Lucian's Diary 12 - Weakling.
July 4, 2010 - 11:48am — Seele
Lucian
He is:
Hurt.
Furious.
Dissapointed in himself.
Sooo. I fough Xylen. Because I could.
This fawn kept his spells! They didn’t wear off. Dajhi saw him as a fawn too.
The nekkid dance. Clothed.
The nekkid dance. Quite nekkid.
HAAHA I see you there. NOTHING GOES UNSEEN.
Annoying..
I heard Tatata call out for help, so I eh, went in, and eh, fought for him.
The dancers are amazing!
Vasla. Jerk.
Sigh… Really those days..
Fawns! Everywhere!
Hm.
This was fun! She kept suprising me.
The quiet moments.
That day. Was really, really stressfull. So stressfull I didn’t take pictures.
Nuki! Met him before too, but eh, screenshots be nowhere to be seen.
Harasser deer was very annoying.
I disguised Stelmaria. Perhaps, the antlers would give her more confidence. Well atleast that guy didn’t recognize her, heh.
Sittin on a rock, drinkin beer~
…
They didn’t allow it anymore.
Sigh…
And some chatting:
”So. I guess I’m supposed to write a lot, but, yeah. Past days have been quite intense. Lots, lots, lots of fighting. Though there’s good news too! The naked dance party was really fun. We all jumped in. Stel didn’t want to join though, so I went back to her to dance with her once in a while. I understood, it was far too crowded for her. She did try though. We played as fawns, danced for quite some time. I went off later, alone, dressed up again. To the birch.
I don’t really remember.. But I guess I was feeling rather tired. Zach and Dajhi found me, and Stelmaria too. I went to do my job and brought Dajhi and Zach together. Heehee! Oh she was MAD with me. It was really funny. So first, I kept jumping around them in circles, pushing them together. Then I went to spy on them from a distance. Dajhi kept being mad. Heheh.
Though when we spoke later, she didn’t really feed me bats as she said she would. Phew.
I also met my half-sister. I wonder whom her mother was, because she had some bad genes alright. What a girly.. Girl.. Thing.. “Oh look at meee I’m so prettyyy”. Gosh. And dad just kept giving her attention too! So I went to bother dad, giving him different antlers and such. And then she started doing that to ME! You don’t do that! You’re supposed to bother your dad, not your sibling. And then dad started abusing my allergy. So I got angry and left.
Two against one. Tsk.
I heard Tatata call out, and, wondering what was wrong, I went up to him. I found he was being attacked by this huge stag. Well now, I certainly didn’t stand a chance, but I couldn’t let Tatata get hurt either! So I jumped inbetween. Fought him for quite some time before dad and Esll came to help me.. By then, I could only do some weak blows when I found the chance, evading his antlers… He really hit my head hard, ouch.
We defeated him in the end though… Dad said he was proud of me. I don’t t think he ever said that before. Might also be the last time I’ve heard him say that, too…
Hm. The next day, after a good rest, I was able to frolick with Stelmaria again. She dragged me along to visit the dancers. Really fun! I like their antics. Next time we should dance along with them though, Stel. That would be fun.
The next day though wasn’t all that. I woke up to Stelmaria’s alarm calls, and immediately went up to her to help. Vasla, again. I got so furious.. I think.. I think I lost control at some point. Didn’t stop going after him. I don’t know what I was thinking, but I guess I was so furious, all I wanted was to see him die.
I still do frankly. Guess I’ll have to grow larger though… Sigh..
Really.. Why can’t I protect her?...
I made her upset, it seemed.. Well, because I was hurt. I don’t really care though, as long as she’s alright.. Damn. She took care of me, cleaned my wounds. That got her bloodied up herself though, so I cleaned her too. Nothing’s ever easy..
The next day I still was quite slow.. My head hurting especially. Got quite grumpy. I found Zach and Stelmaria, and some fawn that was hopping with them. Though, Zach was afraid of me, so I couldn’t get close..
I really got mad there.. No. I got disappointed. That I did.
I was wounded, didn’t he have any respect for that?
Apparantly though, my wounds reminded him of a terrible past. So the next time we met, I forgave him.
