Physicalhealthy MentalRelaxed; Stable The Copperhead nee-LOW; Nii #2 Real Deer Dark | Real Deer Mask | Owl Antlers ♂ 11.27.13 Young Adult.: Married 1.27.16 Smells like alfalfa, earth and chocolate mint.: Marsh x White tail x Irish x Red Refs coming soon | And here I am... Recently:. Found him another quote. I was going to redo his css...but I still like it. 5.25.17 A lot went down. Content and agreeable now. Came into the forest with the intention of picking blueberries to make into a variety of things, found a sunspot and sunk into it instead. A lazy and happy slug. 1.27 Dropped his kids off to spend the day with Achi and Rae, wished his father a happy birthday and spent the rest of his day with his beloved. 1.20 Dragged himself out of the house after spending the last couple of days sleeping. Still sleepy though and settled himself in a comfy spot in the snow. Joined by his mother, was given a grass crown and happily added it to his things he wears. Had a nice conversation with, discussing Lyre and babysitting. Contented himself with staying in her company until he bid her good-night and returned to his family. 12.30. Briefly entered the forest to settle a good distance from his parents and their newest edition. Stood around with Notus, but offered no help at making his brother's rage better or worse. Melted into the fog the first opportunity he got and left shortly after. 12.20-1 Was dragged kicking and screaming out of his bed to deal with Alder being in a hunting accident, which he called on Notus' help as Van was nowhere to be found-and his brother's unexpected visit a few days before was still on his mind. Thankfully his son had no super serious injuries the pair of them couldn't manage. An old chunk of his personality fell back into place as well as being forever grateful to Notus and reestablishing how important his bonds were to him. Made his brother a necklace and necklace box gift. Got lost on the way back to his home by messing up the portal through his exhaustion and was collected by Yue. The god, or angel as Ni likes to refer to him as, pulled him back from the brink of a complete meltdown and healed him a little from his earlier expense of healing his son. 12.18 Existing. 11.24 stuff. My baby's gonna be three in a few days. What is this. 11.8 Plot part 2. Vanished without a trace. 10.10 Settled back into being Nilo. Recently shattered by the sudden fatal accident his daughter suffered. Responded by blocking out everyone and everything. 9.24 {RPs will function as they were prior to this event.} But, after having an uneventful...last month or so, mostly just doing Nilo things, had it all get piled on over the last few days. Eloa became a tree. Not only did she become a tree, he came to find out she absorbed his mother-in-law. :/ Well ok. The one he liked. Too. Why not the other one? That was fun to learn. So brought her a blanket, cause...he promised, and hung around a while, talking with her demon friend, and met child #2 of E's. Then ghosted away from that situation to find his dad in the forest after like...hell since he was a tiny thing, I think. Had some antler envy, got a stare down with his bro, Notus, got in a fight with Notus... that led to him limping away and hiding low for a while. Maybe feels a teeny bit bad...that he doesn't feel bad. Maybe a serious update later idk. Have a summary for now. 8.12 Chilling in game for a while. Made his way over to the poppy fields for a change of scenery and plopped down by a tree. Noted an ill individual some ways off, but didn't make a move to assist or investigate. 6.9-10.16 First of a long plot finally started. Found himself and his family attacked at their home in the dead of night. It was something he couldn't sense, hiding behind something he could, and he found himself trying to investigate it with his guard down despite his mate's reminders to keep himself safe-which he mostly ignored. After being given the run around down the corridors of their castle, ended up at a showdown with a dark magic monster he still has no name for, though he knew what it was working for after the fact. Doing so allowed for him to be fatally wounded- a fact he didn't figure out until the next day when a substance akin to poison had taken root in his body and stole his vision. Unable to be healed, found himself mentally breaking under all the constant stress and worry, where he ultimately started to rebuild his relationship with his mother. Started to. He hugged her. They're on less-shaky-but-could-still-potentially-fall-apart- ground now. After that was left to his own thoughts for a while before requesting his father's company where he pretty much cuddled against his chest like he did as a child. After postponing for as long as he could manage stalling, he finally listened to the instinct screaming in his head and knew he had to leave. He didn't know where, he didn't know how he was getting there- or if he could, since his body was hellbent on