.
Rohan Biological Son; Sixth offspring. 2015. Fathered by The Red. Treasure. Slowly allowing the fawn to discover on his own, keeping an eye on from the distance. Worries often for his overly curious nature. Treasure.
Rhona † Biological Daughter; Seventh offspring. 2015. Fathered by The Red. Precious. Slowly allowing the fawn to discover on her own, keeping an eye on from the distance. Treasure. As of months now she has been struggling with the well being of her daughter, being pushed away, lied and yelled at, being blamed for everything wrong with her life she has absolutely no clue of what she should be doing. Loves her to bits and yet finds it so incredibly hard to love her while Rhona does everything to make her stop loving her daughter. Wishes for the best for her, but has mentally prepared herself for the worst. Deceassed on the 3rd of October 2016. Heartbroken. Source of bitterness.
Svolnir Biological Son; Eighth offspring. 2016. Fathered by Ehrune. Her evening star, her one last child. Protected with all she's got, fiercely and brutally protective of.
Mesi Biological Daughter; Nineth offspring. 2019. Fathered by Eldridge. Accident, bringer of joy.
Clementine Biological Daughter; Tenth offspring. 2019. Fathered by Eldridge. Accident, bringer of life.
Starling Non-Biological Sister; Best friend. As time went by those two grew more close to each other. Highly respected. Owes her life to. Without Starling Kauna would not be here anymore, forever thankful. Would protect with her life no matter the situation. Forever loyal, Inseparable.
Waarhijd Non-Biological Sister; Best friend. Touched deeply by the black butterfly. Would keep the doe safe at all costs. Has always been able to go to her when needed a shoulder to cry on or anything else she can think of. Loyal until the very end.
Nat-Nat Non-Biological Daughter; Very special to her, very high motherly tendencies around the ghost. Would protect her at all costs. Treasures. Treats as if she was her own blood. Loves ever so deeply even though time has come between them and they don't see each other so often anymore.
Neah Non-Biological Daughter; Delicate little flower. Kauna fell in love with the little one immediately when she found her. Took her under her wing and raised her as one of her own. Would have done anything in her power to protect her and keep her happy. Fiercely protective of. Living her life in another forest, wishes to find her way to visit her.
Liam Biological Grandson; 2013. Proud to call him her grandson, ready to help him with anything and everything. There is something in him that she has once known. Living in Scotland, visits him every now and again. Son to Kajo.
Herne Biological Grandson; 2014. Source of pride and hope. Son to Kajo.
Naomh † Biological Granddaughter, fathered by Nicholas. Born as a stillborn, great tragedy to both her and her son as his first and only fawn was a stillborn. Forever missed and wondered how she would have been, what she would have looked and where the life would have taken her.
Nilo Biological Grandson. Mothered by Rae. 2013. Extremely protective of. Watches over from the distance as he has grown up. Worries greatly now that he has gone missing. Assumed deceased.
Aina Biological Granddaughter, mothered by Rae. 2013. Extremely protective of. Has witnessed her strength and will countless times, knowing she will pull through anything. Has noticed her isolate herself from the rest of the family, often seeks out and encourages to go out there and enjoy some family time.
Notus Noel Biological Grandson, mothered by Rae. 2014. Watched over when mother was not around. Cherished.
Luso Lavien Biological Grandson, mothered by Rae. 2014. Saw a bit less compared to his brother Notus, but watched over nevertheless. Cherished.
Raelle Biological Granddaughter, mothered by Rae. 2016. Will do all in her power to keep safe. Not to be harmed.
Ronja Biological Granddaugter, mothered by Rae. 2016. Will do all in her power to keep safe. Not to be harmed.
Faolan Biological Grandson, mothered by Rae. 2016. Feeling a somewhat odd bond with the crippled fawn. Will do all in her power to keep safe. Not to be harmed.
Lyre Biological Granddaughter, mothered by Rae. 2017. Latest addition to the family, blinded by the beauty the little one holds. Not to be harmed, will be protected with everything she has.
Vrath Biological Grandson, from Rhona. 2017. Questions her decision to abandon her own son but does not judge her for this. Watches from afar, hoping to see him bloom. Dying inside as she cannot represent her as his grandmother, loves the child to bits.
Dalaigh> Biological Grandson, fathered by Rohan. 2016. Only got to know him when he was already a yearling, high hopes for the boy.
