The Crippled Butterfly [Nidhem]

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WARNING: This bio can contain mature themes. Do not read if you feel offended by this.


The Crippled Butterfly







"You have always approached everything terrible trustfully.
You have wanted to pet every monster."







OOC Notes
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Updates

"♥"


14.8.2020
Still out of the forest. Camping with Krowe, learning new skills such as hunting with guns and cooking the catches. Learning about each other in subtle ways as they go. Learned his true name being Krowe yet prefers to call him 'Woof'. Having a fun, happy summer for the first time in so long. At the same time hopes Talla is alright. Can't wait to come back and tell her of his adventures.


22.6.2020
HAPPY 10TH BIRTHDAY NID!
You're so grown up now and I couldn't be more proud of how you've developed along the way. My most precious baby boy, keep on going strong ♥

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Currently spending time outside the forest with Krowe.









Basics


Name Nidhem
Alias Nid, cripple, squirt, kid, mutt, three-legged
Pictogram x
Gender Buck
Orientation Male inclination
Age Often seen as a child due to his disability, but is actually a young adult.
Day of Birth 22.06.2010
Day of Registration 25.01.2011
Size small
Species Unknown mix
Sign Cancer, Metal Tiger
Voice Young Simba
Sounds growl-warning screech-content purr/squeak
Scent Soil & plants // Carries scents of others easily
Diet Omnivore. Prefers meat.
Haunt various spots
Tumblr here [NSFW]

Musings

Playlist: here
- Butterflies - Huge fields - Flowers - Long grass - Night time - Darkness - Bruises - Scars - Turquoise color - Seaside - Creeks - Cracks & Breaking - Gentle touch - Nose & forehead kisses - Holding hands - Deep sleep - Dreams & Nightmares - Devotion - Home & Homelessness - Mother - Childhood - Princehood - Waiting - Loyalty - Black wolves - Slow mornings - White bed sheets - Obscure & Inexplicable thoughts -

"You don’t love people at their best, sweetheart. You just love them because you can’t help it."

"A child weaned on poison considers harm a comfort."

"I’m not very good at putting my feelings into words. That’s why people misunderstand me."

"I give because I know how it feels to want."

"The world doesn’t understand me and I don’t understand the world, that’s why I’ve withdrawn from it."













CSS by Tornpaw specifically for Kallonate. Art by Kallonate.
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HB's picture

HA.

HA.
Kallonate's picture

Raventail: Oh nooo yeah I

Raventail: Oh nooo yeah I closed tef since it was lagging so much D:
Hopefully there's a better time for a meeting soon.

HB: sneaky devil.
Mahj's picture

re-track.

re-track.

>.> I'm still getting the

>.> I'm still getting the hang of it but i'd love to rp
Kets been dying to interact with him but silly shy player has been holding her back...
Kallonate's picture

You can totally add me in

You can totally add me in Skype if you want to, or ask me to add you. I don't bite. ♥
littlesinner's picture

Mind if I... ? Sorry for the

Mind if I... ?
Sorry for the strange writing style.
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A light breeze swept into, and under, the coat of the cervidae. Her eyes were distant and unmoving, fixed on the limp and barely breathing pile of fur and bones. Alice kept herself hidden behind tall tufts of grass. She was static, almost- dare she move her presence would mean so little to Nid. It was almost as if there had been a betrayal between the two... had there been?
She could not move, she did not move. She had to move. Alice had to move closer; to cover the broken boy, to protect him, regardless of her small nature.
No more hesitations. Just a few steps through the grass, lightly gently. Closer. Close...

"... Nidhem ... Niddy? Sweetie?" a whisper escaped from her lips. Her voice cracked over the 'sweetie.' She did not want to be rejected.
Kallonate's picture

I don't mind, but I might be

I don't mind, but I might be a little stiff in community rp. Haven't done it in a loooong time since I've moved all rps to Skype :'D

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The buck layed down against the ground, his camouflage making him easily vanish... except for the dried up blood that still hanged tight onto his matted fur, and which the ground had been drinking from him. Its smell pulled others close, and none were let to touch it.

The dark-tipped ears were flopped to the sides, relaxed, not needed for now as it was quiet around, only distant sounds making them flick every now and then. But that changed as soon as he heard the smallest rustle of grass closer than any other sound. The ears were lifted, eyes opened with a long inhale taken at the same time. Something was near.

The turquoise eyes seeked for the source, blurry when having to look into the distance. The headache immediately crept into the nerve endings in his skull, paining him as he tried to lift his head to see around him. As the skull rose it wavered, weak.
A growl ensued. Silent at first, barely sounding like one. As his eyes registered the one coming close the growl deepened some, yet he could not comprehend who he saw. Not until she talked.

