Please... encouragement.

Zergarikiaka's picture
Wellp... I need it.
The depression's been getting to the extreme point again and I just spent the last six hours at work contemplating how to go about suicide.
If I had seen any cars on the road on the way home, I'd probably have gone through with it via not-so-accident.
Someone, please just help me. I need to hear something to encourage me to keep on. I really don't want to be a dissappointment and go through with it, but... I don't know. I just want this all to end.
OrinocoFlow's picture

No matter how you feel right

No matter how you feel right now, it will get better I guarantee it. I've been through the same thing as you, especially last year when my mother was dying and I just didn't know what to do. But stay strong. Your life is valuable and precious. I may not know you well but there are those who know you very well and love you dearly. Even if you don't think so there is always someone out there who loves and cares for you. And though suicide feels like the best option right now it is not. You are a beautiful person with so much ahead. You can get through this , don't let this depression win. Stand tall smile and say "I am worth it" because you are. No matter what.
You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
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Kaoori's picture

It's not the answer. Trust

It's not the answer. Trust me.

I know things can get really rough, and you can feel really desperate, and you want a way out. But it's not the answer. You have people who care about you, I know this for a fact.

You are a good person, you know that. If you feel this low, maybe seeing someone, even just to talk to, may be a good thing. There's nothing to be ashamed of, and we can only do so much here. Sometimes just talking to someone about anything on your mind can do a world of good.

But don't end it. It's not worth it. I'm not going to tell you you don't have the right to feel the way you do, because everyone fights a hard battle regardless of what it is. The important thing is even if you have off days, even if things seem dreary..

don't throw in the towel.
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I'm not good with words, but

I'm not good with words, but please. Get help.
I would miss you.
CydaLuva83's picture

No, no, no, no Zerg... Please

No, no, no, no Zerg... Please don't commit suicide. Please. Call the hotline 1-800-273-8255 They'll help, trust me.
I know you've probably heard this before but suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Depression won't last forever. When you feel bad get up, yell, make some noise, jog in place for a little bit, talk to someone who you know will help you. Please, I would miss you too. Don't go away.
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My skype is my.tea.party if

My skype is my.tea.party if you ever need someone to listen/to speak with.
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OkamiLugia's picture

Agh Zerg ;; I don't know what

Agh Zerg ;; I don't know what to say. You can talk to me, even if I'm awful at this...

Please, feel better soon. I know you can get through it.

Love ya, kay?
Haru's picture

I'll be honest, I'm not the

I'll be honest, I'm not the best at consoling or anything...but I'll try my damnedest.
I know how it feels. I've been there a few times and I know how hopeless it can feel, how exhausting the thought of continuing on can be but don't give up. Never, ever give up. I know you have the strength in you to keep going because you reached out when you did. It takes an awful lot of courage to admit that you're not okay and to reach out for help and I want you to know I am extremely proud of you for having that courage.
Life isn't always dark and awful. There is hope, there is light at the end of this tunnel you're in, even if it doesn't feel like it right now. Keep going, keep moving forward no matter what and I know you can get out of this. You can do this, you can keep going and someday you'll find yourself in a much better place.
I know you can keep going, I believe in you.
Aivilo's picture

Hello. We haven't really

Hello. We haven't really talked, but I see you around here - and I rather like that. You've put up some interesting things around here. I may not know you well, but I'd be sad to see you go.
There are a lot of valleys in life, and it's so hard to claw your way back to the peaks between them. But you can. You will get there. There are people - hundreds of people - who could be around you in a heartbeat to support you when you find it hard to stand. The hotline someone mentioned earlier is a start. There are already eight here reaching out to help you up. Even if you can't believe in yourself right now, here is at least one person who does.
You are not alone, and you are wanted and worth the fight.
Whatever "this" is that you want to end will come to pass. I won't tell you that tomorrow everything will be better and sunshine and rainbows, because it probably won't. I won't tell you that it isn't going to be a struggle where you have more days like this, because you might. What I can say, though, is that it may be days or weeks or months, but it will pass, and you will be an even better, stronger person than you are now when you get to the other side.
You can. You will. And you are worth every pain that comes with the fight.
Don't let the demons in your head fool you into believing otherwise.
We're cheering for you. You can beat this.
Skitties's picture

