August 8, 2011 - 2:14am — BluedeerLegend18
I've come back, but I still feel the same. I have so many things going on here and in real life. With all the drama and all that crap that happened the day I left, maybe it
was just because I was in a bad mood.
First of all, I would never kill off/scrap Pierce. I have been developing him before I even joined The Endless Forest, and I never expected him to turn into... this. I sorta like the
change that he's a Darkness Prince, a dragon monster. What I don't like is how he is hated.
A long time ago, Pierce was just a plain stag, a friendly, nice stag. And he still is. And yet he is treated like shit. I wanted a sweet, friendly character who made friends with
everyone. I wanted him to have a good time, and I also wanted to have a good time too. I wanted to have a good time, I wanted to make memories. And yet I blew it, now instead of having fun I'm being chased and attacked. I know I'm not supposed to take it personally, hell most of Pierce's "enemies" are great friends, but... I want to spend
time with my friends. And I can't do that because their deer hate my character.
And, I think people are just starting to make their characters hate mine just because they see Pierce as an aggressive character, or atleast someone else is doing it. He says
one thing in an RP and the character hates him for life. Just... I don't want my deer to be hated. I want to have fun, and... when I'm playing Pierce, I don't see being chased
around "fun". With a much more agressive character, it's a whole different story. But Pierce was made to be friendly, he just gets angry a lot like I do.
So, no matter how much I revamp him, others will still think the same of him.
And no matter how much he says sorry, no one forgives. So sometimes... I take that to the heart even though I'm supposed to not to.
When you guys said that maybe I should leave, you guys were saying I should leave. And I thought, "Go away, you whiny little brat. The Endless Forest is not for crybabies like you."
Thing is... I thought I was mature. I'm different from the other children my age, that's why I can never get along with them unless we were close friends since
kindergarten/first grade. During the second grade, I sorta became a little... immature, much more immature than the others. I did and said stupid things, I acted like I was
retarded (literally. Some people thought I was actually retarded), and I was very childish for my age. Then I found this.
I don't know why, but... I just sorta learned new things. I'm one of the few children here, most people on the TEF community are teens or adults. And.. I know this sounds
ridiculous, but... I've learned how to be "mature", how to handle things how a 6th grader would.
But I guess I became... too mature?
This sounds so ridiculous, but I mean it, I'm a much different person than I was a long time ago. I seem to make friends with older people, no matter what I do the children
my age just look at me, go "huh?" and walk away. Maybe it's because I don't like how the child's mind works. Espeically their sense of "love". The only people they truly
love is their family. I hate seeing when kids make fun of one another because of their "love". Who makes fun of love? Because they don't know what love is. They think love
is when you see some sexy/hot and you fall in love right away. No, that's lust (pfft, they probably don't even know what lust is). They "date" because the other person is
"sexy/hot", and the others go "nananana you have a girlfriend" or something like that. I just... hate being in that age group. I hate lust. Period. And I hate being the same
age of a child with lust. Children will never get what love is, and... I just hate that.
It's just like Romeo and Juliet. Ask a ten year old what Romeo and Juliet is about. "It's a love story." they'll say. No, more like a lust story, random ten year old kid.
So, that's just two of the many reasons I can never seem to get friends. However... I found the Endless Forest, and I fell in love with the site. These people were mature, they knew the difference between love and lust, and they were my friends. And yet somehow when I looked into the pixels of the screen, I saw my real life all happening again.
I'm coming back, even though it was only for a short time. I missed you guys greatly, because you guys are my only friends. I know it's pathetic, but I would rather talk to someone miles, perhaps even countries, away, instead of talking to them face-to-face. I don't know why, I just prefer the Internet more than real life.
But, i'm coming back, and I'm sorry for being the whiny little brat I was. I wouldn't be surprised if you didn't forgive me. Yet I wouldn't be surprised either if you did forgive me. People just give me to much pity, and I hate it.
Anyways, I'm back... and please, if you don't want me here, please say so, I just do not care anymore.
