Confronted Benat, finally sick with jealousy and resentment for her sibling. Brought him to their birth place, asked him about their mother. When he responded, pointed out that he'd left her behind to die while he was accepted by their half siblings. Snapped when the bull responded mildly, acting as if he didn't care for her plight. Lunged for his neck with her teeth while aiming her tines at his sides with the intent to maul. Broke into a fight where he mildly struck back at her, turning the fight into a heavy hitting brawl on her end and not as rough from his end. Until Sloane showed up. In which her rage boiled over, resent and jealousy towards the doe blinding her in a red haze.

Moved with the intent to kill. Slamming her tines at the doe rapid fire, not caring if she hit or missed, grinning like a mad man when she did make contact. Ripped and tore with needle sharp teeth, snarling like a lunatic. Eventually was knocked off the doe by Ezekiel. Staggered and hit the ground hard, only to scramble back to her feet moments later and recoil spitting. Stood back with sides heaving, her heart faltering. Spat bloody phlegm onto the ground while she attempted to regain her breath. Once able to move, staggered away to the pond, where she collapsed. Drifted in and out of conscious, ignored her wounds, half-heartedly hoping that she'd succumb to them.

Was later found and confronted by Dimitri. Who basically pep talked her into getting her life together with the threat of no help and even sterner words. Agreed with him that her attitude towards life was lackluster and promised to get her life in some semblance of order. Even if that meant simply feeding off her anger and angst, rather than drowning in it. Was kept company by Link through the entire ordeal, having found a serious kinship with the youth. Sees the child as a reflection of herself as a baby, and strives to do what she can to make sure the little one grows up happier than she was. Seeing as the entire day she didn't see any sort of guardian checking in on the malformed.

Was aided by Dimi to one of the willows, where he promptly patched her up using plant magic. With the root structures of flowers holding her tattered body together, as much as it creeped her out in the beginning, settled down to rest beside the pallid. Had her flesh scraps tossed over to Link, who seemed to enjoy them.

-09:07:2016-

New adult art!!! YAYYYY.

Hang out with Dimi and Addie in her preferred sunspot. As usual is a lazy bones.

-04:19:2016-
Current Teenage Appearance Stronger, grown in leaps and bounds while in the care of the cyber wolves. Body has straightened and gained in weight, while her spirit has learned to control and adapt to the malformaties. Has been learning how to control and use the detriments to her advantage.

Horns are longer and the insides pulse with blue energy. Roughly size #9

Very spiteful and quite to react in a negative, rather, uncontrolled manner. Habors scores of resentment towards those who ruined her childhood.



-12:08:2015-
Had another AWESOME day.

Started out with attempting to play with Libel again, which didn't go well. Was about to give up on the idea of getting the little male to play, when she decided that scaring him out of his wits by darting around like a mad person was a good idea. However her antics were quickly put to a stop by Nikhil, in which she kinda was like... Okay, I got it no more pestering the guy with the tail hand. Bounced off to go pester and play with Zorn, chewing and pulling at his ears and tail in attempt to get him to wrestle. Seems to have a budding affinity for fighting, despite her past.

Meandered off when Zorn dozed off to drop in and visit with her den parent things, playing with one of the puppies for a short while before noting Dev's catch of the day. In which she began to whine and beg like the wolves she was growing up around. When the fluff ball of a hunter refused her food she climbed the social ladder and whined to Vamom, who promptly nabbed her a portion. Scarfed down the meat before curling up out side for a long long long nap with DenDad.

Was waken a term later by her red sibling. At first kinda shrunk away, however when she was presented with a gift the Malformed wiggled out of the Cyberwolfs grasp to investigate. Though Jack retreated pretty darn fast, was able to open the gift within her view, was absolutely overjoyed with the mouse toy. In which she stuffed in her mouth and carried around all proud and happy, while toting the box of cookies for a snack later. Is trying to wrap her tiny mind around why the sudden change in tone, however, for now, just accepts it as it is.

THENN noticed Zorn and the great big Gay gathering of 2015. Joined her sibling and sat there with her mousie hanging out of her mouth as she proudly presented the toy to all the males in the group before settling down to be preened and praised by the hoard. All in All life is good.




