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'Proelium'
Felt a little cocky today and took the opportunity to wander around the forest. Cockiness dropped off hard when he realised he just found his twin sibling Italia. IS NOW SUPER INSECURE he remembers their last conversation and definitely thought a lot about it afterwards but he don't know how to act still. Was prickly (when is he not) at first but Italia's dogged 'lost puppy' antics kind of gave him no choice but to accept her love. secretly enjoyed the attention

BUT DUDE
DUDE she was so exhausting to deal with like the jumping, the 104493 nuzzles, the running. There's no doubt he loves her deeply, like deepdeeps but for somebody who just spent half their life holed under a thorn bush with only mice to keep him company it's pretty taxing. Decided to visit Zafeiri and the small blue child [ Thierri ] in hope to distract Italia for a while but some time during that was SUDDENLY RUN DOWN BY DEVANI like cAn Y oU NOT i need my 1 kilometer personal space bubble respected :c
in the middle of everything did get jealous of Italia's attention to Thierri because he has separation issues

Initially made attempts to deny her persistent search for affection but got too tired again. I swear she was worse than Italia
buT! got to greet Thierri on more positive grounds this time. Kind of cute, kind of small, doesn't want to beat him up now and thank god for that because Zafeiri looked ready to do the same to him if he made a bad move.

There was a small white.. thing [ Melle ] that seemed to be interested in him but he simply wasn't interested in socializing right now. Too much for today. It took the time to sit a distance away with its back facing him. Amusedly thought to himself, is it trying to ignore me?
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Started the day off with some creepy staring at his family in the distance and was pretty much content to stay as a lump of potato.
Did some heavy freaking out though after a few minutes when he realised he was being watched by his twin in the grass. Made aggressive actions in a bluff to ward her off from giving him any more angst, but was not to be. After a bit though, had to lean against a tree to catch his breath. He's super emaciated and gross looking, so reasons. Mumbled half-heartedly at her to 'go away,' and leave him alone but;

"Erl doesn't.. love anymore?" ears flat against her skull and eyes wide "tell what I do.. maybe can make erl love again? hmm?"

He makes a noise of resentment. "Leave, come back, leave - sick of it. Hate feelings when y-you leave, hate when you don't."
He pauses.
"We were meant to be One. Together.
... Love me, leave - no, stay - I-"

She takes a step, but only one. "Are still that.." tone almost a plead "still one.. still no other like erl for I" a quiet chuff, maybe even so quiet it's barely heard "Erl wants me to go or stay? wont leave again if not wantin' to.. just want erl-" a nod "-yeah, just want erl.. want erl to be ok"

He sighs, breath rattling in his throat. His eyes gaze at her pleadingly. He told himself he'd hate her, resented her disappearances, but yet still yearned to have her around. It pinched at his pride.
" Stay. "
It was forced out, but he meant it. Some kind of hope for reconciliation in him continued to burn as he watched his twin sibling tiredly.

Ears that were earlier tightly against her skull were now unpressing and turning upwards at his word, at the hope it brought and the hope that now filled bright big damp eyes. "Stay for erl, then" she responds quietly, because she would for him, but she also would have left and never returned if that what was muttered from his dark lips instead. No matter how long it would take, she felt he did still love her, even if it was far from the truth, and she had the patience to wait. For him. "Will stay".

THINGS HAPPENED OK
After that though, just wanted some time alone to make sense of just what happened, and didn't want to deal with trying to chum up with his twin after so much internal turmoil so went off to bury himself back into his deathbed/den. Had some quiet time before wandering off to watch over his family again, from a distance.
Super spooked by this giant blue beast [ Voxiox ] hanging around, so didn't dare show his true feelings when some of the fawns [ Thierri, Colette ] came over to investigate him. In reality, he resents them and would've gladly slapped one of them around roughly, but under the eye of the beast, he resorted to simply moving away and not responding to their curious inquisitiveness. His eyes watched them dispassionately until they began to half-close.

THEN HELIOS RIGHT NEXT TO HIM with a tiny blue thing [ Thierri ] and stumbled to his feet to shoot off, disgruntled that they'd managed to sneak up on him, as well as him letting them invade his personal space (of fukin 1km or smthg) because of his lax attention.
Not happy. Wanted to make it clear he was just there for Italia, but refrained.



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Knows something's different. Likely to appear more often.
Dropped by the tree markers Zafeiri lingers by briefly, drawn by the mingling of hauntingly familiar scents and hovered there briefly, unearthing old memories the scents brings back. Feels less empty and dead than before, but doesn't want to think about what this means.

He'd only meant to ghost by to say he's been around, but kind of internally froze when he gradually became aware of a familiarly bulky, white shape by the side. His insides feel heavier than they have in weeks and I'm pretty sure he saw faint spots behind his eyes because of the shock and his sudden heart rate acceleration.

Outwardly still deadpan, unfazed and cool, but he got up nonetheless. Absolutely stumped as to why his.. that one decided to reappear. [ Italia, for y'all who don't know ]
At first was at a loss as to what to do and probably would have just stood there staring, but his disbelief and automatic habits of backing off took over. Stepped back, breath wavering in his throat, eyes still unseeing.

Wanted to leave and run off and dig himself back into the earth, but simultaneously felt drawn back to the Rose Spur's familiar spines he'd run his nose over so tenderly before. Orbited her like a moon unable to pull away from the solidity of the Earth but refused to come any closer despite her pacing and calls.
ALso grew really angry and bitter while fighting his first instinct to investigate and approach, rationalising that they was probably a ghost. Or one of those painfully vivid, lucid dreams.

Either way, the more he looked at her, the more he felt his resent grow into a horrible taste in his mouth. Doesn't want to cease existing anymore, but sure as hell isn't ready to meet his other half and attempt to figure out what happened. Stewed a little as he watched her pace in a frenzy and suddenly felt really, really tired even as his underused muscles protested at the tension he was holding himself with. Unconsciously aware of this being the first of any emotions felt in a long time.

Ended up with his face against a wall in the giant stone structures and cringing at the strength of his emotions that he wasn't accustomed to dealing with, or even feeling. Can't sleep though, and is hyperaware of his sibling running rampant around the forest. Actually terrified of what would happen if he saw her again, or vice versa. Has no idea what to expect.

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Let out a breath. And another one. This one was deeper, but stuck in his throat. He coughed. Jokes, it was just dirt.
Scrabbled out of his deathbed desperately, the vines which had grown around him and shielded him from prying eyes now proving a battle to get out of. Took the better part of half an hour extracting himself, weak pull by weak pull.

Emaciated and covered in mushrooms, stinging nettles and probably mouse shit, he makes a disturbing sight. The mushrooms glow.

The stag staggers to his feet, holds the position for a moment and tumbles down again, breaking off a few head of mushrooms. They begin to softy disintegrate into dark ash.
The trail of ash traces his faltering path towards.. somewhere.

Apparently that somewhere means distressing your mother with your vacant smile and cold demeanor and confusing your brother.