Almost spooked, the growl was mixed into a sudden high pitched whine. His throat was dry, unable to form more of a warning than this.

The smell reached him. Certainly not one he'd easily forget. Not in a good way.

"N-no.."

A muffled groan. Disapproval.
Mjrn's picture

Uugh, I really want to try,

Uugh, I really want to try, but I haven't RPed on this site in forever, and I'm nervous as all hell, especially since they've never met. I can try and write something when I get home from work...if that's alright with you? I don't want to intrude, though I do want to try and maybe reach out again...
Account previously Mjrn, returned to Veedeer.
Kallonate's picture

I haven't rp'd on tefc for

I haven't rp'd on tefc for over a year or even two. I'm much more comfortable doing it in Skype myself but I do not mind if people wish to have one with me here.
Nid might be a bit hard to approach, especially in this state, but it's still very interesting to see his reactions to different characters, especially strangers as they are new.
So yeah go ahead if you feel like it!
littlesinner's picture

Ahh sorry! Is it a problem we

Ahh sorry! Is it a problem we RP here? :'3 I don't mind using Skype but I'm very slow with replying haha~
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Looking down on the buck's withering form a painful string was plucked deep in Alice's core. Her neck craned pitifully down towards the small one. With breath caught in her throat that she was unaware of having held her eyes were presented with a closer look of Nid's face.

She could almost not count the amount of cracks that split into his little skull. The stench of the blood finally rose from the ground and hit her nostrils. Alice tried not to move away. Though the putrid scent was hard to ignore, Alice tried not to care. Seeing him in such a horrifying state was unbearable- all the doe wanted was to clean off his wounds and sing him to sleep. She would provide the loving protection her once alive fawns had received- be some sort of a mother figure once again.

The kid probably already has someone like that.

"Nidhem I... I won't hurt you. Let me take care of you," the frail voice cracked once more and a single tear rolled from the gaping socket in her mask.

With some effort, the blunt teeth of her mask caught onto it's wings. A white one. It was already dying, but Alice could not care in the least right now.

"F- for you, dear. I know how you like these." She placed the butterfly tenderly to the ground, close to where Nidhem's head lay. Lingering for a moment, ears slowly turned towards his face. Though soon, recoiling back.

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omg I don't know why but that almost brought me to tears? ;; idk I'm emotional...
Kallonate's picture

Nah it's not a problem,

Nah it's not a problem, especially if you are slow then it's better to have it here, easy to reply when possible :'D
Also sorry I did not reply yesterday. I wasn't home for most of the day.


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As the head of the doe moved the buck's head lowered and pulled back a tiny bit, ears turning back against his neck, making the head look even more lean than it was. The bright but now squinting eyes glanced at the other all over, from hooves to her neck to her eyes, rapidly repeating the glances without one blink.

Her words made him stop completely for a few seconds, eyes widening some, disbelief of what he heard from the other. Something inside felt hot and cold at the same time, like clawing at him, trying to get out. Soon enough there'd be shuddering, and his shallow breath were more audible, short and sharp. Something was fuming in him. An unknown feeling.

His mind was too busy being confused, yet he was then getting something brought near him. A butterfly of white. Why. Why did she do that. Why would she say those things, try to get onto his skin after...

...after everything.

The memories of a certain someone were hard to drop and bury when this doe always brought them back. She carried the invisible memory, a scent. Not so much now maybe, but the buck had already associated her whole being with that scent. His scent.

A look at the butterfly. A deep stare at its wriggling body and weakly flapping wings. The pure white color added to its suffering form caused something more. Something even deeper. A need to protect.
The eyes snapped to stare at her. The shuddering got stronger before some of his fur stood up on the back of his neck.

"...g-go away."

His voice was supressed, sounding like he wasn't breathing. and he barely was. Everything he had ever wanted to say to her was held back in his throat, only some of it slipped out.

"Go t-to hi-him, t-to.. to take c-care..!"

The words were followed by a snarling growl. The words he said got the feeling inside burn, desperate to take over... but the buck swallowed the rest, only continuing his stare.

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Want to remind that this is just Nid having huge problems with feelings for certain relations and such.

Mjrn's picture

Mm, yeah. I'm not very active

Mm, yeah. I'm not very active on Skype, and I don't really like RPing there to be honest, if only because I've screwed up more than once trying to make a paragraph. Feels more off the cuff too, I'd rather be able to sit and take my time than feel rushed.