Would you like my honesty in
I ask because there are a few things that strike me in this post, but I don't want to crack down too hard on you this if it's just something you needed to get off your chest.
edit: I should also mention that I have never told someone they shouldn't be here. That isn't what I was getting at with my first lines. Stay if you want, leave if you want. The choice is always yours.
Hm I'd just like to explain
Nanetta dislikes Pierce for hurting Phobos and HoneyFur and because everytime he's talked to her, he's talked down to her and made fun of her height.
Jade dislikes Pierce because she blames him for Illrose's change into a black deer -it doesn't really matter to her if its truely his fault or not-... She also dislikes how he used his powers against her, she saw it as cowardly and she had no respect for it...
^ just incase you thought either of my deer didn't like Pierce just because they thought he was aggressive, they both have reasons very valid to themselves and I have always played them IC ^^
Glad you came back btw ^^
I said I didn't really care
Say whatever you want, please be honest.
Your words will never be an insult to me.
I encourage little breaks
That said, I like Pierce. Quad likes Pierce, heck he learned some valuable lessons from him on how to fight.
Real life is difficult on everyone, so it's understandable if you need to vent. It's perfectly fine. In fact, I can give you many, many examples of where I used this site to blow some steam off.
Anyway...you're always welcome here. It may be the truth that not everyone likes Pierce, but it's no reason for anyone to try to banish or exile you from this game. It really is a great community, even if we have our occasional bickering.
*nuzzles*
I can see you're begging for
Since you won't be insulted and you want my honesty, I'll say that you rambled on and off in here about things completely unrelated to TEF that I, personally, do not care about, and others should not. That's also attention seeking behaviour.
Secondly, you were not being very mature in this post and I have never noticed much maturity from you. I'll also mention my peeve of power playing, god modding, and metagaming, which you do extremely often in your RP threads/plots. Especially as of late.
Finally, I don't care whether you leave or stay. It's not my choice and I don't care. I can avoid you, should you choose to stay.
I don't care if you're offended or not. It's my two cents. You wanted my honesty anyway.
Thank you for that; honesty
"A long time ago, Pierce was just a plain stag, a friendly, nice stag. And he still is."
No. He isn't. "he's a Darkness Prince, a dragon monster."
Part of being a monster is being hated, being hated it is what makes something evil. You can't have a character that is evil and expect other characters to just ignore the fact. Now I understand that evil characters can have friends (especially if those characters are themselves, evil), but to expect the other good characters of TEF to ignore Pierce being evil isn't being realistic.
If players are allowed to play their evil characters the way they intent, so are the good players.
What I would advise to help fix this issue would be to take some time and think about what you enjoy doing most in TEF. Do you enjoy playing Pierce as an evil character, or do you enjoy playing him care-free when he can hang out with his friends. TEF is after-all a game, and that means it should be FUN for you. If how you are playing Pierce isn't fun for you, change it up! If you enjoy having him be carefree and good, make him a good character. You have all the control over him, not the other way round.
"And no matter how much he says sorry, no one forgives"
Sadly, I know what you mean. This community is very slow to forgive mistakes, but the best way to start is to move on. Show others that you have moved past what you did and with time and positive effort on your part, hard feelings will soften. Once you've apologized there isn't really anything you can do except learn from your mistake and not repeat it. If they want to hold a grudge against you, that is their right, but I can safely say that not everyone here will do so.
Now, in response to what you said about love/lust, this being the part I wasn't sure you'd want to hear...you talk a lot about not liking when people make fun of others about who they love. I agree with you about that, love is a very personal thing. You lost me when you started talking about how 'they don't understand what true love is'...isn't that the very thing you dislike? Judging others about who/how they love?
For some lust is a big part of love. For others it doesn't even enter into the equation. Love is personal, and even if you think you know better, try and be a bit more accepting about it. I know it's hard not being like the other kids your age (I was there too, exactly where you are now) but it's dangerous to consider yourself more mature/better than everyone else. Try to see the good in how your classmates behave, or ignore it.
They aren't you, so be you and let them worry about being them.
I would argue that Romeo and