-12:07:2015-
Had the first truly happy day in her entire life. No bad moments, no jealously, no lack of food or attention.

Joined Circe early in the evening in hopes that the White would play with her hair again, which, lucky for the Malformed, she promptly did. Not only did she rasp out all the tangles, she added some extra snazz to the neglected locks. Ended up looking like a shampoo model. Ran around primping and preening, feeling a whole new emotion bloom in her chest. Pride.

Though she still stumbled and fell like a rolypoly, raced around in circles giggling and playing with the white. Watched as she and Nikhil play fought and for a moment her heart clenched in worry. However, once Circe pounced on her, and after the initial panic of OMG AM I BEING ATTACKED, learned that play fighting was a thing. Which unleashed a whole new Shaila, one that ran around blindly, literally, challenging everything. Tossed her tiny budding horns at trees, semi-strangers, grass, leaves, a poor confused squirrel, and various other things. Fell over a lot in the beginning, however as her antics progressed she ceased falling over as much. Still toppled like the London Bridge from time to time, however wasn't nearly as floppy with her head tosses.

THEN something happened with a bunch of big giant deer and Circe got all mad, which made Shaila mad. Her new found spirit causing her to toss her horns and beat up trees. Felt like she had to give an example of what she could do to those that were mean. Her awesome big brother defused the situation though, and once everything was okay was delighted when he came over to love on her. To which she loved on him like some sort of weird bug cat, then promptly attempted to fight him. Look at me big brother, look how tough I can be.

THENNN met Umay, who she flounced around, and Libel, who she also flounced around, but he didn't seem to like the flouncing so let him be. Then met Milagros, whom she tried to get to play but she seemed kinda lazy so just let her be and went to go be lazy with Senpai Circe. After a little while was joined by Benat, whom she kinda inwardly cringed away from cause she doesn't trust the company he keeps. Feels as if he'll become bad like those he sleeps among. However, accepted him either way cause she's a good sibling.



-11:11:2015-
(Took her off mini and it's just not suiting her.)

Has been lingering within the forest more after staying hidden within the cyber den for a span of time. Is extremely low in spirits, feels as if everyone rejects her. Wonders through the days almost mindlessly, her since of self wavering due to sheer loneliness.

As of today noticed Rajani and went to visit, paused when she noticed Indigo's bird, terrified. As badly as she wanted to cuddle with her friend couldn't shake the conditioned fear towards the bird. Though Slattern made no outward actions that signaled an attack or even danger, couldn't bring herself to near the black. Eventually was led away and took it as a sign that she wasn't welcome near the other children. Kinda collapsed into a heap near the ramsiels, who also didn't exactly want her near. However stopped really caring at this point and simply surled up in a sodden heap under a tiny mushroom that did little to keep out the rain. Eventually woke and moved to her own mushroom.

10/10 Shaila is pathetic.

-10:26:2015-
-Hatched out near triple her infant size after a span of intense development.
-Though weak upon emerging has quickly regained strength.
-Has completely transitioned mind sets. Regained former knowledge and intelligence. However doesn't let onto this and keeps playing the infant those knew her as. Speaks like a child, acts like a child.
-Harbors intense growing negative emotions towards numerous family members.
-Plotting, planning, waiting.
-Suffering.
-A child scorned.

-Sat with Benat, however was extremely tense and almost uncomfortable.

-10:22:2015-

Emerged from flesh cocoon.

More later cause player is about to pass out.



-10:15:2015-
After suffering for the last few days of what seemed to be a cold, succumbed to a coma. Unaware of those around her, unresponsive to touch. Both spirit and mind seem to have gone eerily silent.

At some point was found by Zorn, who carried her to a sun patch. Was tucked limp against his side and covered by his tail, protected from any further harm. As the day progressed the false fawns body went from boiling hot to almost frigged, limbs stiffening. Breathing stilled to something almost nonexistent. While her heart still beats, only those with the best of ears can pick up on it. To all others the fawn appears and smells like something utterly and completely dead.