failing him-, just that he had to get somewhere and there was a strong chance he'd not come home. His mate's answer to that was to have his mother-in-law accompany him. More than a little convinced the spirit would kill him at some point if his body did not, but since it put Vanitas' frazzled mind at ease, he allowed her to come (more like she wouldn't take no for an answer, but shhh. Nilo's in charge.) A few weeks of private soul searching and figuring out how to heal himself, Nilo eventually made his way back home with Van accompanying him some of the way. What happened and what he figured out he mostly has kept to himself now, though he did finally disclose it to Van as well as his father. Has come out of the whole ordeal more self-assured and grounded. He no longer feels like a bumbling child playing a big man's game, and as such understands his own limits and just what exactly he is. He is much more reserved than when he left, far less friendly even to faces he knows. The reasons for this attitude is not known, other than he feels his life should be taken a lot less lightly now that he knows what he is there for. 5.21.16 Spent time on the outskirts with his fawns, before skirting back into the forest to find his cousin, his father's friend- godfather, though Nilo doesn't give merit to the title anymore since he's...grown- and mother (and maybe a grandfather but Player didn't catch that picto) in close proximity of each other. Settled a ways away after sort of skirting between them all, and then eventually picked his way over to settle between them with flattened ears and staring off into space. Did it mostly to prove to himself that he belonged there and the forest wasn't going to decide for him where he ended up...even though he felt terribly uncomfortable and reminded of the few times in his fawnhood he was surrounded by more than one family member. Needless to say, was overwhelmed. Did gradually acknowledge his mother to the point of having a conversation with her, even called her 'mother' by the end of the exchange. Agreed to letting her in on the lives of his children. This is my heart. * These are more than likely one-sided. If you don't see your char here, let me know? His family's absolutely massive, if I forget your char, it's not intentional. Vanitas His universe, pillar, lover, protector. Trusts completely, loves utterly. Alder, †Locust Quill, Hawthorn, Lamia & Ren First born offspring, Alder being the oldest and Ren the youngest by birth order. They take up his entire universe. Loves unconditionally. Pulled from the Forest when they were old enough and completely immersed them in human lives. Now older, still watches out on as much as he can, but mostly let his sons and daughter have their head while still guiding Ren. Knows the older ones will come to him or Van if they are needed. Achilles Father. Protector and guide. Loves without fail, even if he disproves of some things his father believes or does. A guide that reminds The Copperhead how to remain grounded and maintain the physical bonds within his own family and his own children, and slowly expanding outward to encompass the broken, brittle bonds of his siblings. Still seeks his praise and comfort, even moreso now that he is fragile. Rae Yue TaGuardian; mentor. Almost sees the god as a third parent or a second father, at the very least sees him in a duality with his biological father. Where his father keeps him grounded physically, the god grounds him spiritually and offers comfort and solace to his broken spirit. Formed a bond to rather quickly, more quickly than he had ever bonded to another being, but something about the way the other appreciates him as much as Nilo does him encourages it in his broken state. Aina Twin Sister. Has very few memories of them together, only really knows her as a frustrating figure that always was hiding, first with some sort of issue Nilo was too young to understand, then later simply due to her feral mindset. Accepts their paths being different, no longer resents for it and holds a neutral opinion of. Notus & Luso Lyre Youngest sister. Made her a charm to help protect her from the forest, though still holds her at an arm's length. Faolan, Raenelle, Ronja, Hare Unacknowledged half-siblings or adopted sibling in Hare's case. Seems to fluctuate from indifferent towards to resenting. Assumed gone Sasuda Nephew. Nearest he can gather is more sentient than his sister. Checks on occasionally. Rohan & Rhona Aunt and Uncle through Kauna. Doesn't know well and presumed feral. Doesn't expect any form of bonding from them. Akhen & Aria + family Sees Aria like a mother figure. Gets along with well. Helps his cousins where he can. Zash & Family Butts heads with but respects. Thalassa & Cayleigh Younger aunts. Doesn't know well. Presumed feral, and doesn't expect any attempt at bonding from them. Gone Lilith Adopted grandmother. Closer to due to her human mindset. A bit wary of after his grandmother