Daimhin Biological Granddaughter, fathered by Rohan. 2016. Only got to know her when she was a yearling, twin to Dalaigh. High hopes for the girl.
Devorah Biological Granddaughter, fathered by Rohan. 2020. Not to be harmed.
Dionysus Biological Grandson, fathered by Rohan. 2020. Not to be harmed.
Sasuda Biological Great grandson, mothered by Aina. 2016. Will do all in her power to keep safe. Not to be harmed.
Adler Biological Great grandson, fathered by Nilo. 2016. Not to be harmed.
HawthornGreat grandson, fathered by Nilo. 2016. Not to be harmed.
Locust Great granddaughter, fathered by Nilo. 2016. Not to be harmed.
Ren Great grandson, fathered by Nilo. 2016. Not to be harmed.
Lamia Great grandson, fathered by Nilo. 2016. Not to be harmed.
Raja Great granddaughter, from Ronja. Not to be touched. Protege. 2018.
Bela Great grandson, from Aina. Not to be touched. Loved. 2020.
Addler Great grandson, from Aina. Not to be touched. Loved. 2020.
The Red † Father to Kajo; First one to meet when entering the forest and since the day he has been a highly respected and valued relation. A hero in her eyes after killing the one who wanted to slaughter her. Time and distance apart had an effect on their relationship and is still trying to rekindle with him but the success has been very little as she finds herself navigating away from the stag more and more each day. Unease in his company.
Auxentius Former Nest Leader; Close Friend. She was a part of his nest. Holds great respect towards. Shocked to see the owl leave the forest. Nevertheless, has a place in her heart. Gone.
Little GoatUnspoken Daughter-figure; A sweet child she watched to grow up. Still, feels motherly around her and is more than willing to take care of her. Fell in love with at the first sight, fiercely protective of. Hasn't seen in a while, misses.
Ella Charge; Daughter to Eórra and Ehrune. Has watched her grow ever since she was born, the one of the triplets that has stuck around the most. Has protected her no matter what. Proud of. Seen as one of her own due to the fawns constant presence and sticking to her during her fawnhood.
Eorlien Charge; Daughter to Eórra. Proud of the doe she has begun. Time and distance does not break the bond, always loved.
Sevigne Charge; Daughter to Maria. Has taken the little fawn under her watchful eye, feeds her if need be. Often worries for her being so fragile but knows even the small ones can grow strong. Family. Deceassed on the 27th of August 2016. Resurrected.
Gwlithlys Charge; Like one of her own. Fierce little thing filled with energy. Family. A sight for sore eyes, and what a beautiful thing she's grown into.
Cedrelya Unspoken Daughter-figure; Has somewhat deep motherly tendencies around the doe, even though she is already a young doe. Holds very close to her heart and would do anything to protect her if needed. Will be by her side no matter the time or place. Gone?
Achilles Son-in-law. Loved and cherished, forever thankful for protecting his family from disaster. Knows she can trust the buck.
Djinn Confidant, close friend. Over time grew great trust towards the brown doe. Considered family and a part of the herd. Highly protective of even though knows the doe can very well protect herself. Admiration. Adoration. Developed to be one of the only few she would trust her life to.
Saosin † Source of great hatred, heartbreak and bitterness. Abused, manipulated and got her daughter pregnant without her suspecting a thing as he was one to help her raise her. The Silverine is unable to understand the entire concept of the abuse and most likely will keep her mind out of it for her own sanity's sake. The inferno found a way to turn the usually forgiving and understanding hind into a bloodthirsty, merciless Lion Mother. All the respect she once held for him is far gone and buried with her child's corpse.
Before the Forest; The exact date of her birth is unknown, assumed year is 2007. She was born into a large herd to the leader and a high rank doe. Her upbringing was ordinary, playing and sparring among the other fawns her age, including a buck called Jonathan. Found partnership and intimicy with the stag later on, after the first rut she took part in and became pregnant from him. Gave birth to a healthy melanistic male fawn and named him Nicholas. Nicholas met his doom rather early as Jonathan murdered him as his first act to tae down the entire herd. The White escaped the herd to survive, fled from the monster she used to care for.
Autumn 2010; Entered The Forest for the first time, stumbling across it during her search for a new home. Not long after her arrival she would get acquainted with a few individuals who later on became the reason for her existence (The Red, Waarhijd, Starling, Auxentius). The three latter along with The White formed a tight knitted group called The Nest where she was offered the role of a leading doe.