As night falls the body will stiffen further, hair falling out at the slightest touch to reveal a semi translucent skin. At this point any harm that befalls the child could very well drive her into the grave, however, those who do touch the body will find that the outside has hardened to something akin to a shell. Through the semi-transparent skin one might note the development of color and the subtle twitches of new limbs.



-10:14:2015-

Withering.

Mental status deteriorating despite having a relatively good past few days.

Betrayed.


-10:12:2015-
Hung out with Rota, tried to play with the other neighborhood kids.

Basically this.





-10:6:2015-

Extreme emotional damage has caused the ghost to begin withdrawing from her hosts mind in order to escape some of the pain. Due to this many of her memories from the void and her prior death/relationships have come ebbing back over the past few days. Memories of such have only caused a stain upon the once child's soul, which continues to spread outwards as she remembers and compares the past to the present. Irreparably broken.

Alongside this has began the process of reverting her mind into its former state of intellect. Withdrawing herself from the host child's mind, which was unable to comprehend her former memories and as so forgot them, has been brushed blank and useless. No longer attached as if she herself were always one with the child. Rather has truly possessed the body, using it as her vessel. Has resumed her former age and mindset. Somewhat disappointed that she was unable to have the rebirth she'd longed for while in the void and holds a deep grudge against those who ruined her chance at the childhood she'd wished for. Realizes that life is far more nasty and disgusting due to the unpredictable nature of her peers. The happy image of a family who loved her and wanted her has shattered as the spirit reviewed her fathers death and dubbed it as another episode of him abandoning her to die. Resentful to, however can't help but love him for the sole moments of happiness she's seen while within the forest. Grudging.

Though outwardly the same the possessed child may seem 'off' in some indescribable way to those who have seen her around more often than not. Seems to not shake nearly as badly and isn't as quick to burst into tears. Has a certain tenaciousness to her movements and actions, as if an adult were moving around with a child's body. Careful and watchful. Still as playful as ever. Actions are more pointed; a wolf in sheep's clothing.

Also has a cold... no idea why.


-10:6:2015-
Had one moment of happiness playing around with Mol's kids... and then Indigo fckin ruins it. Good job.

Taken by Lee and placed inside of Rom's leg hair. Made a cavern of self-pity and drowned in it.

-10:5:2015-
Woke alone, stretched and wondered aimlessly around the forest. Quivering and weak from refusing food. Found Sloane by the fox kit's den and a wave of jealousy rose within her chest. Stared for a long while before simply moving to tuck herself beside the black. Uncaring as to if the red suddenly charged and called her minions upon her per usual. Shaken, broken, and unconcerned of death or even pain at this point. Upon her fathers death all semblance of self perseverance went void, lust for life sucked from her in one fell blow.

However then the black rose, noticing her, the tiny doe fell back cowering. Unwillingly followed when the doe motioned to do so. Unwilling to return to her birth tree pitched something a fit and rather attempted to weave herself between the does legs. Absolutely desperate for attention and acceptance.

When the black moved to leave felt something in her break. Seeing as so many already rejected her, left her, and generally ignored her very existence tried in vain to follow. Tripped and fell multiple times, blinking back tears as she tried as hard as she could to keep up. Eventually her legs couldn't do any further and luckily noticed a nearby Benat hiding within a tree. Joined him, sobbing, the rejection of her older sister cutting deep. It seemed as if the entire forest were against her very existence. Her broken heart shattering into irreparable pieces.

When Benat fell asleep was eyeballed by a crocodile man across the way, who after a long while of staring was scooped up by. Sorta just sobbed into his chest since no one else was around to give her the affection and soothing reassurance she so direly needed. Eyeballed him with big teary eyes when he told her that it was going to be okay and that she was too pretty to cry. Papped at the males face quivering like an abused chihuahua.

Spotted Lianage behind the crocodile and wiggled out of his arms to go faceplant at her feet, sobbing. Was taken to the Red's hill and curled safe into her mother. Her tears eventually drying. THEN noticed the phoenix lingering at the base of the hill and instantly cowered, lip quivering. Didn't want another beating to go alongside an already shit day.