Please talk to someone, and

Please talk to someone, and try to stay strong. It's going to get better, even if it doesn't seem like it right now. Just remember that we all believe you and we would miss you. You can make it. <3

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Please hang in there. I would

Please hang in there. I would really miss seeing you around here as well.
din's picture

I'm so proud of you for

I'm so proud of you for admitting you're not okay and asking for help, because everyone here is on your side. You're an amazingly sweet, giving and fun person. I don't know you that well but I do know that everyone is worth it. Stay strong and keep your head up. There may be a few cruel people that don't know what you're going through, and so they think everything is okay.
But we know, and were here to help. I'm not good at this, but I know one thing.
Keep talking. Take it day by day, things will get better even if it takes a while. I promise.

If you need more help please call the hotline listed above.
And if you ever, ever, need to talk, anytime,

We love you <3
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Hey Zerg - I have been in

Hey Zerg -

I have been in the same place you are. Maybe not the same circumstances but I've had my days where I've felt like the world was against me. It's an awful place to be, I know. But my driving force, not giving up, is that I believe that things will get better. I know that's cliche and all but I believe this, that we're going through a very difficult age as far as the economy and the state of the world, and that things will change in time.

One of my sayings is that I just have way too much I want to do with my life to quit. There are places I want to go, things I want to experience, people I want to help...too many goals maybe, but it's kept me going even in the darkest of times.

Please don't feel like you're ever alone. This website has a list of suicide prevention centers and helplines in the US. But also, I'm always on MSN/Skype and will always, always listen. Please feel free to talk to me if you ever need someone to listen, or someone to vent to. You will never be bothering me, I insist.

I care deeply about you, we've been friends for a long time and I've always loved your company, your characters, and just you. You're not alone, Zerg. We love you here.



Whenever I've felt down, I always listen to this song. I always imagined Quad singing it to me. I hope you can imagine the same, maybe even Mar Sart or Darkweaver singing this song to you.

Waning-Sun's picture

You're not alone, alright?

You're not alone, alright? Please don't think that. It feels that way, I know it does, but you're not. I've been there, I've felt that way. I've been close to giving up too, but don't do it. It's not the answer you're looking for.
I'm not the best at this, but just know we're here for you. We care about you, and we're proud that you admit that there's a problem. Just call that number, or talk to someone, but just get help okay? I know its hard, but it will get better.
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CynicalTabby's picture

You don't know me, but I can

You don't know me, but I can tell you that I recently found out a friend of mine committed suicide, and I am
absolutely devastated. People would miss you and that is a fact. Get help, nobody should have to feel the way
that you do. I am sure many of us have been on your side of the fence and can empathize. If you want
to talk, add me on Skype. I'd be very happy to.
littlesinner's picture

I know exactly how you feel.

I know exactly how you feel.

The depression is like a mask in front of your mind and eyes. It's only showing you bad things and not the good. To take away that filter I talk to my friends about stuid things. I draw. I do oragami. Anything to take my mind off it. Even if you have no one to go to, there will and are people out there that want to be your friend. I'm not lying. Suicide is not the answer, no matter how much you want to believe it is. Life can be bullsh*t at times, but hey, you're going to die anyway, so just make it to the end and savour every good thing you find. ♥

My MSN is if you want to talk more, you won't bother me in the least.
trigger_mortis's picture

Not much to add to what

Not much to add to what others have said, but you're wonderful <3
BluedeerLegend18's picture

We haven't talked much, but I

We haven't talked much, but I would still be devastated if you committed suicide.

I used to be very depressed. I felt like I had no friends, and I felt like nobody understood how I felt. But then I started to realize I have friends and family who care about me and it would be unfair to end my life and have to suffer that. It would be selfish. Then, I started to realize I had many blessings and I got so much more happier.

Now I'm probably the most positive person alive.

Please realize that many people here, including me, care about you. And I know it seems cliche, but trust me, it gets better. If you just remember the good things about life and all your friends here, it'll get better.
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Zergarikiaka's picture

Thank you all... it really

Thank you all... it really means a lot.

I can't really add anything

I can't really add anything else to what's been said, other than that: please remember, suicide is a permanent solution of a temporary problem. Okay? You're loved, no matter what you may think. I don't really know you, but I'm here for you nonetheless. Stay strong. <3
Aegle's picture

We are all here for you. I


We are all here for you. I can't say I understand what your feeling entirely but, I've went through similar emotions.