nearly killed him- all an accident- but still loves. Kauna & Athena Feral grandmothers. Doesn't hold them in high opinion, but doesn't outright loathe either. Mateo & Erune Feral grandfathers. Vague memories of from his childhood, but mostly forgotten by this point in his life. Doesn't really resent for not being there, but doesn't have the highest opinion of either. Aurik His father's friend. Technically his godfather, but after all these years the buck no longer sees much merit in the title. Much like his grandfathers, doesn't resent the buck, but doesn't have the highest opinion of. Helmut* Called by: Jedi; The Fruit Dealer; others Acquaintance. Knows the little demon as Eloa's friend, but recently made a point to chat with him. Brought him fruit from outside of the Forest, and made a note to do that for him from time to time. Matthew Acquaintance. Matt. The male helped him acquire a waterlily for his daughter, promised to return with a painting for his kindness-which he ultimately did. A bit put off by his wariness, especially of himself, but understands all the same as well. Eloa Friend. There when she needs him, but tries to not be dragged into her problems- especially now when he's more fragile. Theodore Friend. Technically an uncle through marriage, but views him more as an equal than an uncle. Aurus Little Sun A rabbit kit. Feels protective of. Voltaire & Mae Helped with Eloa, isn't sure what to make of the male and his possessiveness of his friend, but doesn't mind the child. Gone Ferals Stone, Summit & others. Quiet, peaceful company. Narumi & Xylona Hates for abandoning him and putting him through mental hardship. Gone I bear it thin. Creative - Biased - Quick Tempered- Rash - Aggressive - Focused - Genuine - Honest - Kind - Calm - Patient -Responsible- * Being worked on over time. Only a quarter of his personality is shown here. Nilo is dynamic; get to know him to see how he is. Traumas have settled somewhat. Still has OCD fixations- cleaning, cooking. Still uses meditation and herbal teas, but less frequently. Still vulnerable, but more agreeable now. Actually carries a conversation and seems to care about others. From Lilith: Worn rabbit fur blanket; a Christmas sweater, normal sweater, scratch art paper, yarn, one half of a sun and moon ring. From Achilles: emerald necklace (seen wearing at all times). From Rae: Worn at all times. Gift from his mother. Other gifts from his mother: black skull mask with red cracks, black and red scarf, small burlap bag, poppy seeds (assorted colors), small rabbit figurine, duo color marbles, "an array of purple marbles in varying shades and sizes, a few combined with other colors, different herb, flower, and tree seeds, a journal written by Rae on the helpful properties of each plant and how to grow and harvest them, A letter filled with memories and sweet words". A terribly woven bracelet to match the one she made Achi, a quilt with his and van's wedding date sown along an edge, sweet pastries, wine, tourmaline pendent From Xylona: a bracelet made of flowers. From Van: too much to keep track of. From Akhen & Aria: a handmade, hand carved, hand painted blanket chest. Owns a variety of things: sports cars, books, animal companions (dog, cat, nightjar, fish, hens etc.) seedlings, jewelry etc. outside of the forest. Arts Me- • bird nilo • • • • • • • • • • Treedancer- • • Soli-• • Springbird-• Ebony3-• Caiir-• The sun illuminates only the eye of man, but shines into the eye and heart of the child. The lover of nature is he whose inward and outward senses are still truly adjusted to each other; who has retained the spirit of infancy even into the era of manhood. Not the sun or the summer alone, but every hour and season yields its tribute of delight; for every hour and change corresponds to and authorizes a different state of the mind, from breathless noon to grimmest midnight. I am not alone and unacknowledged. They nod to me and I to them. The waving of the boughs in the storm, is new to me and old. It takes me by surprise, and yet it is not unknown. Nature always wears the colors of the spirit. The eye is the best of artists...[a]nd as the eye is the best composer, so light is the first of painters. There is no object so foul that intense light will not make beautiful. And the stimulus it affords to the sense, and a sort of infinitude which it hath, like space and time, make all matter gay. Even the corpse hath its own beauty. The tradesman, the attorney comes out of the din and craft of the street, and sees the sky and the woods, and is a man again. In their eternal calm, he finds himself. The health of the eye seems to demand a horizon. We are never tired, so long as we can see far enough. I have seen the spectacle of morning from the hill-top over against my house, from day-break to sun-rise, with emotions which an angel might share. The long slender bars of cloud float like fishes in the sea of crimson light... I look out into that silent