Ok...so I planned on going on an uploading spree tonight on DA since I got WAY behind on my TEF art uploads...and that;s about it XD But yeah, the thing has been sitting inactive for months ><

So I upload a picture, it says it was uploaded, go back to the main page and...it's not in my gallery -blink- That's never happened before. So I upload another, thinking it was just taking a while to load...but that one didn't show up either. I logged off and back on, still nothing. BUT I got a couple favorites on them already, so clearly they're showing up somewhere...but where?! XD

Like I said, I haven't been on DA for a while, so I don't know...is this something normal as for recent or what? And if not, do you know what could be wrong?

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The old poetry is dead.
Yet still pretty words leave my lips far more readily than the sour bile that is my thoughts.
Each pang, each throb of soreness in my heart brings a shame so bitter and deep that I feel not like a grown stag, but a small child, curled and trembling, alone in the dark, afraid of shadows…
What reason have I for such a manner? So many petty excuses come to mind, but my Reason alone knows no wrong done to me to warrant such emptiness.

Shame, come upon me like a torrent, rip me to pieces, or find those that you can left of my torn soul and shred them more so.

Such an ungrateful wretch…this is what I should feel, yet the abyss is strong, drawing me deeper in, and illusions fool me as they flicker in the dark. Like the drunken nymphs of Pan I dance in a frenzy around the Demon Piper, too flushed on the heat of unfounded sorrow to see clearly the edge I teeter on…

Hungry eyes watch from the depths. Watch me struggle to hold on and question my fall. Demons, impulse lead me to accuse, fowl villains awaiting my demise with eager, thoughtless eyes. The shadows would not allow me to see them as they were…friends, distant and lost in their own lives, but friends none the less. What a fortunate being I am to have as many, to have such watchful caregivers…yet what my Reason knows, my darkened heart still has trouble to grasp. Friends whose troubles match my own and yet they remain intact. No thanks to I, their friend in turn, their proclaimed ally in darkness run scared and left them alone. Yet they beckon me now, hearts open and loyalty vowed; like saints, blessed angels of mercy come down to hell to forgive a sinner’s wrongs.

But the sinner hasn’t repented just yet.

Yeah ok, bandwagon, whatever XD I’m usually pretty good at keeping things organized in my head but TEF overloads my brain! So I’ve decides to write it down…and since people already have a format for this what the heck.

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[I might keep Requests and trades closed for a while until I see the results of the Secret Santa ^^ I want to make sure I have time to do something for it, if it turns out to be art]

Requests: Closed
Trades: Closed
1. Key for Her?
Suggestions: Always open XD

In Progress:
Picture for Blackhoof: Sketched >> Needs Lined and colored
Picture for Key: Sketched >> Needs Lined and colored
Chibi Shyla with fish: Sketched >> Needs lined and colored.
Shy and friends in the grass: Sketching/planning

In Planning - no particular order ><
Shyla and Ark with tree
Kailani and Tybalt/Uio
More Chibi Deer :3

Wishlist
Group maskless portraits of Rowan’s deer
Human pics of my characters (yeah I'm giving in)

Recently Finished
Rowan
Chibi Jay
Chibi Rinta
Chibi Clock
Chibi Quamar
Paavo
Ark
Lier
Rowan's Plushie :3
Kailani and Fulu
Secret Santa for Raz

IHATEMYSELF
XD But I'm SO bored and I feel like I haven't really talked to anyone in forever << makes me feel out of the loop. Which is my fault. I wouldn't blame anyone for not wanting to ask anything since...I havent really asked anyone else questions >< I Can never think of any! I go to do it and think "this is so lame" and dont >< Buuut...incase you want to ask me or my deer something anyways and were for some odd reason jsut waiting for me to post something like this...Have at it XD


My Deer:
Darcy
Shyla

Ok...I didn't go super crazy with the screenshots this time XD I tried to focus more on getting good pics of Darcy exclusively. Some of them turned out pretty awesome :3

Note, these ARE edited with Paint Shop Pro.

Pre-Abio Dance


My Personal Fav :3


Through Fire...


...and Ice!


Between the Garden Pillars


Dark as Night...



FIN <3

Does anyone have any closeups of Shyla? Or just a close up of the hands mask would do. I've never seen the little details in it before, and while I might not stick with the design, I'm curious :3

Ok...I was only really gone a day XD These workers are taking forevvveerrrr ;___; They haven't even gotten to the office yet...but they're gone till Monday so I hooked the compy back up.

I just skimmed 2 pages worth of blogs...only looked at 2 or 3, so I hope I didn't miss anything -shiftyeyes- If I did please tell me XD

Lastly...I got some sketching done! Only 2 or 3 are color worthy, but I might upload a page or two later of little chibi doodles. AREN"T YOU EXCITED?! DON'T LIE, YOU KNOW YOU ARE!

...that's all :3

Ok, so......I have an extra deer. He..she...IT used to be a secret deer for spying purposes but I no longer need to spy on anyone XD

I was wondering if anyone could use a deer for a plot or...something with their character. I really don't have any ideas on my own at the moment, but I could be inspired by someone's needs :3 Maybe a brother, sister, ex, father, mother...XD Its picto is pretty lamesque. Heads up though I'm better at playing males than females! Yes, this deer WILL BE PLAYED BY ME, it's not up for adoption. It's like a collaboration!..?!..yes.

ANYONE INTERESTED?!

PUHLEEEZ?

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Dear Wyvern…

I sit here by the pond, looking at my own distorted reflection, thinking over all that I’ve accomplished…and realizing I have too much extra time afterwards. My thoughts empty, leaving only doubt, bitterness, darkness of all sorts. If I were to change tactics and ponder all my mistakes instead, perhaps then I’d feel whole again, gluttonous on fool’s errands and poor judgments. What have I learned? What do I still need to understand?

You may think that…that I didn’t- that I don’t- care about how you feel about me. I admit, at the time I didn’t want to believe it, and in turn, didn’t want to care. I thought that was the cause of all my trouble, caring too much, and I began to despise that part of myself. I thought I could wish it away; close my eyes tight and hope some alternate reality would surface. Even then though, I could not shake the actions of a fool, a part I play extraordinarily well, it seems.

I ramble. The fact is I do care…I care very much. Your confessions and your…stubbornness? What else could it be? They’ve stayed with me. I still can’t understand them, but they’re they are, haunting me.

Heh…I remember the thing that drew me to you most was the fact that, well…-laughs- you were the first doe to truly put up with me. Simple enough, my young mind needed little encouragement, and ‘just friends’ felt like so much more in those play-filled summer months. I didn’t know what I was doing, and I still don’t, but I do know that even now…you’re the only one who seems to put up with me. I can not conceive why, but there you are. You’ve had every right to bitterness, to be rid of me, and yet you’ve gone a whole new direction, an unmarked road I hesitate to follow down.

And yet, I address this confession to you.

Yeah, ok...I've tried to get on the forest several times today, but it's been so laggy I can barely do anything ;_; It's never been this bad...is anyone else having a problem? I've seen a few mentions of lag in blogs...so I'm wondering if it's the game and not my computer. Anyways...sorry to anyone looking for Shyla and Darcy =/