07NOV20 I hear whispers... Do you? |
About The Many Many Am I H-Hello? I am lost. I am frightened. I... I am the first. I am Pink. I am the Controller, I am the puppet-string puller. I am the brother, the mentor. I am the comforter to Pink and only Pink. I hear nobody else. I was the Second. I am called Blue. I am the Ob-observer. I am the watcher, the see-seer and the analy-lyst. I am your personal F-Freud. I was the Third. I am called Purple. I am the Soldier. I am the protector and the fighter. I crave stability, order and sanity. I side with those who are right, and I serve unto them. I refuse to be belittled by colors less vivid than I. I was the Fourth. I am called Red. I am the Reason. I am the calm, the control. I will not stand by and watch our voices fall. I will be heard. I was the Fifth. I am called White. I am rhythm, I am rhyme Speak only truth; be it lemon or lime Sixth I am in this strange game Orange, yes, that is my name. I am the Dark. I am the sneering, snarling voice in the back of your head. I am the cold coil of fear that crawls, winds and burns through your thoughts. I exist to bring misery. I was the Seventh. I am called Black. I am the Fun I am the Comedian, and Trickster. I'm the party animal. I'm the tease. And I was the Eighth. I am called Green. I am the Curiosity. I am constant, I am change. I am sanity, I am derranged. I am life and I am learning, The explorer always yearning. I am woman, I am fellow. I was Ninth. I am Yellow. I am the Shade. I am lurking. The spinner of webs. Nothing but a whisper. I will come to you when it is silent. I am the Tenth. I am called Grey. They call me Teal. I am the eleventh. I am the accuser; all intentions are bad. I am the paranoid; all are an enemy but one. I am scared and alone, but will never say it. I want help out of here, but will never admit it. I am the twelfth, The Hanged Man I am beyond what others can I am the different point of wiew But what's the price of the true? Everyone think I'm off my head They don't see, don't understand I've been told I am Brown Untill I will stay upiside down. I am the Luckless One I am the indecisive I am the unsecure I ask the questions But I can never answer them I am the Unlucky Number I am called Fir And I am Thirteenth I am the ever watchful They say I was Fourteenth Something that can't be solved with science? Something logic cannot prove? Such a thing I've never seen. Whether pouring from a fountain. Or hanging from a noose. I am the unknowable knowledge. They say that my name is Chartreuse Hello. I am the Nothing and I am the Everyone. I am the reflection in a mirror, trying to help you see yourself. "Umber" is the name, and they say that I am the "Fifteenth." Goodbye. I like treats! I like games! I like you! Wont you play with me? With a child's mind yet an old soul. I am sweet Sixteenth, I am Violet. I am the seductive temptress I am lustful I am sly I am secretive My intentions are unknown I am Rust I am Seventeen I am the rowdy. I am the normal. I am the goofy. I'm just a guy. My name is Olly. As in 'Oliver'. I am the Eigteenth. Ah... um... I'm me... Why are you staring? Did I do something wrong? Um... I just want them to be happy... But... I guess I'm helpless.. and weak... and spineless... I'm sorry... I... um... I'm Kyanos I guess I'm the nineteenth I am the romantic. I am the dreamer. I am the thinker and the architect, the creator and the artist. I am caring, yet selective. I am the heart, and I was the twentieth. I am Tangerine. I am the sunshine, on those gloomy days I am warmth, friendship, I am the optimist, the light at the end of the tunnel I am the twenty-first, my name is Canary. Title Three Three Title Four Four Title Five Five |
Of course, Brown. How can I
How can I deny a color as modest and humble as you are? You put a servant like me to shame, truly.
I will still continue to watch over those inside
Just to keep them safe...
And in turn, I'll keep you safe as well
... Quite spacious out here
Quite spacious out here isn't it.
Pity, really.
It doesn't quite the...
intamacy there is inside.
...
However, a break could be nice.
You get used to it after a
Actually, the silence is really quite rewarding...