sea. The beauty of nature reforms itself in the mind, not for barren contemplation, but for new creation. All men are in some degree impressed by the face of the world. ~ Emerson Nature (1836) "He is the world's eye. He is the world's heart." ~ Emerson The American Scholar (1837) "The cunning of the fox is as murderous as the violence of the wolf." Thomas Paine Common Sense 1776. Christopher Cranch "Transparent Eye-Ball" (1836) "For me, I wait the awakening call: I pray that slumber leave me soon. I wait until the sunlight fall On hands yet frozen by the moon." "Never a star shines late or soon..." Stagnant Hours Maurice Maeterlinck (1915) "Deep silence in the shadowy land, Deep silence where the shadows cease." La Fuite de la Lune Oscar Wilde (1877) "I have known the silence of the stars and the sea." Silence Edgar Lee Masters (1919?) "Death is the road. Life is the traveler. The soul is the guide." ~ Sri Chinmoy "The wind in the pines, the rustle of the leaves, the murmur of the brook, the growl of the thunder, and the voice of the night were all understood and answered by him. The flowers, the trees, the rocks, the hills, the clouds were to him, not lifeless things, but living friends, who laughed and wept with him as he was gay or sorrowful... Was he in truth,..., poorer or richer than we?" "Forest and hills and flower and cloud sang the songs he loved. All day the sunlight laid its wealth in bars of gold at his feet, and at night the moonlight things and the shadow things came out to play." ~ Shepherd of the Hills (1907) "...children of men miserably delude themselves in their own schemes, and in confidence of their own strength and wisdom; they trust to nothing but a shadow." ~ Jonathan Edwards (1741) "I know not what course others may take, but as for me, give me liberty or give me death." ~ Patrick Henry (1736-1799) She saw fire, every bit as bright as the one in her own chest; a fire that gave birth to Shadows. ~ The Lotus War, Book 2 A fox is a wolf who sends flowers. ~ Ruth Brown Great Ones and gods locked in conflict. Palemon told of the strength of the arm of man, Jo'ha'nel of the energy of what may be. Tahn's thoughts turned upon the necessity of both, how one could not exist without the other. But he also wondered, beneath the lasting sky and above the abiding, patient feel of earth beneath him, if men could live if they only had one or the other. "It is a horrible thing to feel their cries...a horrible thing. In all my years I've not copied a word that describes, nor translated a passage that conveys such utter hopelessness. It is an awful thing to learn: All ink, all vellum, all graphite and parchment are imperfect receptacles for the thing we call life. And poorer still to record the sorrow of death." ~ The Unremembered "'You'll never forget them, not even after years. But then one year you'll go a whole minute without feeling the pain. Then an hour. A day. That's all you can ask for, really.' His voice drops. 'You'll heal. I promise.'" ~ AEITA "'People will disappoint you. It's not usually malicious on their part. It's not usually done with good intentions either...as I tried to do with you. But motivations won't matter when someone fails you.'" ~ TOI He showed me what a fine line divides love from misery. Sometimes, in fact, there’s no line at all. We are no longer blessed with innocence, nor do we deserve to be. Paradise may have been lost, but paradise is a bad bargain. It costs too much. It conceals serpents, and is littered with graves. ~The Second Mrs. Hockaday What point is there in being human if you don’t let yourself feel anything? ~ATATN "What are most real to me, are the illusions that I create with my painting. The rest is just shifting sand..." Eugene Delacroix. The Copperhead ~ Francis Bret Hart Until its open and bleeding on the floor. Disclaimer This character is just that, a character. His opinions, thoughts and values are his and his alone. However, I do take responsibility of him and his actions. He is IC 99% of the time and OOC moments are noted on his bio. So, should he upset you or you find yourself confused by his actions, I strongly suggest you ask me before just assuming something. I can't read your mind, and you can't read mine. Asking questions will avoid problems in the future. This bio will probably contain cursing, mature content, excessive blood/gore and may contain drug use, sexual content and or self harm. If you find yourself triggered by such material then don't feel a need to track it. This character to his entirety belongs to me © kiwara. Design was compiled by both myself and Treedancer. Bio coding composed by me, kiwara, and the java tabs belong to Hraeth. Coding has roots with Jiarqua, Unplugged and probably many others. Size chart © Apeldille. Background pattern found here and belongs to its two owners respectively. . |
Daddy track
~ C.S. Lewis
Hellooo
Mommy track ♥
Expect a lot of
Thanks for the tracks ♥
Happy to finally play him.