The first rut in the new Forest came around fairly soon after her arrival and shared intimacy with The Red for the first time.
Winter 2010; The snow decorated the forest floor and as the winter grew colder, her belly began to grow bigger. The White was faced with the reality of being pregnant again. The more she thought about the life growing within her womb, the more anxious and fearful she became. Could she birth a fawn and guide them through the early days of their life? Would her past come to haunt her again?
Along the way took a few small ones under her wing to watch over them, Nat-Nat, Neah and Ceredlya. Treated all of them like they were her own, proud and loved.
Spring 2011; During the early months of spring, late winter the doe gave birth to an albino male fawn who she named Kajo. Healthy and happy fawn was more than she could have asked for and with the help from The Red she raised him.
Her life took a drastic turn when she learnt about the massacre in her homelands, where her father had passed along with most of her former herd members, family and friends. Her world collapsed then and there.
Summer 2011; The warmer season was spent with her son, helping him to get on his feet, watching him grow and get stronger. During the time spent some time with another doe, Kiyoko as they both were raising their fawns. Calm before the storm.
Autumn 2011; The change of the season was there again and she began to establish her position as the leading doe among the herd in the forest. She was not exactly looking to take the role but others seemed to navigate toward her and follow her lead.
One night she slipped away from the forest briefly to visit another, only to realize how safe her current one was. A larger male forcefully mounted her after a long chase and had his way with her, leaving her both mentally and physically scarred.
Winter 2011; Winter came around like any other. The doe had a growing concern over her somewhat enlargened abdomen and already knew she was carrying again. The doe prepared herself to raise the fawn with all the love in the world. How it came to exist wasn't the fawn's fault anyway.
Spring 2012; During the last month of winter the doe miscarried her fawn after suffering from endless breakdowns and anxiety. The doe wanted nothing to do with her fawn she had to deliver lifeless. Left the underdeveloped corpse of her fawn to the predators to devour and would not speak of her ever again.
A tragedy followed another when her former lover found his way to the forest as he was looking for her in order to kill her. Encountered him a few times during the spring and their last meeting ended badly for the doe. The two fought, but the seemingly larger male won, knocking the doe unconscious and was dragged away from the forest. In the heat of the battle her crimson ribbon fell off, giving others even the slightest of opportunities to find her.
Summer 2012; At the turn of the seasons the doe had been taken to an abandoned, lifeless lowland and left to die there with nothing to eat and drink. She had been severely beaten up and unable to move around much. The White was prepared for her life to end then and there. Luckily, the ribbon was found by Starling who quickly learned how to navigate to The White with the ribbon, reaching her just in time and brought her home barely alive. Forever grateful for the crimson doe, swore to her there was nothing she wouldn't do for her.
Slight worry grew within The White's heart as her son had been gone for longer than he had ever been before. Joyous at their reunion, learning her fawn had grown old enough to travel on her own. Proud mother.
Autumn 2012; The news of Auxentius leaving and The Nest being incomplete without him reached the doe early in the autumn. The Nest was no longer the same after his disappearance. As for Starling times were rough and The White did her best to be there for her through the rough patch.
The Rut arrived again per usual, the doe was thriving and full of life after surviving the ordeal during the summer. The season brought new faces to her life, one in particular who she fancied quite a lot. Ehrune. Fearful of the feelings he sparked in her heart, making her insecure.
Winter 2012; Once more the doe had gotten pregnant, this time around by a bull she had a soft spot for. Against her nature she found herself irritated by the fact that there were going to be more fawns sired by the bull and butted heads with him about the subject a couple of times. Not long after the two became exclusive, making Ehrune her lover and a partner.
Spring 2013; The couple had spent a quiet winter together after deciding to devote their time to one another, she was a happy lady. The doe found herself seeking refuge within the thickets in the Birch forest more often than not and claimed a spot to be her new hiding place. In those thickets she gave birth to her daughter, Rae.
After being an overbearing mother for Kajo, the doe decided to raise her little daughter a little more freely. The doe would do as her mother had done with her; hide the fawn among the tall grass and watch over her from a short distance. At the time being helped to raise Ehrune's other fawns from the previous rut, Ella and Eorlien.
Summer 2013;Watchful over her daughter, the doe was in awe of the small lady she had grown into and began growing high hopes for the small one. Dreaming of her one day taking over the herd. Summer brought an unexpected visitor to the forest, her very first grandson sired by Kajo. Liam. The doe took him under her wing and showed him the ways of the forest, thrilled to find out that her son was doing great wherever he had settled.