I kind of figured that, but I guess it wouldn't hurt to try? Still not sure who to approach him with though - I was thinking either Kyrie or Nechtan since they need development (Especially Kyrie.), but Lacie's been so down in the dumps it'd be better to get her to actually reach out and interact more. Going to have to think on it more and see who I want to use. Probably going to end up using Lacie but idk
Account previously Mjrn, returned to Veedeer.
littlesinner's picture

I've been crazy busy right

I've been crazy busy right now. I'm so sorry this is late. :'(

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A cricket sounded next to the doe, though she was too captivated by Nidhem to realize. Alice watched, eyes wide- scared and gentle. She examined as he seemed to remember things. She did not want to know what, knowing they would be negative. Why did she cause such bad feelings to rise in the small one? The whole time he'd been with around Alice she had taken care of the kid. Even from his past mother, who'd thought it was a good idea to threaten him after how he felt about her.

Was he in there somewhere? The memories of his romping, jumping and happy faces were withering quickly but they burned in Ali's memory, dying to get out and to be real again.

He spoke. She snapped into reality faster than ever. Trembling at his words, her voice grew shaky and eyes stung viciously, like an allergic reaction to his anger. Wait- 'him'? Who did he mean by that?

Then it seemed so obvious it was silly.

"D- do you really need m- me to go? I- I cccan go Nid. But I'm not hiim. I promise. I'm not him, I'm j-just Alice. I'll always ccare about you, okay? I'll go but I'll never stop caring for you..." Even her chest trembled. Her eyes finally averted from the small one and she breathed for a minute before pacing back and away.

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Ah I know, no worries. <3

I have a Skype but its on my

I have a Skype but its on my PSP and it doesn't have a message option :<
I would rp but I'm still nooobie at it x3

Art by Aihnna & pixel by Mary13~
Kallonate's picture

The position was too

The position was too inconvenient for this to happen, him laying on the ground while she could move around. He would stay tense and highly alerted, ready to snap his jaws forward if needed, but it seemed the doe had come to a halt. Her words made him stare at the ground, the shadows and tufts of grass, and the butterfly given by her. His heartbeat got damn uncomfortable, and as she stopped talking he'd huff sharply, his flanks collapsing before rising again when he took a breath.

No, of course she wasn't exactly him, but for too many times he had seen her close, and gotten her close, bringing the smell with her. It was not so much about her, but the buck himself. He couldn't stand it.

"T-tell him that.."

A silent mumble, a certain tone of bitterness in it. He had nothing more to say, and would not lift his gaze anymore.

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Raventail: email is also an option if you ever feel like rping or something : D
littlesinner's picture

A snap. Those words- no

A snap. Those words- no matter how quiet- had been heard by the doe and they had triggered something inside. A sort of twinge where there shouldn't be one and before she knew it a small, nonetheless stable growl had grown and escaped in her throat. She'd been walking away but had now been turned on her heels, growling continuously towards the little guy on the ground.

"H- how do you dare speak-k to me like that after all I give to you now!?" her voice grew, and chest tightened- "...he did NOTHING to you, nor me! ... I come to you and show you kindness like no other. You throw it back in my face as if it were nothing. As if it was me who'd hurt you," growls turned into snarls. Her neck craned closer to his head- almost spitting- and the tip of her skull against his cheek, hostility hovering.

"Forget what I said before, you ungrateful nuisance. If you ever come close to him or me again, I will not allow to stick around."

With that her muzzle was lifted. Fur that had before stood on it's ends relaxed slightly- yet her breath huffed. She turned once more, no intention of laying her eyes on Nidhem again.

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Sorry this is late and for her outburst, but it's part of who she is. You can reply to this or not, I don't mind either way!
Lil-taokaka's picture

Come on nidhem! You can do

Come on nidhem! You can do this, we got the moves like jagger xD
I can help you ^^ come on
SilverBlood0801's picture

-Tracks because this char is

-Tracks because this char is awesome-
Skype: SilverBlood (user nerolivers)
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.'s picture

boop.

boop.

Trrack come here ! Right ?

Trrack come here !

Right ♥ here.
DDoom's picture

Hello ^^ I see your Nidhem

Hello ^^
I see your Nidhem met my Goat's sister. I'm regret if her actions seemed to you offencive or disturbing. Sisters are too young and a little bit silly. And we're not experienced in interactions yet =_='
Kallonate's picture

Hi. I just hope that my

Hi. I just hope that my serious IC character meets fully/mostly IC characters or that actions towards him are fair so to say. The stalking after the happenings was the only thing that bothered us a bit. Also that I want other players to understand how to take mutually fair amount of damage to characters.