Sassy sister track. ♥
Cutie!
Track for baby ♥
Sig: Aihnna
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So excited to finally get to learn more about him.
what a cutie! trackin~ c:
trackin~ c:
adorable art by Tuoho! ♥
Oh My God! It's A Baby!
<3 Lilith will now be the Big Blue Blob or BBB for short. (:
Thank you for the track,
And Ebony
Yessss. Hahaha. He's probably like...the size of her hoof or something, lol.
overdue track 8D
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Pixel Wis by squeegie~
oh, the cuteness! ^^ tracks~
"Missed you little one."
♥ He loves his
He loves his Grandma.
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"Nilo!" The giant's voice echo around the frozen air. A smile was pent up inside of her already pulling on her lips. She was proud about something and her old spiderweb of a shawl with its scattering of souls was wrapped around her shoulders. A sure sign she was carrying something. "Nilo!" The doe bellowed again, her mouth prickled in the cold.
Nilo's ears perked at his
"Mah!" (Oh shoot. I don't have his voice color down yet.)
Her gaze swiveled across the
"Meh." he answered her words,
She rubbed, nuzzled and blew
(Soooo. Nilo doesn't know how
The little fawn tipped his head, reaching up to poke the blanket with his little runny nose. He didn't know what this thing was or why she had it, or why she was even mentioning it to him...but..it felt like something warm and furry. Like Mama. It felt like Mama or Da. Confused, he squeaked and tried to reach up to poke it again- just to make sure. How could something so small feel like his parents? Or grandma?
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The doe's smile was so big it was amazing that she hadn't dropped the blanket. She shook it at him playfully before carefully pinning him in place with her legs. She got the blanket laid out on his back and struggled a bit with fastening the little straps around Nilo's belly, neck and back legs. It took a few minutes to get everything adjusted properly and make sure that the gold was snug. Lilith stepped back to survey her handiwork. "There we go! You should be a lot warmer now, snug as a bug in a rug." The pride she felt right then far outweighed the indignation of being chased out of the house she'd swiped the needle and thread from with a broom while being the size of a dik-dik. "Sorry I couldn't get this to you at Christmas little one, I still needed to catch a few more rabbits."
Nilo had squirmed a little
She chuckled, finally letting
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Oh my goodness, cuteness overload here!
xD Just too cute! Nilo
Nilo snuggled up beside her giving another little squeak before reaching over to lick the side of her face in his version of a baby kiss.
omg dying, baby kisses! This
She fluffed up feeling content, feeling happy, complete. Funny, she'd never thought she would feel like this again. All those years.... back to that first child, that little girl in that town when the old giant was god. She remembered feeling like this back then but that town and that girl were long gone now. Yet, this moment with the little gold was all that mattered. Face crinkling at his 'kiss' she smiled once more. The doe would stay with him until morning came.
.: Aww pretty baby!