Autumn 2013; As the seasons change and her offspring keep growing up, her mind began to drift to the one she had lost not long ago, the one she had not named yet. Felt incredibly guilty about the whole situation and named her lost fawn. Naara. The doe made peace with her loss.
During the rut the herd was flourishing, Rae had joined them to watch how the event worked and she was happy to teach her, happy to have her daughter judge with her. Throughout the season no one impressed her like her lover had, proudly standing by his side.
Winter 2013; That winter was very different from those prior. The fawn in her womb was different in many ways. Before his birth she had already created a deeply rooted connection with him. At first startled by it, but soon learnt to embrace it. The bigger the fawn grew in her womb the more it was in control of her feelings and actions, making her distance herself from others almost entirely. The doe became unnaturally protective of her unborn son, borderline insane.
As the year was closing in learnt about her daughter's pregnancy. Frowned upon the situation due to her young age, but was quick to remember she herself hadn't been much older when she had her first fawn. The doe promised to support her and help her with whatever she would need. Not long after she would witness the birth of her two grandchildren, Aina and Nilo. Proud grandmother.
Spring 2014; Spending the last months of her pregnancy almost in complete solitary the doe had changed drastically personality wise. The ever so gentle and loving doe had become ruthless and rude. In solitude she gave birth to a dark male fawn. Poika.
With the help from Rae the unhealthy bond between the mother and her son was broken and returned to a level of a normal mother-son relationship. Thankful. During the spring time heard the news of another grandson from Kajo, Herne. They got acquainted much later, though.
Summer 2014; The summer went by raising her son and watching over while her daughter raised her twins. The doe was joyful that her son was growing well, but the conditions of her two grandchildren brought worry to her life. Nilo was struggling with colorblindness and Aina was haunted by a wolf creature the fawn had named Segolia.
As the summer was coming to an end the twin's father, Achilles, figured out what Segolia was and who had sent her to haunt the young fawn. It was his father, Thanatos, who had sent Segolia up from Hell to torment the family.
Autumn 2014; Received the news of Achilles and his son were heading down to Hell to fight Thanatos and in the meantime Aina would fight Segolia above. The doe allowed her granddaughter fight her own battles, ready to jump in should she need it. The trio was successful, even though suffered some damage while fighting.
Before the rut in Forest, the doe paid a visit to her dear friend in Scotland returning in time to partake in the seasonal event. For her surprise she found her daughter had another set of twins, Luso and Notus.
Winter 2014; The doe was ever so proud of her first born daughter as Rae gave birth to another set of twins, two identical boys. This time around the doe had no need to worry since she already knew her daughter would do A+ job raising the small ones.
During the cold season the doe experienced immense pain in her abdomen, assuming she had miscarried the fawn she was carrying. Heartbroken and shameful.
Spring 2015; The spring came with both good and bad news for the doe, she had not miscarried her fawns, two out of three had made it. Her partner being absent during the previous autumn and during the rut, they butted heads hard about her state and ended up parting ways after three year long partnership. The doe was heartbroken once more and traveled to her homelands to give birth to the twins. Her initial idea was to raise them there and not return to the Forest, but decided against it. The doe took her twins to the forest after reuniting with her sister.
Summer 2015; Time went by raising her newest younglings alongside with a motherless fawn The Red had brought to the Forest from Scotland. Took her under her wing and raised her like one of her own. Another doe had joined their group with her daughter, Maria and Sevigne. Times were good, and yet she longed for her lost relationship with Ehrune more than she would ever like to admit.
Autumn 2015; The seasons changed and the doe grew more accustomed to being a free soul once more. This rut was the first time when she really let her first born daughter try out her wings as The Silverine handed the leadership of the herd to her, watching from afar how Rae would lead. The Matriarch crown still rested on her own white shoulders and would continue to do so until her death.
Winter 2015; After the rut and a brief encounter with her former partner she spent the winter traveling in her homelands, getting back to her roots and trying to find peace within. The cold season brought more fawns with it, witnessed the birth of her first great grandchild as Aina gave birth to Sasuda, a beautiful male fawn.
Even with the happy events the doe was losing her grip on the forest and was struck by wanderlust, family was her greatest reason to return to the woods and the attempt to rebuild their relationship with Ehrune was another.