Don't worry, this is all about learning to everyone.
DDoom's picture

Thank you for explaining our

Thank you for explaining our mistakes. I've almost developed my char but others are only in the beginning :c I'll tell them not to touch unfamiliar ICs till they can't be responsible for themselves.
Thank you and sorry again...
Fincayra's picture

I've always wanted to meet

I've always wanted to meet this little guy properly. :j Have an RP, if you're so inclined.

- - -

"Hello." Upon casually settling down with the creamy three-legged, Bénézet turned is head to inspect him. Stormy gray eyes shifted to his companion below in an effort to engage in a conversation, a friendly smile lighting up a perfectly chiseled human face despite rows of pointed teeth visible behind thin purple lips. "Have we met before?"
Kallonate's picture

^ &hearts;!! Skype time ehehe

^ ♥!!
Skype time ehehe :3
Curusant's picture

Awesome bio ,all well thought

Awesome bio ,all well thought out.As I look at it, I think that my biography is hopeless (in terms of content).I must do something with it >_>
Kallonate's picture

Thank you! No one's character

Thank you!
No one's character bio is hopeless, since everyone is presented in their own way.
Nidhem has been around for over 3 years, and 4 years in my head, so he has had a lot of time to develop and gather content for me to write. Not all of it is here but a lot still. :'D
Curusant's picture

Heh, you have rightX3.Can I

Heh, you have rightX3.Can I try to darw Nidhem and my deer?I try so many times, but this skull is very...hard to darwXD
Kallonate's picture

Oh, of course you can if you

Oh, of course you can if you want to! That'd be a pleasure to see!
I know, his skull is not the most normal one.. XD

We just wanted to looooove

We just wanted to looooove you. //shot down
Curusant's picture

But I love the way how you

But I love the way how you darw your skull *O*.
Here they are!
This black deer is Negro, my future character( just like you say: he is in my head now :3).
He is fawn too but he is a bit taller than Nidhem and he haven't horns( I don't know why I darw he as a adul O.o'')

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Kallonate's picture

Awww thank you for drawing

Awww thank you for drawing him! Nice to see your character with him too! :>
I really like how you got Nid's circular spots just right, not too many do ;D And also his ear that is pulled back, really fitting and makes him look like himself.
Thank you a lot, it's heartwarming that someone wants to actually draw him ♥
Curusant's picture

I'm glad you like it.It was

I'm glad you like it.It was hard to do(yeah his eyeXC.No good) but if you like it...X3 I preferred to keep the true appearance of Nidhema because I really like it. I hope to meet him in the forest ^^

Goddamn gay chihuahua BI

Goddamn gay chihuahua BI

Love this character!

Love this character! Hopefully I can meet him in game/RP sometime. c:
Nazzard's picture

Gunna track this grump.

Gunna track this grump.

Discord:Nazzard#9068 ||Click for bios.
hb-k's picture

not sure if i have this

not sure if i have this tracked on this account.
hi.
hb-k's picture

aaaaah! this new art piece is

aaaaah! this new art piece is the prettiest thing. ;:
Kamaya's picture

Oh, Oh! Have to track

Oh, Oh! Have to track this!
~Tracking~
Kallonate's picture

hb-k: Thank you dear &hearts;

hb-k: Thank you dear ♥ Was about time to get him a new picture, not going to do anything for a while again.

Kamaya: Thanks!
HB's picture

lil cutie

lil cutie
Fincayra's picture

idk if i'm tracking this but

idk if i'm tracking this but hi, s'been a while
Kallonate's picture

Hey Fin, it was really nice

Hey Fin, it was really nice getting to hang around yesterday. Definitely been a long time.
Comen's picture

I am sorry for Comen's

I am sorry for Comen's horrible fail earlier, I was trying to make him sniff and frankly I'm not sure how he ended up rubbing against him....
But it gave me a good laugh.
I can see if Nid is permanently scared of him now
Kallonate's picture

Pffft yeah it's definitely

Pffft yeah it's definitely confusing for both parts since my hotkeys are totally messed up.
Oh well, might as well take that as Nid being spooked and gracefully falling right onto his butt.
Comen's picture

Comen's interested in meeting

Comen's interested in meeting them, he'll try again to introduce himself but if he feels unwelcomed he'll mosey on away and leave Nid in peace
Rouda's picture

ROAAAR.

ROAAAR.

wow, rouda. just wow.

wow, rouda.
just wow.
Rouda's picture

Claimed the page. Rawr.

Claimed the page. Rawr.
Awentia's picture

Track. &hearts;

Track. ♥
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