Stelmaria and I played quite a long time the next day! I was feeling better then, too. We played tag, and hopped around quite a bit! Occasionally having to eh, distract deer though. Haha. And oh, when I was circling around the tree at the tag game, Stel made up another. She hid inside, and as I would walk around the tree, she would suddenly pop out and nuzzle me. Tsssk. No really, that made me laugh.
I love those moments when there are no weirdo’s after her. Why are they like that anyway? I thought they had more fun bothering each other instead of the innocent. Oh, wait. I guess you bother the innocent because that makes you look bad?
Whatever. Don’t really feel like thinking about it.
Yesterday was one of those days, of course. Resident bother SS, although she can be nice, was being a bother. And of course Reed, Thought I was rid of him. Apparently people come back from the death at least 9 times here. Like cats.I got so stressed, I think I went aggressive against pretty much each approacher…
Nothing to be proud of.
Sigh… Really now..
Will it ever stop? And, why her? That and, I feel like an idiot, not being able to protect her. Dad is able to protect Kiyoko.. Why can’t I? Am I doing something wrong? Pf…
I wish she didn’t feel guilty. I don’t mind getting hurt for her. It’s far more painfull to see her hurt…
Oh, yes, I also got a new friend, Nukilik. Nuki for short. He’s a nice stag, a bit scary in the beginning since he was behaving a bit like he was stalking me and Stel..Haha scary. But he’s quite nice. So I don’t mind now. He’s a bit shy, though, quite curious.
Some persistent stag REALLY wanted to eh, get close to Stelmaria. REALLY badly. I went rage, ofcourse, though dad quickly jumped in and showed me it was better to hold a dance-off.
Though the guy just DIDN’T LEAVE. ARGK. Kept coming back.
I wonder what’s so hard about “no” these days.
So I disguised Stelmaria. Pfff. Alright, it was a bit cruel, but it was also funny to see a “stag” with such big antlers run off at every approacher.. When we went back to dad, that guy came back as well. He didn’t recognize her though! Loser.
Though, when I thought it was safe for Stel to loose her disguise, the guy came back later, and Nuki told us it was alright to greet him. He had been distracting that deer for a while, playing with it. And apparently it was “really nice”.
Right.
So Stel grabbed all her courage, and with mine and Nuki’s encouragement, greeted that… Dork.
Everything seemed to calm down after that.
Although I was happy when he left. Damn bastard.
We were at the pond when I noticed Stelmaria got extremely nervous, and I soon found out why too. I got so angry.. How does he DARE hurt her. Bastard. Idiot. Really. And then he came closer.
I really couldn’t hold myself down anymore, and I ran up to him to bash that arrogant face. URGK, I can STILL get so FURIOUS about that GRRRR IF HE DOESN’T DIE SOON, I’LL RIP HIS ORGA-
…Alright.
I’m.. Nowhere as strong… And even with like, 5 stags going after him, he seemed unharmed.. How am I ever supposed to help her..
Both Nukilik and Stelmaria didn’t want me to go further. There was a white stag with huge antlers, far stronger as I, who seemed to manage quite well.. Damnit, now my pelt is stained again.
My eye hurts, a lot. I can’t see through it..
I met them back later on Red hill, the bastard still walking around. I wonder what his motive is. He really needs to leave her alone.. Damn. I really need to get stronger.
Yes. That’s what I need. I need to get stronger. I really need to be able to help her better. Really. I can only watch how all those strong stags are able, and how I’m still such a friggin midget…
I’m sure dad would manage…
Poor Lucian. ;; -throws gauze
D'awww... Poor Lucian.
PFFTLOL Poor Bella, she was
Poor Bella, she was so happy to meet her half-brother and had been looking forward to it ever since she was told she had one.
THAT DIDN'T GO SO WELL.
xD
By Leuvr ♥
Poor Lucian... ;_; Aw, I hope
Aw, I hope his eye is okay. Stella will murder someone if she finds out it's permanently injured.
... well, maybe not murder.
Aww..poor Lucian. =( He
He really hasn't had a good time recently. I hope things get better soon.
Hehe..but at least Zach managed to be on a diary! That's an accomplishment. XD
And I couldn't help but laugh at the parts where Luc played match-maker. I guess it's safe to say that he's good at that, at least. ~_^
D'aw, poor Lucian. *joins
It's really cute how he tries to protect Stelmaria, though.
Pffttt....That fawn has Janjaweed's set. But I can't see the picto.