Spring 2016; Just when the flowers were lifting their heads from the frost bitten ground the doe gave birth to a healthy male fawn, Svolnir. Proudly introduced him to his father Ehrune. At the birth of her newest son the relationship between The Silverine and The Red Swan, Rhona, was growing sour. Did everything in her power to keep her daughter feeling loved and appreciated but the youngling seemed to do anything to annoy the doe.
Later in the spring the doe and Svolnir left the Forest to visit her homelands where she would teach her son about life and surviving. On their journey she discovered Rohan had been busy and started a herd of his own, welcoming the new twins to the family, Dalaigh and Daimhin. In the meantime she left her daughter raise her newest additions to the family, Raelle, Ronja and Faolan, mostly on her own, helping her where she could.
Summer 2016;Early summer when traveling in her homelands with Svolnir she was shot. They were frolicking in the meadows, enjoying their life when a hunter caught a sight of her pure white pelt and aimed directly at her, hitting her shoulder. The doe was wounded and yet her main goal was getting her son out of the situation and back to the Forest. The situation resolved once the two made it back to the Forest. The doe was left with a limp on her front right leg.
Her legacy kept on going with the birth of many great grandchildren. Aina gave birth to Sasuda, and Nilo fathered a few of his own; Adler, Hawthorn, Locust, Ren and Lamia. Ronja gave birth to Raja.
Autumn 2016;Seasons changed and the doe let herself slip on the backseat of the fall events, leaving room for those younger than her and wilder than her. The first age crisis for the doe as it was inevitable that she was getting older and older day by day, year after year.
Winter 2016;Began to notice the change in her dear friend and was dreadful to think about the worst. The doe had deep mixed feelings about the pregnant younglings around her, secretly longing to carry more fawns. Rather uneventful winter.
Spring 2017; Not long after the years had turned again the downfall for the doe slowly lifted its head in a form of losing a old friend, the father of her many children. The Red. The loss was more than she could handle, losing a piece of herself and her heart with him. Thankfully there was a small spark of hope with the arrival of another granddaughter by Rae, Lyre.
Summer 2017; It was a season she would definitely remember for always. The birth of a grandson, Vrath. During the time could not celebrate the birth of her grandson since he had been taken in by Elliot and Åsleif, pretending Åsleif was his mother. Disgusted by the entirety of the situation, Rhona disowning her daughter and the fact that the doe could not have a proper relationship with her grandson.
Autumn 2017;The rut went by without the doe participating it the fullest, still affected by the season but refused all and every bachelor candidates as the losses were too great for her to handle prior to the rut.
The beginning of a serious mental downhill for the elder doe.
Winter 2017;The elder doe tried to balance between being a good mother to Svolnir and others, and rekindling their bond with Rhona which turned out to be a mission impossible. Their relationship with Rhona ate her alive as she wanted nothing more than them to be oon good terms, like a mother and a daughter should be. Her mental health began to shatter as she was clueless of what to do.
Spring 2018; The tragic death of her daughter Rhona. Not long after her daughter's death she learnt what had lead into it, making the doe nearly explode with hatred and anger toward someone she had relied on all these years. Saosin, The Inferno. Lashed out at the much larger stag, threatening to kill him should he ever touch one of her family members again. The hardest winter yet for the doe, everything seemed to be collapsing on her and her will to live was closing in non-existent. The darkness and the cold seemed never ending as the doe found herself very much alone. A blurry season and a period of time.
Summer 2018;The burdens and her package seemed to slowly grow lighter as time went by, still struggling to find her place in the Forest as everyone she had known had vanished one way or another or visited the Forest so rarely that she never ran into them.
Dug deep and hard to find something to live for, she wasn't ready to fully give up yet no matter what the demons in her head told her. She would fit in and thrive again.
Autumn 2018; Something within the doe clicked once more and she found new energy and will to live. The silverine decided to partake in the rut again even though none of the familiar faces from the past were present anymore. The feeling of the season had changed a lot compared to what it was since she first entered the forest. Found herself in the company of Raavas and Eldridge more than once. Old habits die hard, she still fancied the larger males it seems.
Winter 2018;The winter brought new kind of challenges for the elder doe. Previously she had had it easy gaining weight prior to the winter to make it easier for her to survive the harsh season. The doe had not gained enough weight and struggled some with her pregnancy. However, spent every waking moment searching for food to keep the fawn growing and healthy, determined to deliver good fawns.