-10:2:2015-

Found out from her mother about Chrona's suicide.


Shattered.

-9:13:2015-

Finally awoke today sore and miserable. Was quick to chase the lights behind her eyes back into dreamland. In which Chrona took the opportunity to place her in a safe nook. Unaware as to what happened earlier, however woke to a myriad of scents mixed with her fathers blood. Worried due to what he said a few days earlier when she'd awoken briefly. However figured her Daddy would be fine due to being the biggest badass ever and settled against the rock wall to rest and await his return.

-9:9:2015-
Started her day rather peacefully. Although her mother nor her father were around she figured it would be the perfect opportunity to visit her sister. When she approached the Maiden wolf, she however was unresponsive. Shrugged it off and simply started off to her birth place, not quite accepting the playground as her new home. Paused once she hit the playground to get her baring and figure out where exactly she was before beginning towards her home.

However fate is cruel and was hit out of no where with the sound of snarls and snapping teeth. Bolted, knowing full well who was behind her. When the red didn't cease her chasing after a couple of moments basically dived under the belly of her Blue neighbor. Cowered screaming as she watched her wolf sister awaken and charge the red, who was soon joined by her Father.

The fighting went on for what seemed like ages while the malformed screamed and cried into her neighbors legs. Taking a moment to try and stop the fighting by nudging at Ram when he went after her sisters feathered friend. Returned to her hiding place; the belly of safety. Which, sadly didn't last for long as Indigo decided to turn his target onto her. Bolted in attempt to escape the claws and horns of the phoenix. Tripped and fell multiple times, falling victim to the birds wrath. Ended up passing out after the umpteenth time that she was grabbed and shaken like a stuffed toy. Badly wounded and unconscious. Unaware that her mother and father both were in the forest. A rare event. Was taken by Chrona to their home where she lays badly wounded. Fate is undecided.

-8:17:2015-
Woke up with Daddy Chro and first things first demanded attention and loves. Received, per usual. However, directly after wanted him to take her to some fawns to play with. Smacked him in the face and made her wants known with various head tilts and eccentric, a bit awkward, leaps and bounds. Was shooed off towards Kettu's kits as Chrona went back to his dozing. Bounded/tripped, her way over and politely greeted the fox mother with paps to the chest and goofy looking bounces. Delighted when her kit awoke, even more delighted to see she wasn't alone in being runty mc runt face. Bounced, frolicked, tumbled, and fell all over the place with him for awhile before falling into exhausted heap under the All mother.

Woke awhile later to a big red wolf hovering over her and a few other pups that had awoken and joined the pile. Delighted when she noticed the red had mulitple eyes like her and proceeded to bounce up and pap the reds chest. Didn't realize this was her disowned sibling and still doesn't realize or know who she is. Was greeted with a set of teeth snapping in her face out of no where and promptly broke down screaming and crying out of fear. Donut you know that's how I died??!!

Chrona was quick to the scene as she scurried away from the red sobbing, belly hugging the ground as she attempted to keep herself small and vulnerable. Noticed the Phoenix who was often with her sister arrive on the scene and rush someone, unsure as to who and or what. However, added to her fear of being pummeled, which, she promptly was. While Chrona was trying to get Jack off of her, she scurried inside the den with the kits, trying to seek shelter and safety under Kettu. However, was promptly left out in the open by the fox as her sobs turned to screams of pain and terror when the red came at her again. Finally was simply picked up by Chrona and carried away in a miserable heap because why does everyone want to eat me??

Wounds were tended to by Chrona and she fell asleep in a shuddering heap under his chest.

-8:04:2015-

Started the day curled up and sleepy with Daddy Chro, however quickly decided to do a little exploring. (I.E, lets find Sloane) Stumble, fumbled, and fell her way up the hill towards her sister, only to notice a collaboration of new faces. One of which was younger and seemingly less scary, promptly tottled over to the puppy and papped her in the face to gage who and what she was. Reacted horribly when the puppy startled and chaos ensued. Her fear fed Shaila's fear which was then deepened by a sudden charge from the nearby phoenix. Cowered and quivered, flattening her body to the ground and slowly slugging away from the group. Sister Sloane to the rescue with a prompt body block and a guide back home to sleepy Daddy. Gave her sister lots of nuzzle rubs and leg weavies before promptly wiggling in and under Chro's chest hair and hiding like the fraidy cat she is.