@Fain Thank you for the
Thank you for the track. ^^
@Ebony
That song is perfect! And happy Lilith is absolutely adorable oh my goodness. Thank you for this little RP. So adorable. Nilo's not going to take that blanket off until he outgrows it, I feel like. lol.
She really should be happy
I know right? I just see him
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Lilith stared floating O-0,
Sorry Nilo, she's full of helium
I totally missed that. Lol,
I came back to the computer
xD That is awesome. I imagine
The old oak kept coming up
"Nilo? Are you there?"
Nilo's head lifted, ears
"Hi Grandma..." Nilo greeted her quietly in a tired monotonous voice, mildly wondering if she could even hear him over the humming. The young buck shifted his weight around, rising his head from where he had been staring at the ground. He tried to not focus on anything around him, focusing made his mind hurt even more. "...Did you need something...?"
Love his new art ♥
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As do I. ♥ Orin drew
The oak changes its tennor,
He gave the slightest of
Sorry for shortness, this is about as good as I can do right now. I've got a really bad headache that is making concentrating difficult.
"I love you little one.
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It's okay. I hate it when I get headaches, wait untill you fell better <3
"I do..." Maybe not outright.
Very little muse but I have random brief moments of where I can write up something like this. Go figure.
She shifted slightly, side to
"Can you feel other emotions, sensations as well? Like love, happiness or anything else? I may have a very.......tentative idea....mmm.....about this."
Half formed information wouldn't do much to help her grandson now though. What could she do for him now? What did she do to tune the prayer noise out before the fall? She wasn't sure now.
(Muse is a strange creature I swear)
(Oh yes, yes it is.) Nilo
Nilo went still, quiet as he thought about her question. Up until that point he only really noticed the negative emotions. Yet, surely he felt the positive too? He couldn't remember a time when he was so overwhelmed with joy...well wait, yes he could. It was a dim memory of some months back in his fawn hood, but he had felt an overly strong sensation of joy. What had it been for though? He couldn't remember now. Maybe he was overly excited to see his mother or father...maybe he was overjoyed at starting to understand the foods he could eat...
"I...I think so, Grandma." He murmured after a moment, "I think I feel those emotions too, but they aren't as strong as the bad ones."
"Mmm...." That made sense.
"I think trying to improve your ability to feel good emotions might.....help balance out the bad. Good emotions tend to...mmm.....be more, I'm not really certain how to explain it, sink below the others. Try not to forget the good memories little one, they'll be worth it in the end."
It was hard trying to figure out a way to help with problems like this. The person coping with the issue was usually the only one who really knew what was going on. She began iddly grooming the fawn, probably being gentler than nessary.
(My drawing muse recently decided that I could only draw snails :L )
(A few years back, I had a
He listened silently, absently grooming her when she started to groom him, which gave him time to mull over what she was saying. Good memories...how many of those did he have, really? Other than times with his father and mother...sometimes with his sister when she wasn't hiding. But, he had his new friends too, Grandma Lilith and well...everyone else that he could still remember. They all counted for something right...wait...when did he...maybe he was getting this friend thing after all! A little shiver of excitement went through his nerves at the thought that he was actually starting to understand something that others got. Took long enough..."I won't forget good memories, Grandma." he reassured her, tipping his head back to look up at her, "Won't forget. Try to...try to remember them when my head hurts really, really bad."
(Still get stuck on their
"You'd be surprised what a little hope can do little one." She'd seen otherwise impossible feats completed with hope, mothers saving children, people surviving disasters and even eventually talking with one of the Gods. The doe still wanted to do something to help her grandson though....best to start simple then. "I have some ideas.....but they might sound a bit silly at first, would you like to hear them?"
(Ahh those shells are
"I won't underestimate it, ever, then." He decided, still grooming his grandmother's fur. Wherever this emotion fell into his understanding of the world, he didn't know, but if it was like all the other emotions he had a little understanding of...well he wouldn't treat it lightly, that he knew. "Sure, I want to hear them!" He tipped his head up to look at her, giving up his grooming for the time bringing to give the giant doe his complete attention.