Day 6[?]
I wonder why they all run from me. Why they ignore me. Why only certain ones, ones that I cherish, can see me.
Maybe we're invisible to the others.
Good. I only want the ones true to themselves to see me.
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The snow is gone today. Melted without a trace in the perpetually sunny forest.
I almost miss it, and yet I don't miss the feeling of cold. Not exactly.
I miss the purity.
This world is different.
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I have to wonder why most deer leave when I come near, or ignore me. Am I worth so little? Perhaps, but only to them.
To them, I appear as just a regular fawn.
All the better, really.
But not exactly.
I feel like something's a little wrong, even if I should be okay on my own. I feel like I'm missing something.
So I keep seeking out that one who will accept me.
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First.
Doe, looking for a pelt, golden, then monarch. I help her get it, she is happy.
I am happy that she appreciates me.
Second.
Copolymer.
He leads me to wherever, by this little fawn called Pandora. She looks sick, but I'm not sure what I can do for her. I sit by them for a little while before wandering off.
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Third...
R.
We're more alike than you'll ever see if you keep running from me, you know. They call me A most times... We're both just letters of the alphabet.
But you run from me as if I'm some terrifying creature.
I'm not, really. I'm just curious about you...
When I approach slowly, you end up running away anyway.
I stay at the spot I know you'll come back to. You love it here, because you always circle back to this place, this highest hill, bleached red.
I wonder why.

I'm not wrong. You come back, slowly, cautiously, as if I am some dangerous weapon you have to dance carefully around.
I watch you, calmly, waiting for your move.
You decide to circle, I follow.
Eventually you stop, and we watch each other.
R, why do you run? R, are you afraid of me?
R...I just want to come a little closer.
But the answer is a firm no.

I have patience.
I will wait for you.
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Four.
Phoenix. She is sitting with Gustiro. I don't think he remembers me.
Phoenix gets up to say hello to me. I am glad.
Other does come, they're kind too.
Five, Nightshade.
Thank you.
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Six.
Noelle.
I can't question that she's accepting. I can burrow into her white fur and rest beside her for hours without any anger.
Thank you, too, Noelle.
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Six deer. You are kind.
There are many, many more of you. Some maybe not so nice, others very caring, compassionate. I know I can find you if I look in the right places, always.
I like all of you.