One of the few times that eighteen other screaming voices aren't in my ears...
I...I am sorry. I've been so
I've been so very distracted by all of the space out here.
It is so open, so free...
I must admit, I am almost frightened.
I am also quite saddened to know that you will not join me Red.
You've been quite a good friend in this short time.
Maybe you will decide to choose the peace and quiet of the outside?
I know that I desperately want to, but even now I can imagine their bickering, driving Pink to madness!
Maybe...Oh am I really thinking this!
Maybe I should return?
They are so lost and will only destroy each other...
Eighteen?
There are more...?
White... I would never
I would never completely leave you.
As for the others well...
I have a feeling everything is breaking apart at the seams
And there are nineteen, to be exact.
But the new ones are pretty much harmless.
Pardon my composure. It is
It is just so...open out here.
I think it is making me far too anxious but...
It's so free.
And I am glad to hear that Red.
You have been one of the few calm voices of reason among the throng.
I hold a great respect for that.
Reason is so...atrophied among our brethren.
Nineteen?
Is there never to be an end to it all?
It must be so crowded...I wish I could show them how it feels to be out here and so free.
Maybe...maybe you and I should do that Red.
Maybe we should show them.
Or perhaps I am finally becoming as mad as the lot of them.
Hah! Wouldn't that be a lark!
... With all due respect,
With all due respect, White... I think you should stay here.
Unless you think this airy space is becoming too much for you
Too much of something can kill you.
And many of them are too cowardly to go out.
Trackin'~ *flails*
Rust, are you out here? None
None inside will listen - only shout!
I want to find some popcorn.
Not in the least! I quite
I quite like it out here all open and free!
Perhaps I run the risk of death, but this is a death I do believe I would take to with passion.
Do you still intend to return to that...circus?
I fear I will never be able to return.
And inside I hold the darkest glee at that thought.
Does that make me terrible my friend?
I'm beginning to think that it does.
Oh great... they're filtering
And White... that's only even more evidence that we're... human?
We're not just colors, you know.
I'll only go because I feel it's my duty to do so.
But I'll always come out here to visit you...
You do not know how happy it
That you will visit that is.
I am not so certain the filtering through pleases me but then again...
Maybe it is for the best that they begin to move from the depths of Pink's insanity.
Tell me, has the little loon truly stepped over the edge of madness yet or do I have a while yet to wait before she destroys all of them?
Do me one favor Red, try not to be there when she does.
I would be...quite saddened by that loss.
You are a good friend.
What is this 'Human'?
Why wouldn't I? You're the
You're the only one I like, White.
Don't worry about me.
I can fight for myself... and I would never let some flimsy watered down version of myself destroy me.
And Pink... well... she's snapped. Flew over the cuckoo's nest, really.
I think I can hear her even from here...
Human...
I... don't know...
It's just a word that came up in my head...
I was hoping you would know...
I've no idea really, trouble
You've not let me down yet, even in your more crass moments.
I've quite a fondness for you as well.
Purely of a friendship nature!
Of course...
Well! I can not say that I am surprised about the situation with Pink.
It really was only a matter of time.
She's far to stubborn a thing to let sense rein her mind.
I trust you to hold your own Red, really I do, but I still worry for you.
You've stuck by through the worst of it all, I do have the right to worry.
It...sounds familiar.
It feels almost right on my tongue.
Almost pleasant, but that does little to tell me what it is.
Perhaps in time one of us will recall?
I have a feeling there is much we are not seeing, remembering...
That troubles me far, far to much.
I'm glad to see that I've
I admit... I get out of hand. But why wouldn't I?
Red knows no bounds...
But at least I can keep up my service to y-...
Oh right...
You don't want me to serve you...
...
I wish I could... Being without order is driving me mad
I promise I'll be alright. It's really only Black and Pink we have to worry about, after all.
Yes, I know...
It troubles me that I can't remember.
I remember almost nothing...
But aren't we nothing, White?