Noticed motion a little while later in the form of X bringing Ulfr over to their den. Poked her head out from her Daddy shield only to Shailfish her way back into the thick fur for awhile. Eventually wormed out from Chrona to creep her way towards the pair. Ever so slowly attempted to feel the larger of the two wolves and after not getting a reaction or being eaten, decided he was relatively safe. Decided that she'd attempted second contact with the puppy. Once again tried to feel her all over which resulted in the great freak out of 2015. Melt downs from both children and many tears and fears later, attempted to strike up a friendship only to have the grey's mother pick her up and whisk her away into safety land. The sudden and unexpected exit caused the malformed to have yet another breakdown and crying fest, in which she likely left boogers and patchy tear spots on the experiment.

Eventually settled and began to pap and explore the big wolfs face. Not realizing that his big mouth could open and maybe eat her.


-8:03:2015-

Dozed around for a vast majority of the day before stumbling over to Sloane. Searching out an individual was no small task in her mind, let alone the five minute journey of stumbling and tumbling to her and the phoenix's tree. Unintentionally ignored the bird due to her current one track mind. Papped her elder sister on the legs and chest for attention before rubbing herself all over the wolf doe. Was led back to the home tree in which she spent a good long while twisting and weaving herself through the doe's front legs. Settled under her feet for the rest of the night feeling content and quite happy with herself.


Attempted to project herself into the familiars mind, however fell short in making contact. Settled with whining, grunting, and whistling at her sister in attempt to communicate her love for the doe.

-7:21:2015-

Started out the day by hobbling over to visit the neighbors and receive her complementary cuddles. In which she wheezed and whined happily, however her mood quickly exploded through the roof when she noticed the most wonderful amazing figure in the world coming towards her. Screamed internally and shuffled towards her mother, papping her in the face and rubbing up against her like an excited cat. Whined and whistled while she rubbed and nuzzled the most beloved person in her life before settling down beside her in a patch of purple flowers. Curled into her tummy and dozed for awhile.

However her senses awakened her and fear crawled down her spine as she managed to make out a fearsome figure in the distance. Frantically prodded her Mommy awake and cowered in fear, the memories of being eaten hot on her mind. Screaming internally and wheezing externally she all but clung to her Mommy's leg in attempt to become one with the doe and hide. Heart rate spiked and her chest began to ache, however complyed when the butterfly doe ushered her towards a small group of deer she'd yet to meet. (Ross, Virgil, and Kunst) Noticed the fawn and had a momentary urge to greet him, however her fear of being eaten kept her hidden within her mothers shadow. Stayed near the ruins for awhile before the Red decided it was time to move. Was ushered towards a hill, and did her best to try and keep up. Fell multiple times and struggled to keep up. Her chest and heart ached and pained her at this point and by the time she managed to make it up the hill she was in such bad pain she collapsed and cried at her Mother's feet. Liange was quick to nuzzle cuddle her into silence. Also received words or bravery from Kunst. Ended up resting her head on his back while sheltering under her mother.

Nursed once the fiasco died down and promptly slept for a bit before meeting another new face. Cayleigh. Explored her face with her feelers and promptly decided to use the newcomer as another cuddle buddy. Curled up in heap of fawns beside Liange. Was later joined by Benat, whom she face papped and nuzzled on.

Later in the evening she and her new found fawn friends were left unattended while their parents did parent things. Was shaken with fear as to how to get home since she'd never been on the hill before. Kunst saved the day and led her home where she was joined by Jhorla. Whom hopped and bopped around, inspiring the malformed to attempt the same. Promptly fell flat on her face and cried for awhile, which brought Isiel bounding over to soothe the crying butterfly. Nuzzled her nice neighbor lady and promptly went to gum on Jhorla's leg. Which later turned to Jhorla teaching her how to paint with berries. The idea backfired when she dipped her antenna into the paint and smacked her in the face with the paint laden plumes.