You've always been such a kind person to me here, one of the people I'm closest to here. I've never seen you be mean to anyone, and you sure always were able to brighten my day with drawings or a nice roleplay. Your a good person Zerg and you matter to me a lot. I know you also mean a lot to many more people than me. Please do keep on. And please do go talk to someone, it does help.

Oh, and one more thing, you took a huge step asking for help. It shows you still have hope Zerg. You know you will get through this.

If you ever need to talk about anything my skype is aegleee. Or you can always email me at . (:


Love you Zergy. And Aegle loves you too!<3<3<3
Scythe's picture

I don't really know what to

I don't really know what to say. You really mean a lot to me and I would hate to see you go, Zerg.

I know that you can get through this. Things may be tough now, but I know that you can get through this. Hang in there.

Ok here's the thing. I've

Ok here's the thing. I've been exactly where you are right now. It might not have been for the same reasons, but definitely I have experienced what you are feeling. Depression hurts more than anything and it's the least fun thing in the world to go through, which is why ending everything seems like the only solution.
You have to look at it this way: if you go away now, you'll have NO idea what will happen to you in the future if you were alive. I know that right now you're probably thinking "there's now way I'd miss out on anything if I was just gone."

If I'd succeeded in killing myself when I was 11 or when I was 13, I would have missed out on so much stuff. Need evidence? Prepare your eyeballs for some reading!

I would never have gotten closer to my best friend and found out how incredible of a person she is, I never would have been able to adopt my pets who make me laugh and smile every day, I never would have finished junior high, I never would have finished high school with honors, I never would have met any of YOU guys here on TEF, I never would have met one of the loveliest people in the world, and I never would have realized that I want to spend my life helping people. If I had succeeded in killing myself all those years ago, I would have missed out on all of that, plus a lot more silly adventures with my friends and family that I don't want to bore everybody by recording here. You really have no idea what's around the corner in your life, so it can be a shame to give up and never know what you're missing out on.


Try to do things for yourself! Things that make you feel happy and relaxed and that you can feel happy just by doing them. Personally, I get that feeling when I ride my bike, read a book, or watch my favorite tv show all by myself. Sometimes even drawing stupid little pictures. Do things that make you feel good, chica!
If you still feel low and horrid for the next week or so, definitely please see if there's a counselor nearby that you can visit with. Some schools and works offer free counseling--which is better than no counseling--so it doesn't hurt to ask.


This song makes me feel better when I'm feeling bad, so maybe it will make you feel better unless hipster-y songs make you upset (scroll down until you see "Don't Give Up". press the little triangle and here's the lyrics if you want to sing along!)

If you need another person to talk to, my skype is zuperfisch. Try to feel better, ok? I'd miss you if you were gone.

^ Fishbiscuit makes a

^ Fishbiscuit makes a beautiful point. There are seriously so many amazing and significant things that are going to happen to you, and you need to be around to see what those will be.
Echosong's picture

*hugs* I hope you feel better

*hugs* I hope you feel better soon.
Flyleaf's picture

Hang in there ...We all are

Hang in there ...We all are here for you ..... Smiling
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Tuhka's picture

Hello! I don't personally

Hello! I don't personally know you other than I've seen you around TEF for a long time.
I just wanted to let you know that people are never so alone they think they are.
Just like many here, I've been there myself few years ago. Thinking that I'd be better off and just give up on everything, I was so tired. But later on, I'm glad I didn't do anything stupid.
FishBiscuit makes the perfect point here - If I would have had the guts to kill myself, I would have missed so, so many happy moments and chances in my life.

You're still a young person. You've got the whole life ahead of you. No, not a life ahead full of suffering and hating on yourself but a life full of happy things and great chances! There will be places where you'll go, great, great people you'll meet and new things you'll do and enjoy. It might not feel even believable to you right now but you will, trust me.

I wish you all the best and some strenght to get over your depression. It's one hell of a tough fight to go through but you'll make it. I know you do. *hugs*

hey zega you have a life

hey zega you have a life ahead dont get rid of it! there is a life for you waiting for you out there...
Zergarikiaka's picture

Thank you all again. I need

Thank you all again.
I need to keep reading everything you all say over again as often as I can reach a computer. I'm not over this yet, and so far it seems you guys are the best as getting me through another day. If not for your support, I don't know if I'd still be around now.