Aren't we just figments of Pink?
If...if it would bring you a
I simply abhor the thought of you feeling as though I hold a higher authority.
I find you my equal, Red.
NO.
We are NOT figments of that mad beast!
You and I, we are beings in our own right!
She, it has no say over us.
I have feelings, hopes, dreams, pains and pleasures, do you not?
How can we not be real if that is the case?
I can not accept it.
We are REAL.
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...Thank you... I'm sorry. I
I'm sorry. I don't have the mindset...
I don't know much about friendship... but a relationship with a master is often just as, if not closer.
I won't disappoint you White.
You've made me very happy... it still feels strange...
...
I can't remember anything...
I have feelings, yes...
But no real hopes...
or dreams...
the only pleasure I have is in your friendship
and the only pain is Black.
Otherwise... there's nothingness.
...May I confide something to you, White? Just you alone?
...
I'm terrified for the future
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[e]NEVER MIND. I had a derp there ^^"
lol, no worries. ^^ I'm
I'm still catching up on it all. xD
Yellow! Yellow, I am here. It
It appears as if things are becoming worse inside.
Perhaps I was right to leave.
...
I still feel the urge to go back.
What is this obsession with popcorn?
Red, the protector.
You should find another.
Another ready to give their lives for you and vice versa.
My lighter hue, perhaps then...
Perhaps then you will find more than friendship in white and pain in black.
I hope you don't mind me
Edit; Guh. Forgot to log out ;;
I am so very sorry my dearest
It is exhilarating.
No hopes?
No dreams?
This can not be true dear Red.
How can any continue on without a reason?
I am reason.
I am calm, collected thoughts, I am
PURPOSE.
I do not want to see you fall into a hole of servitude living only for a master.
I want you to live, to laugh, to love...
...to exist.
I truly want that for you my friend.
Oh how I do...
Dear White... of course you
I, on the other hand, am a soldier.
That is all I know.
To be put of of my circle, to exist on an equal plane with you... I'm ashamed to say that I cannot even imagine it. The very thought, while not unnerving, is... strange.
I don't think of it as a hole.
I think of it as the only happiness I know.
...
I've never laughed.
What is 'laughing'?
It frustrates me that I don't know.
Oh White...
If it will make you happy to hear me 'laugh'... then I will learn how to do so.
I must.
We already exist, White... But... it is not the sort of existence that I would want. It pains me that I can only listen to your voice, and not see your form.
This is marvelous. The best
Most definitely tracking.
A soldier? No dearest Red, I
No dearest Red, I think of you as a warrior.
Soldiers need a guide, a controller.
You need nothing of the sort.
You protect without orders, guard without command.
You are a guardian.
If you know of happiness, then how do you not know of laughter?
Laughter is the truest expression of happiness that I know.
It is the sound of pure joy one expresses in the moment of their greatest happiness.
Perhaps we should delve deeper my friend, delve deeper and find what truly makes you happy?
To make you happy would make me happy.
Then we could laugh together...
Form?
I am formed in the words I speak, in the voice I command.
Can you not see me as I am?
As a tumble of words roiling in the dark?
I am ever so white...
Hello? HELLO? I think I've
HELLO?
I think I've wandered too far...
Rust?
Red?
Kyanos?
WHITE?
Is anyone here?
I haven't found an answer
or even ONE popcorn.
...Oh dear.
Oh... Deer?
Are you...
Dancing?
For a King?
How does this go...
Let me try.
One-two, one-two,
Ka-ding, ka-ding,
Do I hear music?
How strange!
Tracking of course. Whoever
/side-eyes but who is it that
but who is it that we're sharing space with?
Oh the curiosity!
That was non other than us
That sure was a silly
♥
. [my apologies, I made a
[my apologies, I made a mistake]
interesting...
~ C.S. Lewis
Little mushrooms, little
teeny-tiny fawn!
Wait to cast, wait to cast,
rain goes on and on!
I think I've slept for far, far too long.