Spring 2019;The birth of her twin girls was a joyful occasion for her, giving her hope that her body would still endure the fight that was forming a new life and carrying it full time. Showcased the two fawns to their father, Eldridge, with pride. Babied the two fawns more then ever, spoiling them and giving them all the love her heart had to offer. Mesi and Clementine.
Summer 2019; Time was spent mostly caring for Mesi and Clementine, teaching them the ways of the forest while giving them more and more space to become independent. As they grew her thoughts turned to the upcoming autumn and the events it brings. Hopeful.
Autumn 2019; The season turns and her instincts thrive stronger, though damp down quickly as the feeling of being too old hits her hard. Found comfort in the company of Arcturus; someone she used to admire from afar.
Winter 2019; Not much happened, spent most of her time caring for her family or with Arcturus. Quiet times, she likes it.
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Ah! I wondered where she
Weell, if you run the game in a window (check the box in 'Display' section in game and reboot the game) you can both play and browse internet at the same time. Makes things a lot easier, heh. (8
Yep, Kauna can be really playful at times but most of the time she is calm and stuff.
I also spotted you have a RP blog and your deer's bio you wondered if anyone is up for a RP. -raises hand- Feel free to post an intro or starting line here and I will happily reply. I suck at starting RP's so.. :'D
That was just what I did (run
Concerning Rp, I'm really glad you want to start one with me :>. And ... I already submitted a RP blog (I just noticed the link I gave on my bio didn't work .. Erf !).
So feel free to join me here :>
Hmm. Do you minimize the game
I will post something to your RP blog tomorrow once I am not this tired anymore (:
Don't worry, I totally
So I'll try it next time :>.
Ok for the RP ! I'm too tired to RP now too xD
I hope my advice worked. I am
Ha ha, it's the same for me,
Good night my dear .
Your little Kauna appear in
She diid? o: I better go
White...and red. On a
These were the only comprehensible things in the black creature's mind- the one that stumbled slowly through the distant trees toward her, its claws scraping and dragging. This made its presence known, easily. It didn't even notice. White and red, white and red...
The albino was grazing as she
What was it ?
another track ♥
Nnn, Thankyouu. ♥
I updated the place of Kauna
I checked it and I melted.
Ohhh, you didn't have to ! It
You are too kind. c': I love
I love RPing with you, too. You're really good at it.
That's strange, because I've
If you hadn't mentioned that
It's good to know ! lol I'll
You're so good at it too, no doubt about that ... I read some RP here, and I think you're one of the better ones ... So I'm glad to have the possibility to do it with you ^^.
You spoil me with your
Gaaaah, stop blushing, I'll
^^
♥
♥
Thank you for the track.
[e:] Ouu! And hello again, didn't see your fawn returning to Kau's side. :'>
Welcome ^^ My connection not
My connection not going very well lately.
It's not stable, huh? I have
At least I have been able to
Yep, that's what matters. And
Yes, c:
Sorry for Kauna sleeping most
XD don't worry, I'm seeing
You are ? If I remember
It is costing me see it. I
Pfft. It was Asian Vision's
They're movies are so gewd.
I don't know. I only see it
I only see it by that made it me see my brothers. :3
Ahh. Okay then. c:
Ced is also happy to met
D'aww. ♥ Ced just
Ced just brightens up Kaukau's dayy.
Owwww, that's cute :'). And
And I suppose it's much appreciated during a rainy day xD.
Ohyeash, even though she
Gaah, Ced love rain too ... I
Only thing prettier in the
Sorry for Kau being so inactive. I'm running between stairs to help people out with stuff. ;___;
Ow, I would love to see that
Don't worry, I imagine that your busy . A deer is near Ced and Kau. Ced is too much protective with Kauna (maybe really too much xD). She's too possessive, erf !
It is so, so beautiful.
I noticed when he lowered his antlers at them, thought that if he continued that, Kau would have woken up and shown him who's the boss around here, hah. :'>
Aaww, she is? Meh, I think it's just cute. <:
You're the Big Boss, mwahaha
Erf, there are too many deers around us ... Ced hates that, that's why she's sitting near the tree.
Phah, there are quite many
Is it true ? xD ... Strange,
Yeah. Sorry for Kau running
Sorry for Kau running off like that. She just spotted her son in the distance and forgot everything else as she ran to him. :'D
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