-7:19:2015-

Began her day nestled in her pile of blankies, warm and safe within the den. Hobbled out on her own and went 'exploring' which involved hobbling to the neighbors tree and papping the residents there with her antennae. Was delighted when the blue doe gave her nuzzles and positive interaction. Kinda shiver shuddered and papped her happily in the face with her feelers.

Went on a search for more family members and came by Sloane. Semi remembered her from now fading memories of her time in purgatory. Wanted to reach out to her and speak, however found herself without words or the brain function to string them together. Settled with excitedly smacking her with her feelers and rubbing her head on her leg. Was a bit bummed when she wasn't allotted cuddles or lots of nuzzle bumps. Obediently followed her back to the home tree and promptly settled on her foot in hopes that she wouldn't leave her all alone and restless. She didn't however kept her distance and didn't seem to want a personal baby lump attached to her side. Ended up obeying her cues to sit or sleep in certain spots a few feet away. Managed to sneak in a few excited nuzzles here and there.

Wheezed and got excited when a new (abit blurry) face appeared in the distance. Went to go check it out however wasn't greeted with open arms. Promptly skittered, slid, and rolled the way back to Sloane where she promptly hid behind her leg while peering at the bird with big watery confused eyes. Managed not to cry or whine however did get a bit upset when the little red deer who'd stopped by a tinge earlier ran past and Sloane went off after it. Kinda wanted the red deer to come back so she could pap it all over and figure out what those things on its body were.

-6:19:2015-

Beginning to procure some semblance of awareness. With her soul settled into the malformed body, the spirit is working towards the waking. Occasionally twitches and writhes in attempt to gain control of her limbs, doesn't really actually move much due to being swaddled in piles of blankets. A distinct pain radiates from her chest and awakens her from sleep from time to time, unsure as to why and doesn't bother worrying about it. Somewhere in the back of her mind a whisper of memory scratches out that the body she'd been chanced is far worse off than originally expected.

Managed to open her eyes and actually -see- for the first time. Stared for a long time at the pile of fur she knew as her mother, both before and now. Marveled at the way she breathed and thought of images from the time before, when everything was dark and filled with mute terror. Passed her thoughts to the dreams she'd shared with both her parents and her siblings. Lapsed quickly back into unconsciousness after nuzzling and wheezing in her mothers face. Unsure what to think, unable to grasp the reality that she's living.

Hasn't eaten anything since her arrival to the forest due to not being able to stand. Sleeps near constantly, to the point where she can hardly be roused. Lumbers along the line of life and death, though, clings tightly to the song of life.

Ended up eatting later with a little bit of finagling to get her positioned. Drained mom of all the milkies and promptly went back to dozing. A surprisingly big eater.


-6:18:2015-

After being whisked away from the forest, limp and lifeless, the baby was placed into the care of emergency medical staff and further whisked into the hands of a frantic surgeon. After resuscitation, the child was assessed and diagnosed with CHARGE syndrome.

Surgery was preformed immediately upon the childs malformed heart, correcting a valve that prevented the heart from functioning. During which they fitted her with a temporary trach-tube in order to establish breathing until they could fix the choanal atresia of her nasal passage. Stabilized the ailing child with multiple blood transfusions and left her to rest in the NICU. Surgery was a success.

Due to a time lapse between realms a second emergency surgery was preformed on the infant roughly a week later. One to open and correct her nasal passage and allow her to breathe. Kissed death multiple times during which, however in the end the surgery was as success. The baby was left sedated in order to prevent movement. Still hooked to many wires and monitors and is currently tube fed. Stable.

Doctors have diagnosed complete blindness in her human form due to coloboma's in both eyes. Upon checking her ears they also found she was mostly deaf due to malformed ear bones and tissue.

Upon the initial resuscitation, Seline managed to secure her binding to the lifeless body. All dreams and connections to the former spirit have gone quiet. Seemingly missing to those who possessed full contact. Has accepted the malformed body with not only pride, but hope. A second chance at life is always a blessing.